#hardtime
Oh, here i sit,
I'm melancholy of my thoughts.
Questioning myself–
"What thoughts i have brought?"
Just why do I feel like this?
Is it just that I'm sad or because of my hate?
Can I just shut off my brain?
There is just too much of weight.
Oh, my chest hurts,
Can I just let it all go?
I guess I can't.
My brain would just shout–"NO!"
My anxiety is killing me
Sometimes, it's hard to even breath for me.
I really hate myself because of my anxiety
And that is the real me that you don't see.
Oct 4, 2025
Oct 4, 2025 at 6:25 AM UTC
how terrible it is
to be a writer
write! they say
write and the time will come
but how must one
compete to the top
when the shelves are filled with
"NYC Bestseller"?
oh how miserable it is
to be a writer
and they say
write! it isn't difficult!
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 6:02 PM UTC
Today is January 1st, wednesday, 3:48 pm. Hi, i just got home from grandma's/ We ate menudo and she had alot of food. Oh and happy new year. It feels the same i guess. I'm just on my bed. I'll probably just play a game. um i'll write later i guess. - 3:53 pm, E.C
Um. I'm crying so much. I wanna cut so bad. I cant do this. Please help. I cant. I just cant. I wanna be gone. Just like bubba (my brother) said. I'm an embarassment. A disappointment. Why me Jesus. Why. WHY. I wanna cry but nenas in here. I can't take it much longer. I have to cut. I'm sorry.
It's dark. I don't know where my knife is.
I'm going to cry myself to sleep. I HATE MYSELF.
-8:28 pm, E.C.
Jun 21, 2025
Jun 21, 2025 at 9:24 PM UTC
Times are getting hard, my woman,
money is getting scarce.
Will you give your hand, my woman
let us leave this place.
wave goodbye to Everyone,
Guess this is what it takes.
Will you hold my hand,
Tell me you wanna stay
Gonna leave this land today
cannot bear this flay
you would be my true love,
We can make anywhere home.
Nov 25, 2024
Nov 25, 2024 at 1:39 PM UTC
they once told me...
Walking until nowhere to go,
keep going until you got so low,
don’t afraid that you gonna blow,
nothing would happen if you just go with the flow.
so I...
Trying hard, try my best to achieve,
trying so much that I missed so many sleep,
trying so much til’ people called me a working creep,
trying much, didn’t know I dug in too deep.
while I...
Giving all my thoughts and my fits,
didn’t realize me and my luck has split,
thinking I should have realized since I was a kid,
that how hard is it to take a hit.
but...
I’m too tired and too exhausted,
feeling like hanging by loosing thread,
feeling like I am just good as the dead,
and right now all I do is blaming on my faith.
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 4:09 AM UTC
Her face light up my energy
Skip the tensions I bear
And when she smiles simply
It makes me want to kiss her
I'll tell her she's so beautiful
When she lay on my chest
After what we've been grateful
A new life forth, a new guest
Oct 6, 2016
Oct 6, 2016 at 10:21 AM UTC
Tonight I dance,
You called once,
I took that chance,
Waiting for a glance.
Tonight we walked,
You never talked,
Since then i thought
"I waited and rot".
Tonight I listen,
You had suspicions,
And gave me conditions,
In the end you left me
Because of traditions
Apr 1, 2015
Apr 1, 2015 at 5:20 AM UTC