#fightforsanity
Feeling the numbness in my chest
My lifeless limbs walk and wave
My face forces expressions to feel normal
My lips form words that are foreign to my natural tongue
Nothing is real to my mind
Its on auto pilot
Nov 13, 2021
Nov 13, 2021 at 2:09 AM UTC
I put up walls higher than Chinas
I have stitches from past traumas
Trust became my enemy
Love made me a widower
My heart stopped
But my eyes are still open
I dont want to die
But I think im dead anyways
Nov 11, 2021
Nov 11, 2021 at 2:02 PM UTC
This is my 100th love poem
And your name is always the first thing that pops into my head
Like a racing horse, my mind runs laps on how our first 50 years together will be like
Our first touch reminds me, that the present is where I wanna be
As my hand interlocks with yours and your soft lips are inches away from mine
Time slows down and the world ceases to exist
Oct 28, 2021
Oct 28, 2021 at 11:25 PM UTC
Its been a year since my character cracked
I locked away the pain
So I could keep myself sane
I remind myself that pain is temporary
But then the truth itches when I rub my scars in my heart.
Oct 24, 2021
Oct 24, 2021 at 8:32 PM UTC
I walk around this big empty room
That was once loud
I used to hear the sound of laughter
Now a deafening silence consumes it
I touch the walls
The soft touch of romantic intimacy
Gone
Numb to my fingertips
The shine from your perfectly curved smile
Diminished and I am then blind in the dark
As I walk out the room
I close the door behind me
I lock it and as I walk away
I turn around to look at the door one more time
“Heart” was written on it
Jul 30, 2020
Jul 30, 2020 at 2:14 AM UTC
Keep pushing
Even if it comes down to just crawling
Keep pushing
Push for a real smile
Push for a better mindset
Push for a stronger heart
Push for a better you
Jul 28, 2020
Jul 28, 2020 at 10:59 PM UTC
When blue has the ocean and sky
Whats does black have?
When orange and red has the sunset
What does black have?
When yellow has the sun and white has the moon
What could black possibly have?
Well...if you look past it all.
Black has the stars that light up the night sky
The planets that surround our biggest star
And the galaxy that houses our home
Thats what black has...
May 3, 2020
May 3, 2020 at 5:15 PM UTC
I could write a million poems
I could say a million cute things
I could give you a million gifts
None of that matters because in that one moment when I first kissed you
I knew I could give you my one heart
And thats the most valuable thing I can give you
Jan 13, 2020
Jan 13, 2020 at 8:01 PM UTC
As your roots bury deep into my memory
We both take a journey through the pain
Through the madness
But through the tears
Comes growth
And as we grow tall towards the sky
We bloom
Like a sunflower
Jan 13, 2020
Jan 13, 2020 at 2:56 AM UTC
Through your beautiful glass eyes
I see the night sky
The universe in my arms
Weeping comets
I hold her tighter to feel the sun in her chest
The warm feeling from her touch
Keeps me falling more into her love
Jan 12, 2020
Jan 12, 2020 at 11:18 PM UTC
In a world where deep love
Becomes a deep cut
An emotionally draining scar
That gets to replay in your mind
In a world where being perfect
Was never good enough
No matter the effort
Your heart breaks
Your head overthinks
Your soul getting crushed by the weight
In a world where you’re staying up late
Alone with the loneliest feeling in the world
Let me sleep forever
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019 at 5:39 AM UTC
Ill look deep into your eyes
I see myself fly into the clouds
Where eventually
Ill fall back into your warm arms
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 8:24 PM UTC
Trying to grasp whats left of my reality
Speeding on my own highway
I just need it all to stop
Slamming on the brakes as hard as I can before I fall over the edge
Creeping over the ledge
I see my crippling end
If I fall
Hopefully it wont be long
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 12:13 PM UTC
I tried so hard to be the perfect guy
I can't change her past and trauma
She was left with a hole in her heart
For god sake, I can't fill it
A familiar pain, my soul aches
She says she has to leave
No matter what I say
No matter what I do
I can't convince her to stay
I can't be mad
I can't be sad either
Its not her fault
Maybe Love is not for me anymore.
Oct 7, 2019
Oct 7, 2019 at 5:28 AM UTC
It was just one of those nights
The kind of night that was nauseating
The one where I want to go out for a long drive while listening to Drakes Thank Me Later album
The one where I wanna be numb to everything
Unfortunately I can’t, so I just sit there and pretend that everything in my head is...well... just in my head.
Jun 26, 2019
Jun 26, 2019 at 4:31 AM UTC
In the end and at the very least I wish you could understand me better
Maybe then our conversations wouldn’t start and end with anger, disappointment, sadness, and confusion
I’m sorry we don’t see everything in one picture frame
I see the opposite view from you
But it is not my fault
Thats just how my world raised me
Whether or not we come together and try to find common ground
I’ll still move forward with success ahead of me, regardless of how wrong you think it is
You did your best to be my father
I’ll love you regardless of the stress and pain we put each other through
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 3:45 AM UTC
With a broken smile she said,
“Why do you love me so much? I am just going to break your heart.”
He held her ever so tightly and replied,
“Then break it. Its not my heart that gets me to come back to you. It’s you”
Jan 27, 2019
Jan 27, 2019 at 11:26 PM UTC
So when does it stop hurting?
It doesn’t
It just gets easier to deal with it over time
The more you focus on loving yourself
The less you let things upset you
Live on with your demons
You don’t have to embrace them or let them change you
Stick with your heart and never let go
Jan 18, 2019
Jan 18, 2019 at 5:05 AM UTC
No one just decides to be different
You can stand out so much from a crowd
But it ain’t so bad
You are meant to find your own place in the world
Sometimes without realizing it
You’re a wolf in a sheep herd
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 4:42 AM UTC
A year can change your perspective
A moment can reshape your heart
But a memory can keep you the same
Nov 19, 2018
Nov 19, 2018 at 1:58 AM UTC
I don’t drink or eat my sorrows away
I just live with them.
Hoping it would get better.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 3:29 AM UTC
I can’t be depressed...
I just can’t.
If I am lost then I can’t help the people I care about the most find their own way.
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 1:37 AM UTC