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Out of work and hating it Whilst others talk about regretting work, Even their perfect jobs don't give them a perk. Stay unemployed for 11 years and you'll see, that through no choice you live a life Of absolute misery. You tell yourself you're pathetic every day. And everyone else says you're not. Listen to everyone go on about benefits, How they cheat the system. How they're not disabled and just picking pockets. They have a TV as big as a house. You feel like a criminal because you're on benefits and they're talking about you. You tell yourself you're pathetic every day And everyone else says "yeh, but you've got a real reason for your help". Live with your dad for 8 years, And see everyone who knows looking down on me. I can see myself interrupting his life, i ask, and he says he's fine. I know he's not, and I feel like i'm to blame for every bad thing for him. I tell myself I'm pathetic every day And everyone else says I need the easy break. I have absolutely no money, eight grand in debt, Trying to pay my way in my dad's house through gifts and favours that I don't want paying back. Yet my dad complains about the bills, and I don't contribute to those, other than what I can. I dont pay a single utility bill for this house. I tell myself i'm pathetic everyday But everyone else tells me using my family is okay. Exert myself too hard all the time, job interviews when I'm in mental decline Taking on a project, telling myself im fine When actually im failing at the basics, Can't do simple jobs in the house, or even look into people's, faces. I tell myself I'm pathetic everyday, But everyone else tells me to relax and take it easy. Finally.....professional help is here for good. I start making life better for myself Give up smoking, start doing things I really like, Actually say no for once, and put up a gate People start disappearing from my life after I ask for a small amount. I dont tell myself im pathetic anymore, But all those people who said they cared, but never showed it, tell me I'm pathetic instead, Now I'm the bad guy for being nice to myself, for improving, for not looking after everyone else. My life is better every time someone leaves. I dont even need to push them away, they just become mad because me saying no, ruined their moving day. Also angry because they had to pay for my fuel, when I drive 200 miles to look after their life, while they improved their own, and I'm ruining mine. I guess the trash takes it self out.
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Jan 19
Jan 19, 2026 at 8:39 PM UTC
UniqueTomMe
My "Family" Say It's Okay.
Out of work and hating it Whilst others talk about regretting work, Even their perfect jobs don't give them a perk. Stay unemployed for 11 years and you'll see, that through no choice you live a life Of absolute misery. You tell yourself you're pathetic every day. And everyone else says you're not. Listen to everyone go on about benefits, How they cheat the system. How they're not disabled and just picking pockets. They have a TV as big as a house. You feel like a criminal because you're on benefits and they're talking about you. You tell yourself you're pathetic every day And everyone else says "yeh, but you've got a real reason for your help". Live with your dad for 8 years, And see everyone who knows looking down on me. I can see myself interrupting his life, i ask, and he says he's fine. I know he's not, and I feel like i'm to blame for every bad thing for him. I tell myself I'm pathetic every day And everyone else says I need the easy break. I have absolutely no money, eight grand in debt, Trying to pay my way in my dad's house through gifts and favours that I don't want paying back. Yet my dad complains about the bills, and I don't contribute to those, other than what I can. I dont pay a single utility bill for this house. I tell myself i'm pathetic everyday But everyone else tells me using my family is okay. Exert myself too hard all the time, job interviews when I'm in mental decline Taking on a project, telling myself im fine When actually im failing at the basics, Can't do simple jobs in the house, or even look into people's, faces. I tell myself I'm pathetic everyday, But everyone else tells me to relax and take it easy. Finally.....professional help is here for good. I start making life better for myself Give up smoking, start doing things I really like, Actually say no for once, and put up a gate People start disappearing from my life after I ask for a small amount. I dont tell myself im pathetic anymore, But all those people who said they cared, but never showed it, tell me I'm pathetic instead, Now I'm the bad guy for being nice to myself, for improving, for not looking after everyone else. My life is better every time someone leaves. I dont even need to push them away, they just become mad because me saying no, ruined their moving day. Also angry because they had to pay for my fuel, when I drive 200 miles to look after their life, while they improved their own, and I'm ruining mine. I guess the trash takes it self out.
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