#falsetto
They see me wearing skirts and stilettos
living my life in falsetto
which they claim a false meadow
and all call out hell no.
They call me godless
when I crossdress
in this frost mess
of lost guests.
They call me a queen
just to be mean
I am what they deem
what they instantly gleam.
Some don’t like what’s different
so the townspeople pick up their pitchforks
they want to diminish my imprint
I guess that’s what they call me a ***** for.
They despise the flamboyant game
coming from my derelict frame
they ask if I feel no shame
I ask them the same.
Every time I’m on the verge
of a dirge
they swerve
from my verve.
While I walk on the air
they watch and they stare
envy ensnared
jealousy scared.
I see myself as ethereal
and try to be pure
they see a disease venereal
in need of a cure.
They say men mustn’t be feminine
even if it is genuine
and there’s a place they’ll send you in
to die with the men who sin.
They order me to mask my grin
and act masculine
but I never asked to win
so I bask in sin.
I search for connection
turning in the direction
of those interested in my ********
not my introspection.
They’re so ******
they’re so catty
they’re just wishing
for a daddy.
The lo-fi
don’t know why
I go cry
and don’t pry.
Excruciating wonders
tear me asunder
until all of my plunder
is a magnanimous blunder.
My throat gets a mite coarse
from the blight force
of their high horse
on my white porch.
My tonsil gets scratchy sore
once they freeze my core
and I sing no more
exiting the door.
I can’t speak
let alone sing
my body is weak
and so are my wings.
They want me in their baritone
narrow home
where sparrows go
to carol no.
I see the slinking bass
ruining this stinking place
engendering a sinking face
whenever I get a thinking taste.
There’s a sharp staccato
in the places I will not go
where the race of evil taught notes
lower than my shipwrecked boat.
I go underwater like the Maldives
silently we all scream
living in our small dreams
rooting for our ball teams.
Once they see I’ve drowned
they hand me back my crown
and tell me not to look so down
after I’ve been gagged and bound.
I respond to their monotony
noddingly
plotting the
same odyssey.
I adopt the stature
of Margaret Thatcher
I’m the student’s master
like a brimstone pastor.
Now I sing as low as I can go
and my flow is extra slow
because I could never grow
living my life in falsetto.
May 24, 2020
May 24, 2020 at 5:29 AM UTC
falsettomcatserenade
Jan 8, 2018
Jan 8, 2018 at 8:43 AM UTC
In Hornsey
N8
resting.
From somewhere
a rising crescendo
'Ohhh, My God, yes.
That's so fuckin' good!'
On the walkway
the plasticised soles
of black pumps
slap the pavement
obscenely,
I think.
But ...
Hang on!
I hold
slowing
And
look up.
*From a cherry tree
an exquisite
pink blossom
releases herself
gliding
closer
&
closer*.
Oct 4, 2017
Oct 4, 2017 at 1:45 PM UTC