#fourwalls
they call it home.
i learned to call it something else.
the same four walls,
the same silence that never helped,
the same nights that strecthed too long
with nowhere to hide.
and i remember,
how the room would watch
like it always does,
holding its breath
while everything broke.
i was small,
small enough to think
someone would stop it,
then someone would choose me.
but the silence stayed.
so i learned early,
how to survive inside a place
that was never meant to hurt me,
how to carry something invisible
that still feels like it's there—
like red
that never really washed away.
and even now,
when the night comes back
and the walls feel closer,
i realize
i never left that room.
i just grew around it.
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 9:42 PM UTC
little window up there
clouds glide past in the spring air
floating down, maybe to you
perhaps we both noticed
if only you knew
day brings rays that filter in
familiar course along the walls and antique tin
night's starlight brings wonder and dread
perhaps we both noticed
is he asleep, or is she dead
little window way up there
the show you give is not to share
vivarium's view of life in lieu
perhaps we both noticed
youth's magic will never be felt anew
Feb 11
Feb 11, 2026 at 2:17 AM UTC
I saw her in the bazaar
after so many days.
As always, her face was layered
with makeup—
not to beautify,
but to mask the bruises.
Time had worn her down,
yet she stood tall,
a quiet victory in her eyes.
She had finally severed the knot
of an abusive past,
and for the first time,
she looked free.
Feb 21, 2025
Feb 21, 2025 at 1:30 AM UTC
These four walls, they talk to me
Reminding me that time is temporary
And everyone will leave eventually
These four walls are the same four walls
That scare me, they close in without actually moving
These four walls, they are watching me
They wait till I’m asleep so they can shout
What a waste of space I’ve been
These four walls are the same four walls
That haunt me, they hold memories of things I don’t ever want to see
But these four walls know the real me
They know me better than anybody
They know everything about my story
And they will keep it between themselves for eternity
Apr 11, 2020
Apr 11, 2020 at 4:07 PM UTC
I find comfort in darkness
where i am most comfortable with myself
sitting in the dark
no windows open
everything starts to feel okay
nothing is there to get me
no one there to see me cry
just these four walls surrounding me
and they've become my best friends.
Jul 24, 2014
Jul 24, 2014 at 11:42 AM UTC
Here we are,
7 days till my birthday.
7 days to count another year on this Earth.
Another year of...
Everything i'm trying to run away from.
The world is sick.
Humanity is low.
And I am shrinking inside.
Shrinking everything but the baddest things,
those are growing.
The insecurities.
The thoughts.
My insanity.
It's all growing.
and me?
What am i doing about it?
Nothing.
What could i do?
It's controlling me.
It's captured my feelings and controls my thoughts.
It's holding me down,
knowing I am getting weaker;
knowing it has me locked up
inside myself.
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 9:02 PM UTC