#frawn
Panic, worry, darkness closing in around me.
These are some of the words I could use to describe my anxiety,
but nothing I can say could speak of its entirety,
as I cry internally thinking I've lost my sanity.
Doctors, counselors, saying there's something wrong with me.
My parents telling me to calm down and stop being so crazy.
But how can I calm down when the world around me
is spinning out of control and I can barely see?
Keep calm. You will get through this.
You will get through the sleepless nights,
all the internal fights,
and the days that seem right
when the world hits you with all its might.
Keep calm. You will get through this.
I know you think I'm overreacting about the silliest little things,
but to me those silly little things seem like the doom the world could bring.
Can't you see, a spilled glass of milk to you can seems like an earthquake to me.
I know it might be hard to understand my anxiety,
but I hope today I have given you some clarity.
So the next time someone is scared and feels like they can't breathe,
shaking and crying, unable to see,
don't tell them they're overreacting; don't call them crazy.
Help them realize there is more to life than this misery,
and no matter the doubt inside, they will be who they are meant to be.
Keep calm. I will get through this.
Because I know I am more than just my anxiety,
and one day I hope to be free of it entirely.
But until then, I will keep telling myself, quietly,
I am stronger than this. I am stronger than my anxiety.
Feb 27, 2020
Feb 27, 2020 at 3:37 AM UTC
You pretend you’re alright,
laugh when you’re sad,
hide your true feelings;
never show if you’re mad.
Keep to yourself
does no good to fight,
simply try your best
to stay out of sight.
Here in this world
of black and white
you just don’t fit
so you live in the night;
hide your color
in a heart so deep
and dream of rainbows
in your sleep.
But deep inside
a greater light shines
through pain and sorrow,
space and time.
There’s red and green,
yellow and blue,
pink and orange
and yes, purple too.
A lasting assurance
that beyond the fears
you’re not alone
with all those tears.
You are seen and loved,
this you know;
the rainbow’s there
to tell you so.
But it’s hard in your dark reality
in the world of black and white,
no one appreciates the color purple
until they see you there in the light.
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 12:04 AM UTC
maybe, i don't fit in
maybe i don't belong
this place hasn't been right for me
since everything went wrong
i walk, the lonely nights
i search for something deep inside of me
but i find nothing,
nothing but blue
i feel blue
always, forever blue
the days are lonely,
the nights are cold
but i will always be blue
as i walk along the busy streets
and the lights of this city
i begin to think, its not worth it
i dont matter, not one bit
i walk, the lonely streets
i search for something deep inside of me
but i find nothing,
nothing but you
i feel blue
always, forever blue
the days are lonely,
the midnights are cold
but i will always be blue
when did it begin?
when does it end?
when will i be happy again?
always blue
forever sad
i am nothing
i feel blue
always, forever blue
the days are lonely,
the nights are cold
but i will always be blue
im just blue
never happy
never smiling
just blue,
so blue
only blue
i am very blue
Feb 24, 2020
Feb 24, 2020 at 2:43 PM UTC