#happinesd
I was travelling along a busy road-
Eyes opened and closed.
I had music in my ears so loud that
I could hear the sound of
Ringing with every note.
Way out of the window,
I raced the ****** train to Scotland
Up a dual carriageway and felt rapid
Time dispel all notions of
Going nowhere in life.
Without warning my world was jolted and
Came to a stand still.
We were in motion but
I was trapped and uncomfortable as
I remembered that yesterday,
In your thoughtful, rash way,
You texted me from a tent in Leeds
Telling me that
It was over.
Grass looked so much greener on the other side
Of the glass, yet I was
Unable to let go of the past.
I thought to myself
'This is not how I planned my life would turn out'
At least, not today.
It hit me that I can
Never plan to be happy because
On the days I plan to be happy I will
Think of this moment and
Be sad.
Earth seems out of tune as
I lose the race through thoughts of you and
Begin to
Hate my favourite songs;
I love you.
I should have known better.
I can't decide whether to
Live my life and jump onto the train ahead or to
Jump in front of it.
I'm sorry I wasn't enough and
I could never be
No matter how hard
I tried.
I'm in a traffic jam now.
I watch the sun become eclipsed by the clouds and
I wish you were
Here.
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 8:46 AM UTC
Sometimes I wonder
where is the people
that say they will be by my side
in the good and the bad times?
They suppose to be here
helping cleaning my tears,
taking a good smile
from this sad scar.
Oh, dear loneliness
you became part of my life
Now its just you and me
walking through the path.
What's going on next?
Who I suppose to trust?
"No one should be trusted,
now you will have to be alone."
I constantly could feel
like drowning in a glass of water,
always looking for answers
It's time for me to be happy
with them or alone
It's time to stop please them
and become someone who I will be proud of.
Oh, dear loneliness
thanks to be by my side
you help me to understand everything
and now its time to act.
Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 9:33 AM UTC