#fuckmylife
My smile is often fake
It's often more than I can take
Everyday when I wake
It goes away for my own sake.
Then one day
It went away
Gone today
For it to stay
Now its here
There's no more fear
There's no more tears
I know you're near
Because of you
This one is true
Because of you
I feel brand new.
My smile is real
I'm able to feel
The things I've concealed
Are now revealed.
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 9:10 PM UTC
God ****** I did it again
I fell for another hopeless cause
I told myself that he, unlike the first guy, would come around
That this guy will actually love me
But silly me
Thinking of things that will not happen
Cause he didn't come around
They never do
I always do this
Then I act surprised when he leaves me for someone else
I mean why do I think I'm anything special?
Cause I'm clearly not
I'm just someone that people like to use
No one truly falls for me
I need to stop falling for people
Then I will stop hurting
Unless everything goes black
Then I cant see, cant hear, and cant feel my pain
Maybe that's better
Maybe
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 9:02 PM UTC
i simply couldn't avoid it
there it was,
[the crash]
Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 8:46 PM UTC
this is the never ending song
why must we?
do we really have to?
why can't we let this be?
you make me hot and then cold
and right now i couldn't even care
to see you or be around you
i'm tired of you not playing fair
i don't do what i do to hurt you
or break you and make your heart fall
but you certainly conspire this to me
when it's you playing some victim in this all
but there's two sides to every story
and don't worry, you're hardly a victim at all
first you avoid me, then incite hurt
you really do whatever to make me feel so small
against you, who's superior
a poster child of all that's right
well i'll drag you back to earth, my love
so everyone can see you in this light
i know i have my demons
but with all, i still fight the good fight
this has been the longest road
and you couldn't have been further out of sight
i'm not sure why i bother
when you hardly even try
all you do is push me out
so i'm left with solitude to cry
i wish i had the heart to leave
search out a different life
oh, right, i'm sure you forgot
i can't, because i'm just only your wife
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 4:04 AM UTC