#f4f
I wake up to blue light
I see it when I close my eyes
frustrated, weighted by comparison
I filter my intensity
condense my personality
I show tongue and teeth but no failures or flaws
I see you in your squares, in all your glow
I want to see the dirt under your fingernails
want you to see me cry, my pores up close, counting eyelashes
Our moments
cascading down a feed that never fulfills
shades changed and tweaked at exposure
I am exposed every day
am I known
I want to see the world by your side
not through your phone
hear the sunsets reflect in your tone
I don't want to lose a bet with myself that I don't stare I don't scroll
lose my evening to a screen
my life to anxiety of how people see me
but I want to be seen
I want to know you beyond your squares
and validation screams content for moments till I review my content
view myself in the eyes of another
a narcissistic shudder
I doubt and judge myself
wishing not to compare not to care
yet impulse is too lovable
addiction and algorithmic luring
habits savaged a daily instinct
to share
to show my life through squares
Jan 10, 2023
Jan 10, 2023 at 3:06 PM UTC
A questionable cause,
conformed in my mind
Poisoned solutions
And pollution behind my eyes
Behind those eyes
I used to know
What I was like
A scratch to see what's underneath
A familiar smell
Of bleak recollections
Wish life repeated level headed
The devil's armada
Subliminal poison
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 10:03 AM UTC
Who you used to be
Is between the cracks
In the cushions of your mind,
And at night when you need it
Reach down underneath it
Grab her hand and dig her out
She asking you how things turned out.
Who we used to be,
What we used to know
And see
Is a lesson for who you need to be.
Don't be afraid to ask,
Who you thought you lost.
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 10:43 PM UTC
-Kaitlyn A. Warnken
'I try hard to block myself from sadness but it breaks free and gets to me.
The Bad things are shot at me like bullets and
With Me being the target, the hits make me sink so deep.
Sometimes as to were i don't think i could live to see another day.
While the world keeps revolving, i wish to keep myself from evolving this way.
So No matter what or how hard you say it, we both know things are never going to be okay.'
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 10:01 AM UTC