#focusing
In the first light of dawn
fog shrouds the trees
and gentilizes the landscape
softens hard edges
unifies everything.
What is the fog telling me?
Subtract the number of details
that consume attention and energy.
Unify the landscape of life
into something more simple.
Maybe I should listen to the wisdom of the fog.
Jan 27, 2020
Jan 27, 2020 at 8:29 AM UTC
The crowds around me are consuming
arms of voices booming
echoes everywhere enveloping the silence
Overstimulation rises in my blood pressure
This storm distracts me from my task
but what task
The bread in my hand reminds me
of what Mom asked
Get your head in the game Maya!
That constant voice rings again inside my head
I remember where I am what I’m doing
it’s not a storm
only a store
Mom tasked me with putting the bread away
It’s the wrong brand
Get your head in the game Maya!
Again at school with a test in a quiet room
pencil pressed to paper
The voice in my motor brain grows louder
booming with words
I know what I’m doing
I know this pencil should move
should write
should turn the mess of words in front of me
into sentences
But I can’t
my brain won’t send the message
to my hand
Just write! Move! Focus!
Don’t look around the room!
But I do
And once I look it’s all-consuming
the posters on the walls
the other kids
who somehow take the test perfectly
Get your head in the game Maya!
When I tell my friends
I didn’t finish
they ask
Why Maya it’s so easy
I want to scream that I know
I know how easy it is
I know I can do it
I know I’m smarter than this
So why can’t I show it?
They laugh
and they point
I wish I were older,
but it doesn’t help;
age doesn’t matter.
I learn there is more to me than this,
and I must live with that truth.
So instead of racing and rushing,
I learn to cope.
I learn to work with myself.
I learn to love myself.
And soon, others will too.
No more get your head in the game.
No more thinking I’m crazy.
You’re doing great, Maya.
It’s just ADHD.
Jan 29
Jan 29, 2026 at 12:07 PM UTC