#harakiri
I'm fighting a war in my head,
Plant few armed forces there too
So that they can separate the infiltrators
crossing the mind border...
Jan 13, 2021
Jan 13, 2021 at 6:17 PM UTC
Suicide this, suicide that
all I hear is how they know it
how much knowledge they can tell
because they have the purpose to say it
and their commentaries of hate
Did you know?
Do you know?
How it felt when the voices
when their words are on repeat
and my soul made up of paper
is scribbled by ***** names
When the darkeness is my lover
and it embraces me with hate
no place to run to
no person to care
All I could do is be in a corner
I sat and rocked myself to sleep
hoping the scary lullabies
will give me a little peace
It hurts. Did you know
My head hurts with all I'm thinking
and my resolve is frozen in
I was touched by coldness of a monster
but I found a warmth instead
for it gave me a little vision
that everything will end
That is suicide, it is self-free
a one way road to run to
if the void inside ablaze
and yes, maybe it is selfish
but let me think and breathe
for many years I have been fighting
don't I have a right to wish?
for all the pain to be over
for a freedom to embrace
Did you know?
Do you know?
Suicide this, suicide that
Stop. Stop your happy endings
there is no cure to my self-hate
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 9:42 AM UTC
Sometimes...
I sit here and cry,
Because it's You I Despise.
Spend every waking hour
by your side;
Hearing every I Love You and
Goodbye.
With every kiss you give,
I feel Empty and Sick...
Why do you deserve to be Loved?
When everything about You is...
Flawed.
You're an Accident,
A Disgrace.
You don't belong in this place.
Dead and gone,
Where you belong..
So My death
Do not prolong.
I Hate You...
I Hate me...
You can hate yourself...
Apparently...
Oct 25, 2017
Oct 25, 2017 at 11:38 PM UTC