#findingself
Lift the needle
From the record
It's time we
Settle this
Because if
We keep playing
The music we
Call life
The grooves
Will distort
And I'll be
Stuck
Scratched and
Endlessly spinning
On track four
Aching, and yearning
to progress
My way past you
I seek to find
My way
To a new track,
Titled
'A New State of
Mind'
But I can't
Seem to get
Out of this
Current state
(You played me
This time)
Not knowing
how to stop
I'm stuck in a
Loop
Forever stuck on replay
(I just want a
Day
Where I'm not
Dying inside
I just want to
Be fine today)
The diamond needle
Digs deeper
In the grooves
Making the vinyl
Weaker
And all that's left
Is a shell of myself
In this preserved state
Lift the needle
From the record
I'm tired of being
Played on a broken
Speaker
Aug 24, 2023
Aug 24, 2023 at 5:16 AM UTC
I was a kaleidoscope
Every hope,faith
I made symmetrical pattern
Yet I know nothing
I Saw the world through
magnified lens,
Microfying lense
Before I knew to pronounce letters greater than five
Yet I know nothing
The power to completely
detach from my soul
Yet be Completely entwined
The web of veins
That cannot function
without the other
Yet I know nothing
Pain far worse
Worse than shrivel of knives
Scattered through all my senses
Yet I know nothing
The vastnes of pain
Each knowledge it comes with
I've been through it
Understood it
Empathatise it
Yet I know nothing
Yes I am That kaleidoscope
My limitation is only war
A defect I'm happy with
Feb 27, 2025
Feb 27, 2025 at 12:01 AM UTC
I Cut and Cut to shred away the skin I wore when I was with you.
I tear away the time we’ve had to find the me before you.
Find the old cloth under all the patches you placed over me.
You thought you were fixing me
By covering the holes, the tears, the tatters. Those were me ; my loves my losses, my memories.
By Friends and family I will piece together a new self. They will be the stitches that put me back together and hold me as a reborn whole.
The quilt made by my hand, held together by my choices. will be all the warmth and comfort I will ever need.
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 11:43 AM UTC