#gendereuphoria
Prompt: Explain the story behind a picture from your camera roll
(date of picture taken: August 30th, 2019)
The picture is a simple mirror selfie, but the story has more to do with what I was wearing.
Earlier that day, I went to the mall to shop for my homecoming outfit with
my friend, (REDACTED).
It seems trivial to someone else, I guess, but to me, it was a big deal.
It was because I could drive and because we were at the mall against
my dad's wishes that added to my nervousness of it all.
I went to the boy's section of the clothing store because I'm really short,
and (REDACTED) helped me pick out a suit.
My first suit.
Just wearing the suit jacket, I couldn't help but smile like an idiot.
It was so....right.
I don't know how else to explain it.
It was as if all those little pieces just fell into place and everything felt
all right.
For once, everything in that moment felt good and perfect.
I didn't care about the curious looks from the middle-aged moms.
I felt....euphoric?
Euphoric.
Gender euphoria.
Sep 24, 2019
Sep 24, 2019 at 9:30 PM UTC
If I could be He,
I'd grin ear to ear.
I'd laugh with a new voice,
and sing with boisterous cheer.
If I could be He,
I'd dance the night away.
I'd twirl around a girl,
and ask her if she'd stay.
If I could be He,
I'd no longer have to bind.
I'd lay shirtless on the beach,
and leave bottled messages to find.
If I could be He,
which I might never be,
I'd be eternally happy.
And I'd finally be me.
May 25, 2019
May 25, 2019 at 6:46 PM UTC