#extroversion
Over the past year or so I've become a little bit more extroverted
as I'm not meditating as much these days like I used to be
and this may not be such a bad thing if my mind isn't perverted
or led astray on the wrong path most of the world is we see.
But here again this could be just an admission of weakness
trying to justify the position that I now find myself to be in
along with the rest of the world experiencing a global sickness
in the form of the Covid-19 pandemic the result of man's sin.
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The madness of this world has brought on this pandemic
and the underlying cause of it is systemic.
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May 24, 2021
May 24, 2021 at 9:23 AM UTC
every night you've
been stopping by my
room and asking if i want
to walk the dog with you.
and i
say no
because i know
what you want
and i am not
giving it to you.
the truth is not
pulled out of me
and lies are just
another thing to try.
the sun hasn't
even gone down yet
and i'm already
just a failure
*(i should say
still)*
THIS IS NOT
UP FOR
DISCUSSION
I HAVE BURNED
OUR BRIDGES AND
NOW IT'S YOUR
JOB TO SILENTLY
WATCH THEM SMOKE
you're not helping
my mental disarray
because you are
unaware of its existence.
she's out
in the living room
again
ranting and raving
at him about
all her problems
*(they say men
marry girls just
like their mothers and
i'm beginning to see it
something about that
obnoxious extroversion)*
**yes
i just called
extroverts
obnoxious
or maybe i just
called you obnoxious
because you are
a textbook extrovert**
*(they say girls
grow up to
be just like
their mothers
so i'm sure that
i'm obnoxious too)*
now you're back
i can see you and
the dog walking up
the driveway
and now it's time
to trim my thoughts
at the seams and the
corners where they start
unraveling and you start
tugging at the threads
snip snip
stop it.
Aug 21, 2016
Aug 21, 2016 at 6:11 PM UTC
outgoing?
I'd say outspoken
never been arbitrary
or overbearing-
just vocal
my passion runs deep
and pours out
excited
overflowing
when it finds
another soul to share it with
the energy
others direct towards me
I absorb
and like a mirror
reflect it back towards them
the energy
that rests inside me
is like water
waiting
for an outside force
to heat me up
excite
my molecules
or
to cool me down
mellow
the chaos inside me
making me stable
making me solid
if being an extrovert
makes me
popular and
domineering,
a fun-loving,
party animal
who lacks introspection,
tell me why
I always choose
to isolate myself
why
my few friends I do have
I keep at a distance
except when I force myself
to enjoy their company
once or twice
in a year
why
I am easily talked over
my words drowned out
ignored
like background noise
my input
apbrubtly halted
as others drive over it
making it no more
than the dust
their tires kick up
why I let them
talk over me
rather than raise my voice
why I would rather
read in solitude
than go to a party
or play a video game
rather than socialize
why
would I choose
to ponder existence
over
existing with others
extroverted
means I get my energy
from external events
rather than the internal
I am not a synonym
for gregariousness
Jun 4, 2016
Jun 4, 2016 at 1:20 AM UTC
they teach us that extroversion
is the key to success
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 10:18 PM UTC