#futureself
In this cruel world, it is difficult to trust anyone. As a mere I have no choice,but to keep things to thyself. I wish I could just be myself with any being but I am aware ;it is a foolish thought. I feel alone currently . However, I know there is a reason for the mountain I must cimb. I have faith my world view will change overtime but it is hard to look past the present.
Thank you God for it all.
Nov 14, 2024
Nov 14, 2024 at 4:21 PM UTC
Nothing new, nothing good wherever i look
How many days i have to count?
How many years i have to wait?
To finally say "Yes! I did it!"
Nobody knows why I'm still here
I feel stuck but i need to move
Would my future self thank me if do everything to improve?
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 10:51 AM UTC
when you fall
if he doesn't catch you
if he takes his time or he isn't bothered
do not question your worth
question him
May 5, 2020
May 5, 2020 at 8:54 PM UTC
In my hopeless fantasies,
we’d run into each other
on the street somewhere
with a bar in walking distance, maybe,
but I can’t. Really, I can’t.
It’s nothing against you,
really it’s not.
I’d love to find you one day
sitting across from me
on the late train home
or inside my box of
sugar-free cereal that will
help my heart or whatever.
They say a watched *** never boils
and I’m not sure I’ve taken my eyes off you.
It’s not fair to you. Really, it’s not.
Maybe you’ll get this when we meet
in however many years
when the puddles are too small
to drown in. And maybe you
learned how to swim.
Can you teach me?
Can you tell me where you’ve been?
Who you’ve loved?
Tell me the stories you never were able to.
I’ll know them by heart, better than my own.
Tell them without a microphone.
Without an earpiece.
Without your audience listening.
An empty theater clinging to your life,
a raft they never were sent.
A new memory to crave.
A chaser to a burning shot.
The shot itself.
Are you a performer or a teacher?
Standing in front of a tuplet crowd,
the audience whispering answers to questions
that the back of the room
hasn’t even reached yet.
Those chapters were ripped from their books.
Dec 9, 2019
Dec 9, 2019 at 11:41 AM UTC
My patience tends to run out
Like the last bit of sand
That falls oh so quickly
In a second's span
As if she is at the end
Of my life's hourglass
In order to get to her
I must conquer my past
The girl who awaits me
She, who shares the same soul
The one I am fighting for
Who stands above, on her own
The character that I long for
She, who embodies my goals
Nurtured by the love I will give her
Can't wait to see how much I've grown
Feb 3, 2019
Feb 3, 2019 at 10:53 PM UTC
dear future self,
you are not your past
you are not your problems
you are not your enemy.
you are a bright shining star
who deserves nothing but
love and happiness.
after all you've been through,
you deserve to be happy.
you are strong.
you are worth it.
you are a warrior.
love,
your 18 year old self
- a letter to my future self
Sep 11, 2017
Sep 11, 2017 at 1:25 PM UTC
I will keep chasing,
Be better and grow wiser;
40-year old me
Apr 25, 2017
Apr 25, 2017 at 8:44 PM UTC
don't break,
don't cry,
just stay strong,
and you won't die,
i know you've been doing this for so long,
and you've hurt by all these lies,
but i promise you,
you will rise
from this,
little miss.
with love, future you.
Feb 23, 2016
Feb 23, 2016 at 10:55 AM UTC