#hallow
Open doors, yet stuck inside.
Come and go, I don't care.
But the pain,
an unknown ache in me
weighs heavy.
Like a ghost wandering lost,
I move with invisible wound.
Some days it hits harder,
Just like last night.
Just like today.
This lonely, silent hollow ache,
I don't know why I push everyone away.
It’s just another day.
I can't relate, I can't explain.
Nothing feels real outside,
Nothing makes sense inside,
It's heavy.
I wish I could figure it out.
Mar 14, 2025
Mar 14, 2025 at 7:15 AM UTC
I’m starting to feel
Less and less poetic
Like a part of me
Is slowly being drained
But not replaced
Hollow and shallow
I cannot not be a poet
For it has grown to be
A huge important part of me
Assisting in who I am
And what I want to be
But I already feel stranded
Far out in the sea
Jun 16, 2019
Jun 16, 2019 at 7:51 AM UTC
a duck
**** her
foot by
daphne there
to clear
stream on
a day
to walk
to wood
with stippling
and catch
breeze ashore
as tiny
men here
are nice
to see
him play
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 8:09 AM UTC
Since they cut
my long heavy
navel string
they too
cut the feeling
of love.
Attachment
was never present
in the same
jointed way
that I once
felt thoroughly.
Then came
one who too
had a
broken heart
who's navel
was fully hallow.
One who
would use the
navel string
to wrap it
around my neck
till I choked.
I realised
then
that
you made me scared of the word,
love,
because you used it in the wrong way.
Jun 22, 2018
Jun 22, 2018 at 4:00 PM UTC
There is a - hollowness - inside of me
A gap I can’t seem to fully locate
A hole - a cave - somewhere inside of my chest
It sinks - it fills up
With an emotion I do not think exists
It feels like tidal waves, I feel it shaking inside of me
The first time I felt this hole
Was when the boy with messy brown hair and a heart even bigger than his smile
Lost the battle between him and his demons
And they swallowed him whole
The second time I felt this gap
Was when the kid with a loud laugh and cheesy dimples
Lost control of his mind
And now he floats in the sky
The third - and last - time I felt this hole
Was when I heard the screams - of children
Who knew they were about to die
Their shrieks and sobs
Radiated miles and miles from their tiny district
Into my heart, into my lungs, and made their way into the hole in my chest.
And now I’m just curious
What horrible thing is going to happen
That will make this feeling
Happen yet again?
Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 10:16 PM UTC
October, 27, 2017 (Friday)
Flying down the open empty road, unaware of the surprise attack waiting for us ahead as we continued to drive.
My eyes set on the left side of the road, low like the cold temperature of the wind who's warmth couldn't be revived
A light breath of snowflakes swept over the road like floating silk as my eyes were stolen for a moment by a small feathered creature
Closed up like a rabbit in it's hollow, frozen like fish trapped in a sheet of ice, trembling like death was its new teacher
It was only a blink of a moment I saw it, and a gap of years seemed to rotate around this trap of love
"Mom.. I think that was an owl..." I said with my voice almost in a whispering disbelief. My hand giving her arm a wheel turning shove
"What should we do?" She said as if I was the higher authority. I turned my head to look back, in the opposite direction of the car.
"Turn around..." My mind got into a conflict with those words... I'd be late for work... That didn't worry me, even though we weren't that far...
I didn't know how much longer the animal of sky and flight could handle the harshness of Octobers cold shoulder.
I felt her foot slowly increase it's pressure onto the brakes, her small stormy Toyota turning around, being forced to submit to her.
Approaching slowly, the road was surprisingly empty and alone. My pupils motionless as they starred
For a minute I believed the lies that I was being an idiot. My mind was tricked into thinking it was a small thick branch with many lairs.
But the truth screamed louder than the wind's howl as shards of ice and snow caused it's feathers to **** outward
To shield his small fragile body. My mind went blank, amazed to be able to steal this opportunity, the car slowly moved downward
Into a gravel driveway, that rested next to a stand. I removed my pink hoodie and inserted myself into the dangers of being alone
Begging and praying in my head to my Lord for guidance, I crossed the wide road, my soul knowing who was in control
I crept behind the railing and as quickly and quietly as possible I approached it.
Numbed to my existence. It's head in a stage of black and deathly hibernation, I could see it's dying spirit
Lightly, I tossed the bright magenta hoodie over it like a net. A little hop was it's only reaction
I swung my legs over the railing and carefully surrounded it with my hoodie and hands, longing to show it passion.
But it's little strong black claws fearfully grasped onto the cracks in the road. Like a hook trapped within the jaws of a fish.
I could feel nothing... Only the loud threatening heart beats within me, giving my bangs a swish.
With the steady guidance of patience, my shaking fingers removed his terrifying grip, and quickly swaddled him.
I carried him like a newborn infant as I cautiously recrossed the road, feeling my soul has met natures grim.
We both inserted ourselves into the heat blasting automobile, my mother gasped when she saw the little feathered screech owl cradled in my arms
Still trapped by hibernation's drug. I held him close to the heated vents, hoping that life will be surrendered to the side of the warm.
His feathers were in several shades of tree bark brown, he had two little feathered peaks that looked like horns to a crown
Softer then even the silkiest chinchilla, his eyes were closed, but within minutes, only the eye lashes of his right eye flickered around
Suddenly, time revolved around the neck of him, for he turned his head right towards me, and his right eye of sun bursting glow revealed its self to me.
My blood stopped pumping, my lungs shut down, my heart trapped in ice, my eyes making contact with his, feeling like a ship lost at sea.
One of Nature's King of the sky finally awakened, but what was his next move? For these little beast were proud and protective over their bodies
Where their wings have soared over, they claim as theirs, They have used their beaks and claws as weapons against my kind. They have been given the label of being naughty.
Was I it's next victim? Was this choice a blood dripping trap? Was adoring my Lord's creation a mistake?
The Lord brought this little one in my path for a reason, how can I doubt His plan? For this moment, He wanted me to take.
It's round smooth moving head looked to the left, and then to the right, and then back at me, it's little eye blinking, and very tired
It jumped! But jumped closer into me. It's white and light brown feathered chest against mine. It's head cuddled right into my fingers like a tangled wire.
Softly and lightly I petted it's super soft silky small head, seeing his one eye going into a happy squint.
It only cuddled more and more, demanding more of this sweet affection. His eye gave me that hint
Soon, he started to wander around on my legs, exploring all of this high technology unknown to nature
Flew about a few times to test and experience the ways of human beings, his wings stretched out and soared like sliding glaciers
Once we approached our destination of a recuse center, his curiosity grew as he bonked his head against the dashboard window. The poor thing!
He looked at me, feeling shameful, and filled with stupidity as he flew to my lower arm, and then my elbow that was up high. He nested into it like a king.
He remained there and studied me, his eye never looking away. My soul was at peace until it lashed open it's left eye. My sight got drilled
It was only for an image of a second that I saw that bright red, dark purple, and indigo eye. His left eye was blood filled.
He quickly closed it and snuggled closer to my chest. I felt a hollow part of me being revealed and filled with grace
It's funny how the Lord planned everything out, how he allowed me to experience this sweet heart capturing moment of this wild owl's gentle face.
My Hallow, the name suits you well. For it was an honor for our Holy creator to allow me to interact with the forest beast of flight
A hollow part of me was realized and filled. A desire, a new way to make my Creator made known... through your opposite personality of fight
Permanently blind in your right eye, but your spirit is still sweet and calm to only me. Yours wings still spread like the wide flames of a wild fire
Your unique different colored eyes beaming with adorable sweet love. But also determination that is deep and dire.
You're small, but even our God used David to defeat Goliath. You're an animal, but God used a Donkey to lead Balaam away from danger!
You may not be normal again, but the Lord can still use you, for He has used you and many other animals in my life, although I was a stranger
Hallow, the Blood Filled Eye Screech Owl, I won't allow this lesson to be stolen from me, the lesson of freedom, wisdom, and trust.
The Lord will call us to do the craziest, weirdest, most unbelievable things at times. We shouldn't let these test turn to dust
and if the Lord called me to do something like this again...
I'd do it in a heart beat...
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 12:19 PM UTC
I hate the empty nights where I feel so hallow inside.
Mar 30, 2017
Mar 30, 2017 at 6:18 PM UTC
What used to make me happy,
Has died and left me here.
What once was always with me,
Is no longer near.
The memory of vibrance,
I saw within his eyes,
Is still in my head
but fades as time flies.
I remember back to when I saw
the smile upon his face.
When the world was in his hands,
Now he's gone without a trace.
The earth claimed him for her own,
Just a body hallowed out
Nothing's left of him now
A memory, a shadow, a doubt.
I too am fading,
Slowly slipping away.
The feeling of letting go,
I do not want to stay.
He paved a path for me,
Easy and clear before my eyes.
I know where it goes,
And in front of me it lies.
How easy it would be,
To take this clear cut route.
I'd follow in his footsteps,
Be a girl all hallowed out.
Mar 18, 2017
Mar 18, 2017 at 3:03 PM UTC
It's insane, how alone lonely feels. It's truly one of those feelings that can not be done justice with words. Such a deep, empty feeling. It's elongating. Hollow yet heavy.
It makes you feel like you'll never connect with another ever again, albeit perhaps fleetingly. It's a feeling that makes you believe all of the voices it brings in tow.
A feeling so tangible, you can build a cocoon around yourself with the soft but slightly damp woolen material that falls over the walls of the maze of rooms that loneliness is.
A smothering cocoon, one you don't emerge from prettier but flightier. Harder to touch. To see. Impossible to tether. One whose easily burned by the light after so much darkness. But drawn to it regardless. And thus, covered in scars.
Nov 27, 2016
Nov 27, 2016 at 3:14 PM UTC
The days grow slower,
And the nights even colder
As the spirits wake from their slumber
Only during the month of November.
The slight scare in the air
Makes the moonbeams glare,
So everyone could be aware
Of the November nightmare.
The place where no one dwells
Is where the demons raise Hell;
At the clock's tick of midnight
Rampage until the dawn's bright light.
Question is, who let these demons be free
That makes everything run and scream?
A never-ending, dreadful story,
Or could it be all just a twisted dream?
Alas, whatever it may be
The horror and the obscene;
Forbidding, uninviting, it is mostly seen
Only during the grim month of Halloween.
Oct 25, 2016
Oct 25, 2016 at 7:28 AM UTC
A witch, indeed met me so a mole where willing made her but a match to liken potato and let her teeth beside with a grail that she'd throw a kiss into a prance when beyond a dark corner near square could race to our legs with a carton of eggs and nearer the place that toasted our evening outing perchance with dinner hid in graveyard.
Oct 21, 2016
Oct 21, 2016 at 12:51 AM UTC
Soft wind, tender neck
Kissing lips once pressed
Sky black, universe unfolds
Light beyond reach tonight
Train tracks, quiet sorrow
Silence reveals hallow heart
Lush meadow, abandoned field
Laying on lonely tracks
Past bloom, flower fade
Heart tearing out name
Erase memories, take wind
Midnight train goodbye sin
Sep 13, 2016
Sep 13, 2016 at 1:34 AM UTC
new age jungles and city species
running through the curious dark
you say “Now IS the time to be alive.”
and stay out late
to watch the sunrise
from suicidal heights
see the bright lights
see the city sights
read your last rites
got
high insights
stay awake to watch the sun rise
to watch your mind fall down
to watch your ultimate demise
bustling brains become a barren tundra
and city thoughts die
and bodies still move with the beat
while thoughts experience defeat
you’re not complete
gotta cheat
gotta eat
but you gotta retreat
but you gotta take a seat
now it’s bittersweet
step back, gotta let go
gotta move on
skip the free throw
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 7:40 PM UTC
Feeling broken and hallow
Has me left
Questioning what I've done
For the reasons, we failed
I know I am to blame
At least in my own mind
Unable to forgive myself
I too, am
Aware you can not forgive me
You'll never love me again
Which is why
I'll never love myself
Aug 6, 2015
Aug 6, 2015 at 2:07 PM UTC
We have to fight or be hallow,
Just like them,
Walking lifeless,
Have we been left for the dead.
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 4:49 PM UTC
Just an odinary girl
with an extraordinary heart
i cannot keep quiet when i know
that my heart is bleeding.
I cannot keep quiet anymore
and i know it that it attracts my enemies.
I wouldnt fear to be hated
neither to lose a friend
lonely did i come
and lonely will i depart
i know they throw curses
but how far will they get through
that solid heart.
I used to have a smile
that glowed in the dark
for it overcomed the shadowed night
but now all is hallow
and i feel my heart sinking
into the shallow seas
i know they throw curses
but i am still willing to forgive
even though i would never smile
anymore
i feel sorry for you
because you dont know
how far pain cant shot through my heart anymore
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 2:33 AM UTC
' You Can always tell
When His heart is going astray.
You'll losE his compassion when he talks.
You'll notice A hint of guilt in his walk.
The time Together will feel hallow.
Your gut will start Eting away at your thoughts.
Maybe it's just youR self consciousness showing through.
It's hard to believe that when he Stops replying "I love you".
-dh
Oct 23, 2014
Oct 23, 2014 at 12:30 AM UTC
Alone, standing among the ***** grave fields,
a crystal cylinder, Tower of the Tortured,
aspiring towards the void.
Marred bars circulate the Tower's depth.
The walls of torture outlined and gave
deathly void substance.
Diamond souls refracted empty light.
The hollowed trees crawl their roots,
interlacing life and death.
Hovering, creeping downward, they
swayed suspended. Among the hung
and through the trails poised one.
Emanating empty vibration with no substance to grasp..
Crumpled story sheets rested upon a shore,
lost in oscillation. Stumbling entities
unknown to light, covered marsh black,
and layered in blight.
Rest their starred eyes once in infinite time
upon an alien language. Retrieved and returned
to the pillar of slime.
Fading ash whispers off into the night.
No one lived in that tower but the
Crystal King of Death himself, Soldier of Fallen Light.
Oct 1, 2014
Oct 1, 2014 at 12:18 PM UTC