#functioning
Repairs all the time,
to stay myself, my meta-
morphical body.
Aug 13, 2025
Aug 13, 2025 at 3:32 AM UTC
As if my body
is new, and I, again, have --
to search for the brake.
Jan 18, 2022
Jan 18, 2022 at 4:08 AM UTC
Scratching off my skin and digging my eyes out.
The cracks branch off at the corners, swollen and puffy.
A busted lip, some pills, and a drink to help me relax.
Didn't work.
Little levies break now and then to spill small kernels of my locked up consciousness, then retract back in on itself.
Functional.
Motions, actions, procedures.
Pushing through the grime towards the bathtub.
Through the haze typing delicately to oneself.
Giggle.
Glorify yourself.
Lose your voice in explanation of everything except the important parts, the parts they already secretly know.
The stomach churns, sudden twinges pierce all the muscles.
Conversations swim about other things.
The oncoming memories, the irritations of daily life.
Just being here.
Apr 5, 2018
Apr 5, 2018 at 2:59 AM UTC
gluteus maximus left and right half moon cheek
re: byte size buttock attached via usb
(uniform firm behind) to this freak
with bowel movement
incontinence + gas filled gut evoking contortionist
frown stretching to lowest peak
perched upon porcelain goddess
where elimination did jut held captive hostage
atop toilet seat for many a week
exertion to expel rock solid **** required utmost effort
to force jammed bowel movement free
inducing excruciating abdominal cramps really hurt
plus sharp jabbing spasms within high knee
innards rent asunder
obstruction as canon gun size ***** did spurt
lodged ***** matter refusing to budge from me
caused by severe constipation
whereby prayer a waste delivered only increased
sphincter muscle to scream
for ****** relief this mortal man faced
a worse fate than death, he would deem
since demise would allow alimentary misery to cease
versus remaining in this impasse for what might be years
unless perchance **** lubricant or special grease
would bust loose abominable
constriction in arrears finding me unable
to pay rent or renew lease
best prospect of remaining stationary
with words to wax
poetic found a glimmer of luck
when a kind wildebeest
delivered this message via fax
to help this male in dire per situation getting
pam purred **** unstuck with outsize mug of exlax
to help unclog ****** muck
access to get expunged to the max
but once expulsion occurs
DO DO PLEASE DUCK!
Feb 1, 2018
Feb 1, 2018 at 5:43 PM UTC
I'll be OK for
a few days
but then
it hits me,
I
stop functioning
and everything
falls apart
Again........
May 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 9:10 AM UTC
I look around me
Everybody seems so comfortable
They know how to interact
They can talk easily with each other
They know how to treat each other.
Me, I stand here...stupid
Mute, afraid to speak
Everytime I think I have it figured out
I stumble and fail.
When did I miss the lesson on functioning in life?
Why is so hard for me to talk, interact?
Tired of failing
I am just gonna stand here
In the corner, mute
Don't mind me.
Mar 11, 2015
Mar 11, 2015 at 8:01 AM UTC