#giftedchild
why
do i still try to win in public speaking contests
when i know i'll never be good enough to do so?
why
do i still try to have the "best presentation" in class
when i know i'll never be as good as the rest?
why
do i still try to run for treasurer in school council
when i know i'll always lose?
why
do i still aim for gold
when i know i'll never be smart enough to reach that?
why
do i still try?
Jan 3
Jan 3, 2026 at 9:52 AM UTC
slide down the slope
of an ingénue —to just fine
I can run, but I can’t chase fulfillment
no amount of praise I collect
will fill the success-shaped hole in me
Nov 3, 2025
Nov 3, 2025 at 3:05 AM UTC
do you ever tell your parent that what if you can't do it and all they say is "I know you will". No mum. What if I can't ? what if I disappointed you? what about my guilt? where do I keep this feeling? why is it so heavy? what if i fail? what then? will you still think of me as your brightest kid? will you still use me as an example for my siblings? will i be an example? what if i couldn't be that intelligent always making you proud kid? what if i fail mum? why is this feeling so heavy? where do I keep it mum? What if i fail?
Jul 27, 2025
Jul 27, 2025 at 11:14 PM UTC
tedious and monotonous
not retaining the useless information
keeping my head down
so people won't talk to me
if they do
I fear it won't be nice
students avoid me
and that's fine by me
they aren't very courteous to begin with
I finish my work in a flash
then dive into my book
teachers like me
and students come to me for help
I quite like this interaction
Apr 10, 2025
Apr 10, 2025 at 8:00 AM UTC
I have always been the gifted child
overachiever and overworking myself
desperate for approval
if I get good grades, maybe my parents will love me
get straight A's
get on the honor roll
be the top of my class
a B is the same as an F
you drilled that into me
my worth was dependent on my grades
if I wasn't the best, I was worthless
I hold these messages to this day
no matter how detrimental they are to me
now staying a the top and the best grades is a struggle
I can't be the perfect child anymore
Mar 13, 2025
Mar 13, 2025 at 8:39 AM UTC