#fearoflove
Love
The word that daunts me
Yet they say its a sea.
What if I drown
And slip away from my crown?
The feeling is not what's strange
Its the people who do change.
You never know how
Until they ask you to bow.
Mar 18
Mar 18, 2026 at 11:28 PM UTC
sonnets floating through my mind
turning pages upside down
only to find-
there is nothing written at all.
~
soundly stepping over
the people I fear
they have one thing in common
they were fantasies
but then became real.
~
I‘m the acrobat
bending every time someone
demands something of me,
a mockingbird without a voice
screaming until my lungs
start to crack
without ever making a sound.
~
but only in my mind
with hallways, endless to roam
scratching on walls
until my fingernails broke.
~
to look for a window
was keeping me calm
I secretly knew
my illusion had none.
~
painfully pulling me
out of the dark-
people have tried
but I turn to stone
when I feel their touch.
Dec 6, 2025
Dec 6, 2025 at 12:00 PM UTC
I love some hearts, but they turn away,
The ones who love me, never stay.
I want to choose, but fate decides,
With those I like, love often hides.
I fear to love, I fear to lose,
I fear the pain I can’t refuse.
I long for life without this fear,
But then I see, it brings things clear.
Without the dark, the light feels small,
Without the pain, joy means nothing at all.
I can’t live with fear, can’t live apart,
It lives with me, deep in my heart.
This is the truth, the constant fight,
Between the love I want and the fear of night.
Sep 20, 2025
Sep 20, 2025 at 1:08 PM UTC
You gave yourself away
But only to yourself
You've built a life
And every possibility exists
If you gave it to me
How can I be all of that
Why would the world exist
If I am the only one?
You cannot know me
Cleverness is like perfume
The aroma is not life
It is only to trick your mind
I know every emotion
The same as you
I throw them in the air
But I always drop them
Being alone is a fortress
My voice intrudes
It is naked with purpose
You must consider its strength
Is it all to much
A violin changes your feeling
I try to be soft but beautiful
A sound you cannot ignore
You wait for another soul
How long does a revelation take
If I cannot make you laugh
Is my kindness so worthless?
I cannot see the scarf you wear
I only know it hides your heart
Forever guarded by God's hand
Will I ever know its grace?
Oct 29, 2017
Oct 29, 2017 at 1:44 PM UTC
How impressed must you be
I didn’t think that was how two people share a life
I saw you raising a glass again
Are you looking for something or running from it?
If it’s so important
Then why are you afraid of me
It’s not that I’m not good enough
It’s that you no longer believe in you
How holy are your thoughts of you?
God told you he would forgive you
You’re afraid of what I might do to you?
What road could I lose you on that he cannot find?
It seems every word I’ve thought of falls short
I wonder how long you will wait for me to get it right
Sweeping someone off their feet is not so easy
You want what’s sure but love can only say what might
How holy are my thoughts of you?
God told you me would forgive you
I’m afraid of what I might do to you
What road could I find you on that he won’t mind?
Dec 28, 2016
Dec 28, 2016 at 10:18 PM UTC
I saw you by the water’s edge
I was on the other side
I know why you’re looking
It’s the reflection in which you confide
But you’re there for another reason
That’s why your shoes are off
You want to know if it’s cold
I just want to know if it’s soft
I’m not the water baby
I’m not the water
I’m just on the other side
I’m not the water baby
I’m just on the other side
You forgot how to get things started
You’re only thinking about how it might end
I’m not so afraid of losing someone anymore
I just don’t want to hurt another friend
I’m not the water baby
I’m not the water
It just seems that way ‘cause it’s awful wide
I’m not the water baby
I’m waiting on the other side
If you can’t see me for the water
Then watch the sun rise in the morning
If you see a reflection in the light you see
Then you’ll know the water is not me
I’m not the water baby
I’m not the water baby
Don’t be afraid of me
Don’t be afraid of me
Don’t be afraid of me
Mar 3, 2016
Mar 3, 2016 at 1:50 PM UTC
All our life is finally here
It really is true
I’m going to tell you now
Though I don’t really know you
I want to tell somebody
The things they want to hear
Maybe if I write it down
I will be ready to whisper in your ear
It’s time to listen to the moon
Though the silence is so calm
It’s my heart that you feel
In the last days
Everyone wonders
What was it about
So many times
I felt so twisted
I felt so much doubt
All our life we dream
And we wait
But you walked by
While I held open the gate
It’s time to listen to the sun
The warmth made you smile
Because my heart is real
Aug 29, 2015
Aug 29, 2015 at 12:11 AM UTC
As their lips neared the shores of chance and promise
He stopped the water and swept the sand clean of candled muses
The wind swept air paused for them to decide
They didn’t know about love when they could still feel their bruises
She thought she heard him say the word forever
But how could it be when it was only what she’d given away before
Though he stopped her breath she opened her eyes
She wanted to see what kind of man it was who finally wanted more
The fortress she made was only made of sand
But when he pulled the moon close the tides of love swept it away
And while fires burned inside glowing paper bags
The roar of exploding shells fueled their desires where they lay
Aug 14, 2015
Aug 14, 2015 at 12:06 PM UTC
He wants to say 'I love you'
but only manages a 'goodnight'
because love will mean falling
and she's afraid of heights
May 9, 2015
May 9, 2015 at 5:05 AM UTC