thinking, hoping, wondering.
for so long it was a question of
when life would begin to progress 
forward - until now, when it is 
happening.

am i ready? can i handle this?
for so long i'd only dreamed of 
the mere possibility to the point
that, perhaps, i never believed
it would happen.

and now, here i sit. wondering.
everything i've been waiting for,
everything i've been working towards.
every day when i thought i couldn't go
on, every night when i didn't want to;
the dream was all that held me.

and now it is here. and i sit. 
wondering.
am i ready?