#frozensoul
You know you’ve lost yourself again
when the room goes quiet
and the dark feels heavier than it should.
You lie there-
not sleeping,
not awake-
just existing in the space between breaths.
Your chest rises
like it’s asking permission.
You want to tell someone
how bad it is.
How the silence roars.
How your mind gnaws at itself
like an animal caught in its own trap.
But the words rot before they reach your mouth.
They won’t understand.
They’ll tilt their heads.
They’ll say you’re dramatic.
Too sensitive.
Too much.
So you swallow it.
You want to scream-
a sound so raw it splits the night open.
You want to cry
until something inside you finally breaks
and lets the flood out.
But you are too tired
to even lift your own grief.
You freeze.
Like the surface of a winter lake-
hard, glassy, untouchable.
Solid enough to fool the world.
They walk across you
and say,
“See? You’re fine.”
But underneath-
underneath you are still water.
Still moving.
Still alive.
Still aching with a current
no one sees.
Your thoughts press down
like boots on thin ice.
You try to swim
but the ceiling above you is sealed.
Your hands push,
your lungs burn,
and the light fractures into pieces
you cannot reach.
You are suffocating
in a place that looks calm.
The cold seeps in slowly.
It steals your warmth
without asking.
Your body grows quiet.
Your heart dulls its own rhythm
so it doesn’t have to feel
the panic clawing at its ribs.
You are not screaming anymore.
You are not crying.
You are just…
stopping.
And the cruelest part-
the part that breaks you-
is that somewhere beneath the ice
you are still soft.
Still hoping someone will hear
the cracking.
Still waiting
for the surface to shatter
before you disappear completely.
Mar 3
Mar 3, 2026 at 12:52 PM UTC