#goingaway
You bit your nail, oblivious and blind,
And heard a click, the cruelest kind.
A tiny flake, a pearly chip,
You panicked, then bit your lip.
The dentist said, "We'll patch it neat,
A little bond, a smooth conceit."
And now it's whole, a clever fake,
But something in you starts to ache.
Because that shard that went away,
It didn't just leave a tooth to pay.
It left a cut, a permanent seam,
Beneath the smile, you want to scream.
You run your tongue along the mend,
And miss the way it used to blend.
The natural flaw, the honest grain,
The little chip that once retain.
You go on with your day,
Finding things to make you gay.
And somewhere beneath the floors,
Is the chip that once was yours.
May 13
May 13, 2026 at 12:32 PM UTC
My brother is soon leaving for Linz
And we're going with him
For a week
I feel his absence already
in my home
With his suitcases on the floor
And talk of pillows, shoes and medicine
And all the things
he'll need away from here
But I fear
What he needs most
we can't provide
Across rivers and lakes
And cities and storms
Smiles are hard to deliver
The warmth from home
Easily will fall in a pit of despair
Stumbling over its metaphorical feet
My brother is soon leaving for Linz
And his toothbrush next to the sink
That's always annoyingly there
Will forever be missed
A ghost plate on the table
With a forgotten fork by its side
Shall be placed infront of his chair
That's tucked into place
Always cold,
always sticky
with the residue of his presence
When the line cuts off the silence will be
Twice as loud as his voice
But at least i would've heard about
His first days at uni
And the parties he went to,
The friends he made
My brother is soon leaving for Linz
And Im happy for him
Even though
(Or precisely because)
He'll be thrown
In the unknown
Nov 1, 2025
Nov 1, 2025 at 5:18 AM UTC
How beautiful the station was ,
When you used to arrive after the summer .
So far away from home
left in the rushing waves and pain
In the pouring rain all alone
Well, the years went by like a train goes by
in a melancholy song.
And our love ran dry like a well runs dry
or a flame that's been burning too long.
Where does the train go?
Where do the tracks end?
Everyday the train comes
Only to pass by me again
Your uncertainty of coming back ,
Made me wait a little longer everytime.
I will wait always wait a little longer ~
Dec 19, 2020
Dec 19, 2020 at 1:58 PM UTC
'Going away' is always bit difficult, isn't it?
Be it from your mother or your face licking pet or your beloved...
'Going away' is always a heart wrenching pain.
It's a sub-conscious state where you both don't know
When will you again see each other's face and feel their pale skin and the intimacy written on it.
Thinking of being apart from that eternal bond isn't so casual as your surroundings think....
....... It is not at all easy , it is not what you always see or evaluate without knowing.
'Going away' is all about those undropped tears and silent bawling,
You know nothing will be like earlier as it used to be...
You will be somewhere and "they" somewhere else too....
..... Things will again fall in places with growing and emerging time.
It's a drastic change for everyone of you,
Who have faced "going away" moment.
'Going away' will make you much stronger and motivated to see D-R-E-A-M-S.
D-R-E-A-M-S which are for you and them,
D-R-E-A-M-S of being together someday again forever ... As you all used to be,
D-R-E-A-M-S which will let you to float through life.
'Going away' is not what you think apparently;
It is how you recreate yourself after that phrase.
So, don't be heart-broken darling,
If this 'going away' decision is mutual it will create magic someday and
You know I will be there in glowing tears with your magical retreat.
Because 'going away' from you can't ever make us apart.
We will D-R-E-A-M together, forever..... Again and again .
For those undropped tears and uncried fears: we will D-R-E-A-M on and "going away" will move on very soon.
Nov 1, 2014
Nov 1, 2014 at 1:39 PM UTC
I have this sick idea
why does my departure
mean the end
why cant it mean
our beginning
im not ready
to let you go
Aug 25, 2014
Aug 25, 2014 at 4:58 PM UTC