#grudges
What I've been taught, what I've been told
Don't be haughty, don't be bold
For the enemy still lingers in your home
Don't hold grudges, don't hold foes
Lying right under your nose
Is the illness of your heart that you oppose
We all have sins, we're well aware
But I know you're not prepared
Knowing one day, secrets all will be exposed.
7d ago
May 27, 2026 at 11:34 AM UTC
my grudges relish
the taste of isolation;
bitter by the day.
Feb 6, 2025
Feb 6, 2025 at 11:30 PM UTC
I… was a dreamer trapped in a haunting nightmare,
a paradox of hope and despair; drying out these tears
with pieces of nothing – don’t fare so well crying in public.
These eyes are the window, to all unspoken fears,
cloaked in silence.
I… am a war between two formidable forces of always
wanting to embrace the world with love, and also the
fear of rejection that longs to keep me so vaguely isolated.
Stuck in this place, to stay and acknowledge,
all the time buried beneath the grains of time...
Yet another dug up watch with these bare hands –
I could have buried so many hatchets, only if I never
hesitated burying the prior ones time and time again.
Dec 29, 2024
Dec 29, 2024 at 10:11 AM UTC
Sulfur yellow a watery burn
Created in an alchemist's urn.
Water feeds fire as both evolve--
The formula of hates resolve.
You waver rights to be treated fair
Like Sampson selling locks of hair
Or selling age to a 95 year old--
Sheep follow only to die in
their fold.
Fiery seas begin as a rift
Water being the only gift.
But nothing, nothing is ever
free
once transmuted into this sea.
But logs do drift and beaches
claim
All that gave this sea its name.
Sep 19, 2024
Sep 19, 2024 at 2:49 PM UTC
Poor and worse, the widow's daughter
Hold your tongue so it won't be harder
Work for your pay every god **** day
One day you'll move so far
Break the rules, all the things they have done
Don't tell her know she exceeds all expectations
Pots and pans, blankets, shirts, the whole house
Paint it all red to match her hard head
If you were from a different place
Maybe you could occupy a space
only big enough for you
If you were from a different time
Would you take the chance to rewind
Just to take in the view
It doesn't feel right to say that you're gone
It doesn't feel like the end of the song
I keep on waiting for you to prove us all wrong
I'll never hold a grudge again
Jul 17, 2022
Jul 17, 2022 at 3:20 AM UTC
Is there something that can lift my bitterness away?
Can it free me of my lingering wrath?
Or help my throbbing heart to laugh?
Or empty my mind of loathsome?
Evaporating the wholesome grief I had swallowed in my hippocampus.
Yet,
God has granted this gift to our hearts.
So,
Why don't we perceive life as bliss?
Oh, Flourishing Forgiveness!
How I longed to taste your fragrance!
To obscure my grief-stricken heart with your warm radiance.
Enter the teary eyes, O Forgiveness, with your gleaming light!
Heal the grudges that make our lives tight.
Help us flip the decrepit pages.
And abandon our grimaces.
Apr 13, 2021
Apr 13, 2021 at 7:15 AM UTC
it keeps me awake at night,
I try to escape but it holds me back
for all the things said and done,
I thought I could so easily run
away from it all,
but life holds you accountable
and I take full responsibility,
but it gets tiring
maybe I want to be happy
just for one day,
without having to think about
what ghost of my past
may show up tomorrow to play
for even though the days,
they come and go
as they please
without me in control,
what won't I give
to trade the dusky nightfall of yesterday
for the crack of dawn tomorrow
with that in my mind,
I try to live and grow
and I still cast a shadow,
that I may never outgrow
yet there is a light,
at the end of the tunnel
and I aspire to reach there someday,
for it may take away all the pain
and shine on like a crazy diamond.
Jan 30, 2021
Jan 30, 2021 at 3:41 PM UTC
I saw many people who had a place in my heart once and now they're just an unforgiven memory.
Dec 5, 2020
Dec 5, 2020 at 10:24 AM UTC
you’ve been trying too hard to fall in love,
but when love comes to you in pieces;
you walk away, thinking it isn’t enough.
you’ve been trying to find someone mature,
but when stability comes into your life;
you find it boring in the first place.
you’ve been trying to fill your voids,
but when warmth tries to touch you;
you refuse it because you’re cold.
you’ve been trying to find perfection,
but no one is perfect and no one will be
yet you don’t care about who is there
cause’ what’s available to you isn’t worthy.
Dec 25, 2019
Dec 25, 2019 at 2:38 AM UTC
He has a card up his sleeve
A chip on his shoulder
And a monkey on his back
Other than that
Life is a bed of roses
Dec 26, 2019
Dec 26, 2019 at 7:03 PM UTC
take my secret
and bury it in
your chest,
you can visit it
every now
and then,
just don’t give
it too much
attention,
it feeds on and is
greedy for
grudges,
it will not hestitate
to steal the
spot light from
your heart.
Jul 5, 2019
Jul 5, 2019 at 12:39 AM UTC
I drew the curtains back
It shed light on the shadows that had been following me
It answered my questions of fidelity
The light spilled in and it rang like a bell
I answered to it’s call, it’s resonance beckoning to draw a line
I allowed for the divide to separate us
It’s path was immediately opened up
A large trench ripping through the earth
A huge void in the space where we were once connected
You threw hatchets of lies to try and get to me
Seeking a dangerous approach to get back on the other side
On my side
Standing my ground and siding with truth,
I left you there
It was then you took up painting
Trying to render the whole picture
- biased and ill interpreted
Painting me
black
red
dead
That’s no portrait at all
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 2:30 AM UTC
I don’t crave revenge and grudges,
my soul doesn’t feed on anger,
it feeds on confrontations as
it only craves the truth.
Feb 21, 2019
Feb 21, 2019 at 11:38 AM UTC
I reached that high point,
happy but never satisfied.
"I could have defeated them,
I knew I should."
Then, there sparked the fury
that is stronger
than the ones
ignited before.
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 11:09 PM UTC
Isn't it so easy to hate?
Forgive them before it's too late!
Lemme tell you something straight!
Holding grudges isn't so great!!
Take it as an update!
It may not change your fate!!
How long will you wait?
Forgiving someone isn't a bait!
Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 3:00 PM UTC
sometimes I wonder
what you look back on
when you think of me
(if you think of me.)
do you remember all my faults?
do you remember yours?
do you count them like sheep
when you try to sleep
at night?
do you remember
every unread text message
every mean word
every "i'm too busy"
every little thing that broke us?
do you regret them?
do you regret me?
Jan 30, 2018
Jan 30, 2018 at 11:34 PM UTC
i am a worthless person, i know,
value me? i hope so,
i admit i'm not perfect,
sometimes i do overreacted.
making conclusions,
making suspicious reactions,
creating nonsense illusions,
mistakes in every actions.
i am a worthless person, i know,
prioritize me? i hope so,
i'm not commanding you,
but still, i hope you do.
you complain about what you read and hear,
but what if i disappear?
will you even feel?
these grudges i don't want to reveal.
Aug 5, 2017
Aug 5, 2017 at 3:41 PM UTC
The time when the sky is greyed to hues of poignant blue
And the mist haunts the the ground
The cool breeze slitthers around your ears with secrets and stories to tell
When warmth is just a distant memory
And the sun seems to have escaped the endless loop of its cycle
Yet it's not night nor is it day
It's not dawn nor dusk
It's when you unravelled in the chaos of the dead leaves
And payed your debts with blankets of ice
But your grudges held their place in your sleepless nights
And your restlessness laughed in the face of forgiveness
Your stubbornness smirked at the idea of redemption
Yet you still wondered why peace escaped you.
Jul 13, 2017
Jul 13, 2017 at 7:37 PM UTC
They see your villainy,
your wretched, writhing trickery,
you let down your guard while
the two-headed snake spat viciously.
You are unjust,
so they say, who dare you trust?
They claim its a product of
your uncontrolled lust.
The heroes' iron will,
cause confrontation for thrill.
No space given for the anti-hero,
its their own allies to ****
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 3:30 PM UTC
To be empowered is to be proud
To be proud is to be hopeful
And to be hopeful you must fear
Because to fear is to be human
And be human you must withdraw
And to withdraw you must have a soul
And to have a soul you must be alive
And to be alive you must have a heart
And to have a heart you must let them go
And to let go is to be empowered
Oct 30, 2016
Oct 30, 2016 at 10:58 PM UTC
It takes so much more energy to hold a grudge, forgiveness will heal your heart not theirs...
Jun 15, 2016
Jun 15, 2016 at 9:33 PM UTC