#fawn
A fawn treads quietly through the forest, her mother trailing.
Her world is all marsh grass and reeds, her small hooves parting the brush that stands between her and the pond. She bends her neck to drink, nose skimming and sending ripples across the surface of the water.
This spring evening, the pond is clear. But she does not pause or look vainly when she catches her own deep brown eye in her reflection.
Why would she, for all of her that matters can be seen through the eyes of her mother. Know that in the mirror of her mother’s eyes she is beautiful tonight, untouched by all but the slow-sinking sun.
It is late-summer now, and her world is all asphalt and rubber and sickly twisting machinery, metal that glimmers like the surface of the pond they once drank from.
Fast metal, faster than nature, faster than her mother.
Now the fawn only sees herself in the shiny black of the machine, bent and warped, distorting her once-pretty face.
She bolts, her world of marsh grass and reeds crushed under her strong hooves.
Know that there is no beauty left in the forest tonight, for it is forever touched by the cruelty of man.
Months later, when the falling leaves cover the scars of a summer lost, the fawn finally stops at the pond again.
There is something eternal here, something wild in the way her nose first skims hesitantly then sends ripples ricocheting across the surface of the water.
This autumn evening, the pond is as clear as glass.
And on this autumn evening, she pauses; not vainly, but to catch her mother’s deep brown eye in her reflection.
Tonight she is beautiful again, untouched by all but the slow-sinking sun.
Jan 21
Jan 21, 2026 at 7:24 PM UTC
i locked eyes with the moor last night
and he begged me to turn away
he said
« turn from the swale that weaves the shale
the marl that smells of hail
the fox and the hare and the fawn
that wake beneath a languid moon
move on to a brighter thought
that peaks beyond my cliffs »
i swathed its sultry writhe
around my chest and began to shiver
as roots began to scrape
scratch
slither in my veins
as the fox and the hare and the fawn
slipped their way through the soil
i choked on rind and loam that night
and the herbs seared,
more rotten than peace,
symbiotic
synergy
the fox and the hare and the fawn
seaming silks
and cranking my geometry
it was then i found its strath
and the skies it seemed to hold
and despite my shaking
shuddering
splintered bones and staggered walk
the hill’s strath began to grow
as earthworms under mist
and the fox and the hare and the fawn
sealed my brains at last
Nov 6, 2025
Nov 6, 2025 at 4:25 AM UTC
sometimes i don’t know if i’m the whole problem, or just half the problem
if i play a role, or if there is something i’m missing
i miss you, and i feel like i’ve fallen off whatever pedestal you had me on
it’s like when they say “you’ll let yourself down every time when you expect yourself out of someone else,”
it seems as if that is where we are meeting each other where we’re both currently at
it’s not somewhere in the middle, it’s not few and far between
it’s withdrawn and distant, it’s push and pull, and it’s hot and cold
it’s emotional whiplash, freeze and fawn
i have no idea what the **** we’re even doing anymore
because i find myself not even wanting to or caring to respond at all
emotionally exhausted
but still at your beck and call.
Sep 17, 2025
Sep 17, 2025 at 3:41 AM UTC
a doe wandered into the clear path of the starry forest. three shots had rung out.
a buck lay flat on the clovers and tall grass.
a fawn beside him pawing the ground.
three frogs hopping in the trees.
down down down.
the doe lay beside the fawn as it denied the inevitable, inescapable truth.
he was gone.
she was here.
and the frogs sang a sappy tune.
"ohhh cry out sweet sorrow, the dragonflies skitter away! the cats are out and the mice are at play. whistle sour melodies and harmonious truth, the deer have crossed over, behind stayed their youth."
the young doe shooed away the silly frogs before the hunters heard.
poor fawn.
no mama in sight.
Mar 30, 2025
Mar 30, 2025 at 11:30 PM UTC
...and words still come to my fingertips as i undress you in spirit.
almost-friend, hold me tight and love me true / stare me down, see me as i am: disquieted, patinaed and accustomed to pockets / loose change, a worn copper penny; incoherent, the thrill and lurching sensation of gravity / blooming in my core as i die in my dreams; afraid, for all that word means / of the figs that lie waiting on the branches ahead / ample and pregnant with sweet-rot possibility;
we will labor, singing of light and covalence / until dusk is shorn of its gloomy nightgown / staving off the cold with what tea, what liquid light / the yielding sun could gift our wide eyes: / just ask, darling almost-friend / and i will provide, because…
you are a fawn, limber and knobby-kneed / and i am but a stranger waxing melancholy in stolen glances from afar / as you come into focus in my wood / drinking from my fountains and eating from my briars / leaving me to wonder, “how could i not love such a soul, astute and gentle as it is?” / and so i offer you food and drink because i have nothing else / you could be in want of;
but such things are not for me to behold / and i fear that you will molt your coat as seasons change / the down behind your ears yielding to antlers sprouting like milk teeth from gums / tendering tender for tenacious, grace for gruesome / that you will forget the hands that have proffered to you / sustenance and healing in your darkest hours / for to see others consume satisfies my hunger / to see others delight, my vicarious feast;
in my mind’s eye, you are unclothed and angelic / even with the ophidian basin of your back pressed flat against the tiles of a scalding shower / even with tears ravaging your honest face / here, the masquerade, the spectacle and circumstance, ends / because your rapture will betray your guilt / and we will summit new zeniths hand-in-hand / be baptized, enthralled in the fresh, algid, restless oceans we called forth from the far reaches of our globe / with nothing more than the labyrinth-etched palms of our hands / charting the great floods of yesterday / inking them into the annuls of a friendship (nothing more) for the ages;
celebrate holier mysteries in the anamnesis of that day / we rested upon sand fine as powder, crusted on our knees and elbows / as the ark of our covenant neaped and sprang with cyclical certainty / almost-friend, smile me but one more drowsy floodgate grin / rest your raven-crowned head upon my bare chest / laying in that tender way for eternity / and never again will i ask that wretched question of you: "are you with me?"
no, darling almost-friend: forget me not / because fair weather or poor, my love will remain / echoing truer far and far more sweet / than the oblivious whisper of a forest brook / or the stentorian thundering of an ocean reclaiming what once belonged to it / to know that i am cared for even a fraction of how i care for you is an honor/ and as but a stranger gazing from afar, i promise you this: i will far sooner take myself for granted than you / even should no tea remain to keep us warm, i will hold you till the storm passes / and forever will your name be engraved herein.
Dec 24, 2023
Dec 24, 2023 at 5:27 PM UTC
eyes of a fawn
innocent and wide.
its gaze on its mother,
its pelt spotted
like the shadow of the trees.
a cricket chirps,
little fawn looks back—
a stick breaks,
little fawn is gone.
hurt, touched, dead.
the mother was far away now.
it’s okay, little fawn,
it wasn’t your fault
for being born.
Nov 5, 2024
Nov 5, 2024 at 2:13 PM UTC
I am the deer
Large shimmering eyes and slender limbs
A fawn with spots still on
Like the baby’s breath of the meadow in which I lay
Mocha fur shining in the morning sunlight
Face wet with dew from the chill of night
I am the deer
Mangled on the side of the road
Intestines on display for the vultures above
Legs twisted into a sick jigsaw puzzle
Killed by the man who worries about the machine
And drives away with apathy unwavering
I am the woman
Long, toned legs
Striding down a city sidewalk, wind in her hair
A statue, a monolith, an icon
Like a being carved from polished marble from the raw earth
A face of beauty incarnate
I am the woman
A dismembered body with DNA foreign to herself
Lying in a lake, the soil, a vat of oil
The threads of clothing cut too short like Fate’s own hemline
Killed by the man and his ego who worries if blood washes out
And walks away with apathy unwavering
It is a tragedy as old as time
That Mother Nature birthed daughters
Jan 31, 2024
Jan 31, 2024 at 8:34 PM UTC
It's hard for me to conceptualize the expectations you try to hide,
You're all so sneaky when you ask for my side.
When I say no, it's as if you think I'm being snide,
But all I'm trying to do is make strides.
Understanding that "no" is a full sentence for me,
Grew difficult as it was never an option, you see.
Anytime I could refuse, I would with glee,
Seeking control, even when tempted to agree.
The lack of boundaries harmed our natural bond,
I search for our connection, but when you're around, I tend to fawn.
I dislike this transactional, distant bond.
I ask for quality time and am met with fees,
Being fed a lie that your love language is acts of service, please.
Because I do nothing to help you out, it's decreed,
I must not care; I feel like a bad family member indeed.
Oct 12, 2023
Oct 12, 2023 at 8:43 AM UTC
I'd be such a good girl for you,
making sure to cram and compartmentalize every piece of me
into whatever shape you'd prefer;
I've never known any better.
It's what I've always been told.
If I'm not here to make you happy,
then what is my purpose?
I've never known to take care of myself,
but I would take care of you in a heartbeat.
I don't know how to stop,
I don't know how to love correctly,
and I definitely don't know how to be loved.
If I keep giving,
what does it mean if you give back?
I think I'd feel nauseated knowing
you spent so much energy into me.
I'm not your sink, I'm the output source
and I'd never let it be the other way around.
Jan 4, 2022
Jan 4, 2022 at 12:04 AM UTC
I miss the friend that kept me safe,
it kept me warm in my fragile state.
I now walk proudly and without hesitation,
knowing the friend that became my saviour
is thriving surrounded by its fellow nature.
May 1, 2021
May 1, 2021 at 9:33 PM UTC
BLACK KETTLE
I am a black kettle
But inside of me is a colourless water
I sit on fire everyday
And they deny me of the dinning table
I am a black kettle
Albeit, people make me what I am
Yet, I wouldn't prefer to be in isolation
On the zenith of kukuruku's hill
I am a black kettle
Never judge me by my look
My dream and goal gives me the temporal colour
Inside of me is my natural color
I am a black kettle
But despite the litany of woes
I have a consolation
As long as there's an entity called washing and rinsing
I will always have my true nature retained.
-'Bintan Ola
©2019
Apr 20, 2020
Apr 20, 2020 at 10:33 AM UTC
METABOLIC LOVE
Behold the strength in your weakness
Which is capable of giving vigour to my membrane
Chlorophyll in chloroplast makes the green plant blossom
You make the smile on my face radiant
Come, let's mix the right nucleotide sequence of our desired RNA
And build the sequence of our desired protein
So that the expression of our gene
Will be the desire of friends and relatives
Amidst thousands, you're the only one I chose
Your hotness could denature enzymes
There exist a thousand of competitive inhibitor
But by the words of my mouth;
None would fit to my active site
I want to fly on your wings to the horizon
Regardless of the barbaric thought of men
For I know;
All unwanted functional unit of life
Will die by apoptosis.
-'Bintan Ola
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Apr 20, 2020
Apr 20, 2020 at 10:32 AM UTC
Like lilies in grassland,
The eyes find joy when it behold the beauty in you
A necessity; Unique work of nature
Like the air that runs through the lungs
You're a universe beyond mitochondria
Hyperbole lost its meaning on you
Because all descriptive words are understatement
Thus, let thy beauty be an appraisal and accolade
For other wonderful works of Olodumare
I clasp'd my hands in ecstasy
For you're the sovereign beauty which i do admire.
-'Bintan Ola
Apr 20, 2020
Apr 20, 2020 at 10:30 AM UTC
You are the one by whom I impressed,
The art of knows, in such art you expressed,
I don't know where you exist,
But wished my words to persist,
Our hearts are framed inside,
But have many works beside,
It tells us how to survive,
it tells the world that we are alive,
You are hidden from me but you are not,
I am seeing you in your words knot,
How eminence the combination is?
Look how simple the art pollination is?
You can not hide somewhere,
Because you don't know nowhere,
Because you are not the owner of something,
You belong to Someone else created from nothing,
If I am of any value, cash me,
If nothing for you, trash me,
See my words, even we never meet,
How complex is nature, clear and neat,
Feb 24, 2020
Feb 24, 2020 at 4:13 AM UTC
I am the dizzy little fawn,
I stumble as I walk
I stumble when I talk,
The words try to come out,
But my lips quiver.
I am the big baby,
I need help,
I need cradled,
My eyes they are flooded,
I weep.
I am coming undone.
Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 3:24 PM UTC
Ceaseless scratching
The sound of fingernails on skin
Constant
Unending
Rapid
More
I need it more.
Oh god.
Oh ****
I can feel the Need.
It's all over.
The sensation.
Not even here. Just a mirage.
Just a dream.
Just a fever.
What I want.
NO
What I need.
When will it come?
How long have I waited?
Hours?
Days?
Months???
Or only minutes?
Time
Oh please go faster
A kettle
Boil?
That's it!
If I don't think
Then it will speed up.
How to achieve that though?
Oh,
I did it.
Oct 28, 2019
Oct 28, 2019 at 2:07 AM UTC
I have live my life
Searching for someone
That I will live
For the rest of my life
And you came unexpectedly
You are my one and only
And I am so lucky to have you
Thanks God, I finally found you.
Jun 17, 2019
Jun 17, 2019 at 9:22 AM UTC
A love without life,
A Dead min with no wife,
A world without a spin,
Not a single soul within,
Despair the loss of all it had,
Being lifeless only seems more bad,
No love without life,
Though no days without strife,
Breath in the air,
Love doesn't only take a pair,
LOVE TAKES LIFE
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 2:46 PM UTC
I thought of the idea I couldn't weep
I thought of the idea i couldn't sleep
Late night movies watching creep
Never been a champ at my crib
Loved her and treated her like my rib
Into the throne like a queen
Old songs i sang to my sleep
Tormented enough not for my dream
Thousand opportunities i saw them slip
Into the night the rain falls still
Thunders strikes hard
Turn up my eyes to the dark gay sky and I strain still
Did my exams at the main
Hard day for love I felt the lain
Never greed
But felt the slain
Never promised to love again
Last time caused my manners had my feeds
This ain't the old you knew
But a replica of whats new..
Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 1:39 AM UTC
ULTERIOR MOTIVE
And the pastor said,
"hold your neighbours, look into their eyes
and tell them they won't die in the remaining months of the year."
Turned right
and looked at her (my neighbour),
I felt like going to the pulpit to hug the pastor,
"thank you for giving me a first step."
©FORTUNE MAINE
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC
MAKE A MOVE
Every time I bump into you,
We exchange greetings
With you kissing the back of my palm
(If only you could read minds)
You will find, I never wanted and still don’t want the kiss there.
But
I am a woman
I am to keep quiet.
Nov 25, 2018
Nov 25, 2018 at 4:19 AM UTC
I glanced at the station from an unclear window,
people oblivious to my existence coming by,
some with full of joy and fantasies,
others with hellos and goodbyes.
While sensing being the only introvert
with my 90's desolated playlist,
she came towards me, with a west to east smile,
settling, asked me to help out with her load.
I bobbed, and,
The earth started to rip away,
I feel the winds of change blowing in my face
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 4:14 PM UTC