#fay
I love her like the stars love the night
we are two forbidden lovers
touched by one another
souls intertwine
colliding with the hearts of others
we swear to our hearts the promises we will keep. each breath I long for her , I miss the taste of her lips they tasted like addiction oh sweet addiction I knew that once I tasted her I would crave her for a million lifetimes . my heart begs for her but my mind has locked her away, but each heart beat only beats for her says her name as if it were a prayer ... I loved her in each lifetime I loved her in each year, day , hour , minute , seconds truth is I've always loved her .
Dec 5, 2018
Dec 5, 2018 at 2:52 PM UTC
Fairy boy, you catch my eye,
Trough candles and smoke
In a loop of time
We have a nice talk
A fine glass of wine
And coziness in the dark
You’re strange, but fair
I have to confess
Under tilleylamps flicker
I care even less
Wether fairy or not
You are pleasing my eyes
And I recognize
The fume between your lips
Suits your face too well
To resist any kiss
Or any little spell
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 2:01 PM UTC
When I first saw you,
You took my breath away
You showered me with affection
And kind words
Things I was never used to
You held me
You kissed me
You made me feel fearless
Like the whole world was my oyster
You made me feel loved
You told me you loved me
Over and over
A kiss for each time you did
And you held my hand all the way through
Now when I see you,
The anxiety you give me takes my breath away
You shower me with death glares
And venomous words
Things that I was never used to with you
You stare in anger
You stare in hatred
You make me feel worthless
Like the whole world is closing in
You make me feel betrayed
You give me excuses
Over and over
A hiss each time you do
And you scream all the way through
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 3:03 PM UTC
The nun, plump, robed in a black
and white habit, walked across
the front of the class of girls.
Fay sat half way down on the left
next to the girl Millicent Sullivan
(whose aunt was a nun in Ireland).
"Immaculate Conception," the nun
said," what does it mean and to
whom does it refer?" The girls
stared at the nun whose two chins
wobbled as she spoke. Millicent
didn't raise her hand even though
she knew the answers, but put on
her innocent gaze. "Some of you
girls must know the answers,"
the nun said moodily. Fay raised
her hand and heads turned to look
at her. "Well, Fay?" She felt herself
blush and lowered her hand from
view. "It means one conceived
without blemish or sin," she said
in a soft voice. The nun stood up
to her full five foot frame. "And
what does conceived mean in this
context?" A few girls sniggered,
others gazed at Fay. The classroom
seemed to shrink to a white glow
containing just her and the nun.
"Not sure, Sister Luke," she said.
The nun gazed around the room.
"I am sure one of you girls know
the answer to this," Sister Luke said.
The girls just stared at the nun.
Millicent raised her hand and said:
"It means when the man's stuff
meets the woman's egg." Some
girls blushed, others looked puzzled.
"You have the idea. Now to whom
was it applied?" Sister Luke asked
staring at other girls. "The ****** Mary?"
A thin girl at the back of class replied doubtfully. Fay knew it was, but said
nothing more. The nun went on to
elaborate details. Fay was puzzled
by the man's stuff and egg. She
wondered if Benny knew. She would
ask him after school when she met
him on the way home. He knew
about things like battles and wars
and once kept a goldfish in a glass
bowl until he lost it down the sink.
He might know, she mused, she
didn't know otherwise what to think.
Sep 14, 2018
Sep 14, 2018 at 4:15 PM UTC
The phases of matter all turn into one
When her lips touch mine
It burns like a thousand supernovas
And freezes like the vaccuum of space
The stars spill bright light through the invisble river
That holds no air in the darkness
The cheek of her face brushing mine
Fills me with the feeling
Of my heart when I see crescent moons
I can't wait to float away
Into the bright swirling stars
In the distance
With nobody but you
And maybe when we do that
We'll feel the stars pull us back
Like on starships
Apr 8, 2017
Apr 8, 2017 at 1:10 PM UTC
Maybe she sees
Gentle rays of the sun
Glimmer from my face
Just like how I see her:
The light in the darkness
Of life's obscure fog
I wonder if she feels
The warm summer breeze
That would slowly blow
Upon her soft cheeks
Whenever I speak
The same breeze I feel
When she tells me
Nothings and somethings
I hope she feels
The slight glow
Of white moonlight
When my arms wrap around her
The very same glow
Whenever her arms
Lock themselves behind me
Sending me a message
To never let her go
I wish she forgets seeing
The heavy rains
That flood the roads on my face
Whenever I asked
If I were enough for her
Or if I were too much to handle
I wish she understands
The cyclones in my head
That clap thunder and flash lightning
Whenever the anger in me
Boils the chaotic saltwater
And creates tsunamis
In the vast ocean of my mind
I wish she forgives me
For the hailstorms in my words
That fall to the ground
And break like glass shards
That shatter windows and roofs
And car windshields and windows
I am a force of nature
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 8:29 AM UTC
WARREN BEATTY AND FAY DUNAWAY
GET THE WINNERS ENVELOPE
THE WRONG PICTURE WAS AWARDED
CAN THE OSCARS COPE
LALA LAND WAS THE WINNER
BUT IT WASN'T REALLY AT ALL
THE ORGANISERS GOT IT WRONG
THEY REALLY DROPPED THE BALL
IN 89 YEARS OF ACADEMY AWARDS
THIS IS THE GREATEST MISTAKE
IT WILL GO DOWN IN HISTORY
AND GIVE THE OSCARS A SHAKE
Feb 27, 2017
Feb 27, 2017 at 9:13 PM UTC
Am I enough?
It's just that I never feel
Like I'm enough
It's like there's so much more
That I can do
But can't
Because of
My empty pockets
Or my bursts of depression
Or my rage toward the past
Or whatever else
I'm sorry if I can't give you the world in itself
At this very moment,
But I'm giving you bits and pieces
So that one day you'll be able to take them
And put them together to see it
I'm trying
I'm trying
I really am trying
Believe me
I want to give you the universe
From the grains of sand
Which you hate so much
To the stars in the sky
That I have never seen
Just you wait, my love
Feb 6, 2017
Feb 6, 2017 at 6:29 AM UTC
The way she smiled
At the sight of
Pretty glass bottles
And things like honey
Always amused me
She sees so much good in this world
And she is slowly teaching me how to
Jan 17, 2017
Jan 17, 2017 at 5:44 AM UTC
To be honest,
I was always quite scared
At the thought of meeting you.
Blood used to rush through my body
Whenever I thought of breathing the same air
In the same room as you.
I'm glad you pushed me to come
Because you gave the bitter, black coffee
A few tablespoons of sugar.
Jan 2, 2017
Jan 2, 2017 at 9:42 AM UTC
I'm waiting for my tea to arrive in this hotel lobby.
The slow piano music playing in the background
Is more familiar than it should be.
I should be calm, but all of the couples around me
Are exchanging sweet nothings and sweeter kisses
And it makes me jealous
Because I wish you were here
So we could do the same.
Tea is here, love.
Jan 2, 2017
Jan 2, 2017 at 7:40 AM UTC
I went to the flat today
The pink light from the red curtains
Colored in the white walls
That held your new life in pictures
And the bed where we laid
Reciting lost poetry to each other
At four in the morning
Contained the same mess
That was made the day you left
I stood still in the middle of everything
And took the deepest breath I could
Before having to go back into the ocean
We all call "the real world"
In that breath, I heard your soft voice
Whispering sweet somethings into my ear,
I felt your hands slowly grip mine,
And the feeling of your loving eyes staring
Into every fiber of my lonesome being
Gave me goosebumps
In that moment, I was calm again
My mind was once again at peace
After all the hours of screaming
After all the days of torture
**** I said
"I almost forgot to bring home the soy milk"
Dec 24, 2016
Dec 24, 2016 at 6:50 AM UTC
Less than two minutes
I heard your voice
For less than two minutes today
I hope the sound of it rings in my head
For the remaining 1438 and a half
Dec 23, 2016
Dec 23, 2016 at 8:21 PM UTC
I miss the air in your apartment
The scent of you and city air fills it up
The calm and the chaos in every inhale
I miss the warm days with cool breeze
Where your lips descended upon mine
And our tongues ran in each others' mouths
Like wild horses over grassy hills
I miss the cool nights with warm breeze
Where our minds ascended into the stars
While bottles of craft beer and odd mixes
Gradually declined into emptiness
I miss you.
Dec 23, 2016
Dec 23, 2016 at 1:05 PM UTC
it's a hot day
in mid-December
as well
the world
(as we know it)
has gone
even more
topsy-turvy
Decembers used to be cold
like heartbreak after a date
or a cold shower at 4 a.m.
there isn't much around
besides the ceiling, the floor,
and the four walls that confine me
while the not-so-soothing sounds
of motorcycles pass by
my cage with silver bars
that i like to call my house
i miss you
and the summer's warmth
you bring when nights are cold
and the October breeze you have
when the days are hot
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 11:56 PM UTC
The cold mountain air nips at my cheeks
While I sit on the cold grass of this slope
I can feel the chills poke my skin like needles
And crawl down my spine like spiders
But the chills aren't worse than the cold feeling in my chest
Because you aren't here by my side
Oct 31, 2016
Oct 31, 2016 at 9:19 AM UTC
Be strong, my dear
Because I know you can do it
The demons crawl up
From the ground below
And steal the air you breathe
But take it back from them
Because it's rightfully yours
Be strong, my dear
Because I know you can do it
Oct 28, 2016
Oct 28, 2016 at 2:28 PM UTC
I used to spend my nights
With only bottles of alcohol as friends
They didn't care if I talked about
Love or
Dying or
Life or
Anything
They listened
Months later, I met her
She didn't mind if I talked about
Love or
Dying or
Life or
Anything
She listened
And said she loved me
And I abandoned my old friends
Because she gave me the bittersweet buzz
Without the bitter
I never liked the bitter
Oct 26, 2016
Oct 26, 2016 at 8:01 AM UTC
I have not felt the perfect calm
That exists when I'm in proximity to your being
Since the day you walked through those doors
The light of the sun no longer shines down
I can only feel its searing heat boiling my blood and skin
The stars and moon no longer give light in the evening
They left me with only the darkness of the night sky as company
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 3:18 AM UTC
The world around me has always been gray
The buildings, the trees, the skies, and the people
Have always been duller than the blade
I used to cut myself with
Now I see the world in bright colors
Because you came in and painted it all
From corner to corner to corner to corner
And you filled in every detail
And every spot that was bleak
Darling, when the colors in your life fade,
Remember that I will always be there
To bring back all of the lost vibrance
And add a lot more
Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 10:06 AM UTC
I used to enjoy
Reading books in my empty bedroom
While I sipped on a cup of green tea
(Or whatever tea I had in my cup)
During the weekends
Singing songs
To an audience of nobody at all
Was also a hobby of mine
(One I very much enjoyed)
The darkness in my room,
That embraced me
During moments of depression,
No longer holds me like it used to
The day you walked fully into my life
Was the day I realized I was not solitary
And it was also the day
That I stopped fancying being alone
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 11:52 AM UTC
I've lived
In this city
18 years
And I never saw it
The way she saw it
Until she showed me
I never saw the lights
In the buildings
Because there were no reasons
To look at them
Until she told me
How beautiful they were
And she was right
The city
Isn't so mundane
Anymore
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 11:42 AM UTC
I love you so much
I love you too
You have given me happiness in this dark time
And I love you so much for it
Oh darling
Words cannot even express how much I am thankful for you and how much I love you
"Love" is not an adequate enough term for everything I feel in my heart, mind, and soul for you.
If only there were a word for what we feel for each other.
My being wants to scream that word out into the cosmos,
But I do not know what the word is.
*I want to write the word, over and over again all over my blank white walls until they crumble
I want to say it to you every time I kiss you, every time you hold my hand, and every time I so much as think of you.
Iñigo.
I love you with every shred of my being. Every cell in my body misses you with ever passing nanosecond.
I want you here.*
We're going to go around the world to look for that word. We will look at every painting in every museum. Every sculpture in every garden. Every star in the sky. We will find this word.
And I love you with every shred of mine.
Each time I say your name or even think about it or you, I fall in love all over again
I as well
We're stronger than the days.
Stronger than time.
We can get through this.
*Stronger than the toughest rock, stronger than water.
We will.
We must.*
Stronger than every wind that has ever touched the earth.
I love you.
I love you too.
Oct 11, 2016
Oct 11, 2016 at 4:22 AM UTC
I miss you so much
I miss you too
I want you so badly right now
Me too, darling...
I miss holding you
And your presence
And your voice
*I miss the smell of your perfume
I miss your hands
I miss running my fingers through your hair*
I miss the taste of your lips
And the warmth of your skin
I miss your eyes and their depth
I miss you entirely
I miss your being around me
******* it, Lorenzo*
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 5:06 AM UTC