#healme
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**** me.**
Words calmly exiting my mouth
Staring you dead in the eyes
My feeble form reflected
Within your teary blue eyes
I can see myself
Collapsed on the floor
No strength left in my body
No will left to fight anymore
You're holding it
Firmly in your hand
The sharp edged blade
Its so cold and so smooth
My crimson red blood dripping down
You're standing in horror
Unable to make a sound
Towering above me
The bathroom is silence
As my words echo throughout
You're shaking with such anger
With such confusion and doubt
W h y
You say in the most fragile voice
Its like you're the one breaking
I thought you would rejoice
**Because you're the only one who can do it
The only one who can help me**
The air around us tightens
Surrounding us with pressure
Its making me breathless
He's the only one who can put me together
I'm staring him down
I'm just a void of emotion
No visible feelings
Its so clear that I'm broken
**** me.**
I repeat
He falls to his knees
He crawls over to me
Holds me within his embrace
Squeezing me tightly
As if I am to disappear
Before whispering quietly
***We can get through this
Get through this together***
My tears begin to pour
As my mask begins to break
Pain and sadness overwhelms me
All the cuts and scars begin to ache
But I was relieved
As he knew the truth behind what I said
That my desperate plea was for help
Rather then wanting to be dead
He knew
That while I sat there
Holding tightly
onto that blade
That while I was screaming **** me***
He heard the words Heal me
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Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 8:37 AM UTC
You broke me.
You broke me and you never picked up the pieces.
Never glued me back together.
I just wanted to cry.
But I couldn't
We'll apologize
You will break me again and I will write more poetry.
You will leave again
I'll just want to cry.
But I won't be able to.
I'm sad.
It just happened again and I'm so broken-still in pieces.
I never got fixed
So now I'm broken for good.
Some scars don't heal.
I just want to cry
But I can't.
When you broke me
You broke my tear ducts, too.
Apr 3, 2015
Apr 3, 2015 at 5:01 PM UTC
Today
I will find my heart
where you left it
Today
I will rinse it clean
and
sew it back into my chest
Today
I will buff the scars
and watch as it inhales
red
Today
I will be fully alive
but
Tonight
I will detach it from my veins
and lay with you again
May 5, 2014
May 5, 2014 at 12:51 PM UTC