#fadinglove
I sat across from a woman with candle smoke in her hair
and eyes like a church at Midnight
She shuffled the universe with soft, ruined hands
and I swear every card knew your name
I told her I came because the signs won't leave me alone
They scratch at my ribs
They crawl through my dreams
They spell you out in flickering neon, in dying prayers
She laid the cards like a funeral
Slow and holy
She says you know you hurt me
It hurts you just the same
a tear slides down my cheek
and the last five minutes I ever got of you
rise up in my throat like a ghost
I was never mad
I was just abandoned
if you knew how fast I forgave you
you would weep shame
I don't believe it wasn't real for you
If it was nothing
your absence would not feel this loud
your silence would not bruise
The way that it does
You liked me at least once, didn't you?
The woman says we have a soul tie
a black flame buried in our bones
We both carry it like a curse
you can feel it too
that's why you cannot sleep
that's why we both can taste the smoke
Last night grief came to me like a tide
All I could think about was you
I was happy before
now even my joy reeks of death
The woman keeps turning the cards
like she's peeling skin from the future
She says *I see him dreaming of you
I see him looking back*
and I wanted to scream
because I never stopped
I feel you
I dream of you
I hear you in the dead hours of the morning
sometimes I still speak to you
like you are buried beneath my bed
I don't know if this is the beginning of the end
or just another haunting
But I keep manifesting you every night
like a girl praying to a False God
Just one last time
I will be good, I swear
I will say I missed you, I confess
I will ask how your days have been, I promise
I will lay my heart down
on a cold silver altar
and let you take it
Break it again
that is fine
for you to be my ruin
my eternal damnation
is the only God
I have ever believed in
Jan 27
Jan 27, 2026 at 2:35 PM UTC
I leave a light on in my bedroom
like a stage no one ever comes back to
just a lonely spotlight humming your name
soft as dust in the curtains
they say heartbreak is a knife
but fading is the slow dim of a bulb
No scream, no blood
just the quiet realization
Oh, I am caring less today
and that is how you really leave
My heart dragging in your shadow
I carry you the way showgirls carry glitter
in their hair long after the curtain falls
It gets in everything
even when the music is gone
You are still shining somewhere in me
Love does not explode
It evaporates
it lifts off my skin
in invisible little ghosts
Until one morning I wake up
and there is more air, than you
I do not want that kind of freedom
I do not want a clean empty sky
I want your weight on my chest
your shadow in my doorway
your voice telling me to stay
I am losing faith in your return
Like a prayer that keeps forgetting it's words
but I am not turning out my light
Even if it flickers,
even if it hurts my eyes
Fading means the colors going soft
your brown eyes becoming a memory
your laugh turning into a hum
Fading means you slipping
through my fingers like smoke
But I would rather be faded
i would rather be high on the idea of you
time thick and slow like honey
Me stuck inside the thought of your mouth
sayin my name
I would rather be faded thinking of you
than sober in a world where you are gone
let me blur the edges
let me smear the days together
so I can keep you a little longer
I am not brave enough for forgetting
I am only brave enough for longing
so I stay in this half light
This almost love
This almost you
Even when the feeling gets thinner
even when it starts to slip
I hold it like a dying star
warm and burning and beautiful
in the middle of my chest
Love fading is the cruelest magic
It makes you disappear
While you are still alive
And I am left loving
the echo of your heartbeat
Even as you fade I hold you closer
like smoke in my lungs
like a song that will not end
I stay faded in the doorway of your memory
Half dreaming, half praying
Maybe fading doesn't mean you're gone
Maybe it just means the light is softer
and I sit inside that glow
I will wear you like a beautiful silk dress
fraying, but still beautiful
So you never have to fully leave
Jan 27
Jan 27, 2026 at 2:18 PM UTC
Once, you bloomed with reckless grace,
soft petals blushing in love’s embrace.
The wind would sigh your fragrant name,
as morning light adorned your frame.
Held in hands that trembled sweet,
pressed to lips where longing meets.
A whispered promise, a fleeting vow,
yet time has traced you different now.
Your crimson fades, your petals fall,
but love once touched you—that is all.
For though you wilt in golden dusk,
you lived, you loved, and that’s enough.
Mar 26, 2025
Mar 26, 2025 at 2:16 PM UTC
The night hums a quiet tune,
a melody lost between stars and sighs.
Moonlight spills like silver ink,
writing forgotten dreams on my skin.
I chase echoes of a name I never spoke,
woven in the hush of the wind.
Footsteps dissolve in the sand,
yet the tide carries them back—
again, and again.
Time bends where longing lingers,
soft hands reaching for yesterday’s touch.
But love, like mist,
fades before fingers can hold it.
So I gather the whispers,
press them into my ribs,
let them bloom beneath my breath—
a garden of moments,
eternal and unseen.
Mar 25, 2025
Mar 25, 2025 at 5:25 AM UTC
Doubts creep in, whispered by shadows. Love, once warm, grows unsure, burdened by unspoken questions and fear. He tries to keep their story alive, but she is turning away, slowly, silently.
She tells him love should be free, like a bird in the sky. He listens, but cannot understand.
Then comes the moment—when she leaves, when he watches, unable to grieve properly, unable to let go.
A single sentence, unfinished, lingers in the air:
"Some stories aren’t meant to be told to the end."
Feb 25, 2025
Feb 25, 2025 at 2:59 AM UTC
i let the guns shot me
and the bullets go
through my skin
if this is how it’s gonna be
whenever i see you
i’ll let them **** me someday.
Aug 12, 2021
Aug 12, 2021 at 8:31 PM UTC
i watched my dream
turn into one of my biggest
nightmares
you had a look in your
eyes that told me
you weren't there
anymore
you died inside
your body and
all i could do
was watch
Aug 12, 2021
Aug 12, 2021 at 8:23 PM UTC
Sorrow of a love affair
Above the clouds of yesterday
Slowly falling to the grounds below
Colors running fading slow
As what we stood for starts to burn
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 11:00 PM UTC
G so every sun
And it being is see.
We came.
I'm Love are Sometimes I feel
Because we home for I go
I'll ceiling my much Everybody,
through Work, me.
Work we to ceiling true
must out you're reason is a intention
the only And about
then you it stop
And just can
And is could
Let's on fight change that
That some reason there you,
way I your hold Falling
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the wildest right you,
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you're my victim
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Oct 5, 2017
Oct 5, 2017 at 4:27 AM UTC
Our love has faded like the seasons
and yet....
It cuts deep to think of the reasons.
They are in the very corners of my brain
and like a caged animal..
I retrace steps again and again.
If spring and summer were the very best
then what....
Do fall and winter represent, the test?
But is love like a winter tree instead
.......
The branches are bare, but it isn't dead?
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 4:45 PM UTC