#fearofintimacy
She says; "I'mma love yo the way you are",
But deep down I know the promise won't hold far,
That's why am afraid.
Am afraid of submitting my whole mind with all its mental luggage,
The stress, the pain, the anxiety, they're all too heavy,
Their weight might break her shoulders and neck , am afraid.
Am afraid my hulking jealousy will strangle up her freedom,
As soon as she becomes mine; to make sure she's only mine I'll lock her up in a dungeon,
I won't hesitate to keep her from everybody, even from myself, am afraid.
Am afraid of letting her in with the doors to my heart wide open,
Mind you; that's the same house a coupla times love-quake has broken,
A mere touch might send it tumbling down, am afraid.
Am afraid the days to her goodbyes will still come,
They'll shatter my soul, to ashes they'll make it burn,
With her as the gear gone, my life will cease to run, am afraid.
Feb 5
Feb 5, 2026 at 2:19 AM UTC
I never knew what comfort really felt like until I met you.
Comfort, once foreign, now feels strangely asperous.
If I had known I’d be invited to dance with my demons,
I’m not so sure I would have pursued you...
Fear creeps behind me with every confident step I take toward you.
I find myself frantically searching for an escape—
an easy way out.
Who are you to enter my life with such certainty,
only to sidestep my every reach?
Perhaps this dance is not with my demons,
but with yours.
Jun 12, 2025
Jun 12, 2025 at 10:35 PM UTC