#hangingon
Here we hang,
dressed in our very best.
When someone walks past,
we hold our breath,
hoping that someone notices.
The lights blink all around us,
the flicker of warmth in cheap
plastic bulbs.
The tree shakes us awake
every time we think that we’re
about to go to sleep.
We tremble enough as it is,
being this close to each other.
I look forward to Thanksgiving.
normally, that’s when the tree
comes out, as well as the garland.
Soon after, I get a chance to hang by you,
seamlessly doing nothing.
Though we hang on hooks,
it cannot replace the feeling
of being next to you
our reflection mirroring one another.
Even if no one else notices,
soon after Christmas,
we go back into our boxes,
until the same time next year.
While we’re here,
I wanted to let you know
that I cherish these times.
Seamlessly hanging with you,
doing nothing.
Every moment an ornament
falls and crashes into the ground.
I don’t want that to be the case
between us
until we are cracked and dull.
I enjoy the time I spend beside you,
even if there isn’t anything to do
but hang in anticipation,
until next year
Dec 25, 2024
Dec 25, 2024 at 3:42 AM UTC
I am a hanging thread, hanging onto life,
in this delicate fabric of existence; concealed in a shirt.
The fibres strain, so be gentle, for a harsh tug may
unravel my very depth.
Sewn together by dreams, woven with the strands
of hope, my soft cotton faith absorbs the anguish
that surrounds me.
I am a hanging thread, hanging on for dear life –
with a singular, poignant message to impart:
__Hang in there!__
Dec 24, 2024
Dec 24, 2024 at 11:43 AM UTC
When I wasn’t scared
Unafraid of what tomorrow held
When I didn’t care
Who cried who I left behind
Should have done it sooner
While I was young
When I was good enough for it
When nobody mattered
So many ways
I should have done it
Just walked away
Stepped of the deep end
Forgot the world above
Slept in chaos and hatred
Now the only thing I look forward to
Is the day she grows up
And tells me she loves me
For never following through with it
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 7:05 PM UTC
We finally agree on something
Letting go
I was hanging on to every second
But he was forgetting and moving on like it didn't hurt
We both know what it did to eachother
So we let go
Nov 9, 2018
Nov 9, 2018 at 10:40 AM UTC
I bite my cheek and pinch my arm
In a place that mom cant see
“Why are you so pissy today?”
“You’re such a drag to be around
when you act like this”
She says
“sorry”
I say
Instead of the retort that comes to my mind:
‘So are you on the days you’re mad,
When you’re done with everyone’s ****
But i know that will earn me an even bigger glare
A clenching of teeth
And a good ol’ grounding
So i sit quietly brooding and fuming and say simply
“sorry”
sorry im not good enough for you
sorry i have feelings unlike you
sorry im
not
enough
“How are you?”
Asks my good friend via text
“Pretty good hbu” i reply with vision blurred from tears
The marks i clawed into my arm still burning
“Dinner’s ready!”
Yells someone upstairs
“I’ll be up in a sec!”
I reply
Hastily pulling down my sleeve
and wiping away the messy makeup around my eyes
‘Whelp’
I think to myself
‘I hope they dont notice’
They dont
And if they do they dont mention it
For which im grateful
I dont feel like launching into a discussion that typically ends with me a blubbering mess
Anytime we have that discussion anyway
I know we need another one,
But i just cant bring myself to reveal anything
That might make them think somethings wrong with me
So for now ill just
Smile
And keep saying
“sorry”
Sep 24, 2017
Sep 24, 2017 at 9:13 PM UTC
i grasp at grains
holding on
to a fistful of sand
as wave after wave
washes away
the innocence
the giggling
the playing
the screaming
the apathy
the maturity
the regrets
the silence
leaving nothing
but memories
and tears
washed away
Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 2:10 PM UTC
Said they stopped caring months ago;
Yet, I'm still breathing
And I'm living.
So how long you gonna ignore?
Nobody's keeping score.
Feb 19, 2016
Feb 19, 2016 at 5:39 AM UTC
One night
The moon was high
As we said goodnight
With the longest goodnight kiss I've ever had
And the feelings I felt
All through that night
Had me hungry
Hungry for more
But here we are
Separated
By distance
Emotional and geographical
And I'm just
Waiting for the time
I can see you again
But till then
But till then
I'm hanging on a memory
The look in your eyes made me feel just right
Like I'm some miracle to behold
We fit just like puzzle pieces when you held me tight
Kissing my lips like they were yours
But here we are
Separated
By distance
Emotional and geographical
And I'm just
Waiting for the time
I can see you again
But till then
But till then
I'm hanging on a memory
I never thought
That I could ever miss someone
As much as I miss you
I never thought
That your picture could bring tears to my eyes
I never thought
That I would ever long to hear
Someone's voice as I do yours
Isn't that crazy, baby?
Yet here we are
Separated
By distance
Emotional and geographical
Just longing to be with you again!
But till then
But till then
I'm hanging on a memory
Hanging on a memory
Yes, oh yes, a beautiful memory~
Aug 8, 2015
Aug 8, 2015 at 2:45 PM UTC
*I know you're going to hurt me
I know I should not trust you
I know you're just wasting my time
I know all of it is one **** golden lie
I shouldn't mention you in my rhyme
'Cause you're just gonna make me cry
Mine's an asset,your Heart's just debenture
I know being with you's a very risky venture
I know you are after something,you'll leave
It's just so clear that I shouldn't trust you
Yeah, I should walk away rather than grieve
Later,when my Soul's been crushed by you
I know you fake smiles but you don't care
I know there's a bad blood you bear
And I'm just one of your vengeance pawns
To win the one for whom your heart longs
I know you would die to get your prince
Charming,like you've always referred to him since
I know you'll throw me into a very deep pit
I know I'm being hood-winked by you
Yet I know I still...I still...I still love you
Even if you hurt me,the pain'll be worth it*
Jul 6, 2015
Jul 6, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
I'd sell my soul just to see your face.
And I'd break my bones just to heal your pain.
In these times I need a saving grace, but time is running out and I'm starting to lose my faith.
But if I told you I loved you, would it make you want to stay?
I'm sorry for the way I hurt you and making you walk away.
(I should have took the time to tell you)
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you every day, would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home and stay?
(I can't go another day without you)
Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?
(Girl you gotta know I love you)
My heart's on my sleeve, but it's turning black.
(I guess I know what it feels like it to be alone)
Without your touch I'm not gonna last.
(I know you know that I need ya just to carry on)
It feels like my walls are caving in.
(You'd always hold me before I left you hanging on)
And I'll do anything to have you here again.
But if I told you I loved you, would it make you want to stay?
I'm sorry for the way I hurt you and making you walk away.
(I should have took the time to tell you)
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you every day, would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home and stay?
(I can't go another day without you)
Yeah, the days are cold, the nights are long.
And I can't stand to be alone.
Please know this is not your fault.
And all I want...
Is to tell you I love you and make you wanna stay.
There's gotta be a way, 'cause going on without you is killing me everyday.
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you every day, would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home and stay?
(I can't go another day without you)
Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?
(Girl you gotta know I love you)
Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?
(I can't go another day without you)
Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 9:46 PM UTC