#fosterchild
She came into our lives like a tornado.
She flattens and destroys.
Screaming down the love we give.
Filling the house with noise.
Little cherub face masked with angry rage.
What can I do...is this just a phase?
She calls me mommy and I'm not sure what to say.
Is being her mommy supposed to feel this way?
The days drag on and I can't deny.
My heart isn't in this and I'm not sure why.
I read her a book. I brushed her hair. I held her while she cried, but my mind wasn't there.
I held her hand. I cleaned her face. I showed her a cloud. I taught her about space.
I know what it is...I can finally see...
I'm afraid to love her because...
she doesn't belong to me.
Jun 13, 2017
Jun 13, 2017 at 8:26 PM UTC
And just like a mason jar
Or a broken car
You threw aside my heart
Like some messed up art
And just like the ocean
Or a dead man's house
My heart is now empty
All the people poured out
You took all my love
And you threw it away
And all I can think is
I wish you had stayed
It's not much your fault
What happened to me.
You're just a child
My heart is the sea.
And I suppose after all
My foster child
You just did as you were told
You just moved on
Jun 16, 2015
Jun 16, 2015 at 10:04 PM UTC
Chubby cheeks
Curly hair
Toothless mouth
Erratic laughs
Excited faces
Bright smiles
Little clothes
Funny actions
Can I keep you forever, my foster child?
I don't want you to leave.
Every time I see you, you
Brighten
My
Day.
Mar 31, 2015
Mar 31, 2015 at 8:23 AM UTC