#explain
How do I explain?
It's not trauma or the people,
it's my broken shattered dopamine receptors.
How do I say
that I am the horrifying backstory of my family linage,
that I only look better from far
that I am tolerable as long as I stay as a concept.
How do I explain me?
Jan 14
Jan 14, 2026 at 9:43 AM UTC
I don't know how to explain it,
But somehow, it seems like the world
Has gotten louder AND quieter
At the same time
Feb 23, 2025
Feb 23, 2025 at 6:08 PM UTC
I swear my parents arent divorced
my dad just lives in a different state
we see him on the weekends
we're going to live with him perminatly after the school year ends
yes my mom is coming too
Feb 1, 2025
Feb 1, 2025 at 10:00 PM UTC
you laughed at my anger
I took it as a sign
a sign you didn't care
didn't understand me
but I was the one who didn't understand
I was the one who took your laughter as disrespect
it was just you trying
trying to calm down my flames
you were only trying to fix me
fix what's going to happen next
change it so it doesn't get bad
you were the one understanding me
I just took it as
as...
as something I can't explain
but you can clearly explain it
break it down and explain it to me
that's what I admire but I also misunderstand you so much
I don't deserve you
I really don't...
Sep 18, 2024
Sep 18, 2024 at 6:52 PM UTC
If there is no one to blame,
To frame,
To claim
Did this to me
Then the arcane,
Link chain,
Rusty from the rain
But still holding me
Should be easy to explain
But it can't be
©2024
Jun 27, 2024
Jun 27, 2024 at 11:28 AM UTC
Oh me, oh my, even when I try I lose it all, I've never understood why
Mind and heart ravaged but can't reciprocate, what happened to an eye for an eye?
You plead for a win, I beg for a tomorrow, abused by karma without ever meeting the guy
Every day I pray for one more opportunity to watch the sun traverse the sky
If this is not allowed then please, before any enforcement, explain to me why...
©2023
Dec 20, 2023
Dec 20, 2023 at 6:05 PM UTC
Why do I feel the need to explain myself to myself
Using preloaded excuses from myself for myself then toward myself
Feels impossible to keep myself safe from myself
In the attempts to escape myself I've lost myself
What's it going to take to save myself from myself?
The endless battle with my mental health, fighting myself despite myself
Do I even know myself well enough to know if I should save myself?
Why, at times, do I want to be someone else?
These are the things I ask myself...
...I tell myself to keep it too yourself
©2023
Dec 16, 2023
Dec 16, 2023 at 3:46 PM UTC
There are certain feelings in my heart that I won’t try to explain
which if I were to tell you about them you’d probably complain.
The well-springs of our heart run deep and determine how we live
meaning: if we don’t allow them to flow naturally hold us captive.
_________________________
Sep 30, 2023
Sep 30, 2023 at 10:41 PM UTC
Explaining the feeling
Of feeling frozen
Is like explaining to a child
Why people hurt
There is no delicate way
To describe the intensity
The entrapment
Words trapped in my throat
My body wrapped in invisible rope
As though a man at each side
Pulls the rope tighter
And tighter
You want me to explain?
Honey, I can’t explain
Something I also don’t know
Sep 3, 2021
Sep 3, 2021 at 6:45 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, explaining is hard:--''
search the olds
never the least
clung onto hopes I hope to cheer
drag the stick and flick them bright in chains
get the ignite and force a light for to be fight in epic
------ravenfeels
Apr 7, 2021
Apr 7, 2021 at 6:15 PM UTC
Anger. Anxiety. Depression. Fear.
Imagine these feelings
Are a natural disaster.
What would they be?
Would they be an earthquake?
Making it feel hard to stay upright?
Do they create rifts
that drive you apart from loved ones?
Are they a tsunami?
Building up until one day, they burst, drowning you?
Or are they a tornado?
Just destroying everything in its path?
If you can find a way to explain what it feels like
When you're angry, anxious, depressed, or afraid,
it can be a good start to managing it.
Nov 15, 2020
Nov 15, 2020 at 8:12 PM UTC
I give you the freedom
to interpret “We” in general
or as just Us
two
may your Intimacies show you
what will guide my pendants
of thought kindlings.
I leave it undisclosed too.
We are evanescent, Juliet.
Yet complete in how shattered we are.
A fractal.
We can’t trace our fingers over tangible frames of the ways of Connections,
clogs of the paths
Love cracks
from what we believe we have already surpassed.
We know we have no capacity of learning with clear logic
how We work,
what Philia makes of Us
and what we make of it,
how the seeds of uncertain Passions
find their way through
and out of Us.
It is indeed a huge insecurity of ours:
trying to find, trace
(on a lone garden wall
made of bricks and creepers),
and keep in our fragile handling
what these feverishness coming
out of hand do with us.
But then we
stand behind the other
(optionally or not: of our self still),
in the same way
uncovered,
insecure
and trembling
if I make it right, or rather we make it right.
The hands of both parties come
in one click and then
though we accost errors
we make our perfectly imperfect
clingings with some glass in that wall
as we again and again come
and will come into
lessons,
which seem new
but stay one and the same
or saddened by the world ideas that will keep on putting us through questioning “Who am I?”
with our silences filled with answers
that we will keep on becoming
and accomplishing without ever taking sentient notice.
I take you as we are.
You take me as we are.
We stay strong in that pair
of trembling hands that
though they do not know
what is ahead of them
or already as Them
when it comes to Love
or any pure emotional arousal
we make of ideas, we accept it.
We won’t ever encompass it
but it encompasses us.
We welcome how much we don’t understand
our bodies or how all of that
and even more flows
and will flow,
we are it,
teary from resilience.
Errors - not
Broken - not
Nought these names made up for perceiving *** and bodies,
these measly words as enough as one isolation to a whole abandoned waiting room at now
I stay in full apprehension and readiness
of what I come to exist
as and what feeling becomes me,
I won’t chain myself to
the scheme we might draw
with chalk on that garden wall.
And be that too alongside please,
simply of.
I am, will be there,
standing,
unpassing,
going through all the same strangenesses
alike,
yet kissing each
and every one
on their ivory breathing ribs,
because they only seem
to be deformed
and at unease.
I will stay in Love.
I will stay outside of it.
Without naming it or putting it
to any formality
let all these questions be a waterfall on you and welcome each and every one of them.
We don’t have to understand them.
We just will be.
We will stay as questions and just let it be. We don’t have to be apart.
We don’t have to be bound for eternity
with pacts or our bodies entangled.
I simplistically. approach.
these hurt questions with a stupefying tenderness of giving
each and every one of them
a chance to.
A thin line of peach freeze.
Sentinels of senses themselves, my arousals of then.
Phronemophilia stays unswayed. I am still in the same bliss.
Let see where we as consciences will grow and shape to.
In the end
it is seen
that loving anyone or anything
was only the pathway to solely harbouring ourselves and Love itself.
It is unchanginly It.
Same verily sacrum in choice of
then
now
lest ever.
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 10:51 AM UTC
I can’t explain the feeling
I can’t pen what I am thinking
It’s to hard to explain
It’s not a pain
But I have this aching
Happiness is what I’m faking
I was told this is called loneliness
And others describe it as an emptiness
But in truth it cannot be told
It is only a feeling one must hold
For how long is unknown
And it will last for as long as I am alone
It’s sparked by thoughts
When reading Shakespeare plots
For it makes me wish I had a companion
Who I would never abandon
But I will never know
For on it’s own love doesn’t grow
And it also can only be experienced
Which I will only ever see, for I am distanced
Sorry to bring down those who have love
But this is to relate to those who have none to speak of
And with that I am back to the beginning
There is no real way expressing this feeling
May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 7:57 PM UTC
Politics - what is this?
Everybody wants to convince us that their opinion is the right one.
There is nothing like one right way.
Many ways lead to the goal.
People try to explain the world to us.
But what if we want to experience all of that by ourselves.
All ways may be right for us and our future.
Our life - our future - it belongs to us and nobody else.
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 10:57 AM UTC
you‘re still on my mind
and maybe this idea of love makes me blind
I guess, for you, I really fell
your name is the only one I can spell
still remember your smell
hoping you’re doing well
so if you’re reading this,
can’t you get me a kiss?
wait, what do you mean
“you’re not the girl I miss“?
you’re still on my mind
should I really leave it behind?
you could at least come back
and explain what made us crack
or we could start over,
maybe get a lil’ closer
because hope is the last to die
and I don’t want to say goodbye
- gio, 22.03.2020
Mar 31, 2020
Mar 31, 2020 at 2:01 PM UTC
One of the hardest things to say to someone is goodbye
especially if you can’t give a reason or explain why.
_______________________
Mar 6, 2020
Mar 6, 2020 at 2:37 AM UTC
It is relatively simple to say "I love you"
Much harder to explain
Like the sun's held hostage in my soul
Even when in unbearable pain
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 8:37 AM UTC
All I feel is sadness, anger and pain.
It's really beginning to drive me insane.
Sometimes I start to cry,
and no, I don't know why.
People want to understand
and take me by their hand.
They say it's going to be okay.
Turns out that's all they can say.
Aug 6, 2019
Aug 6, 2019 at 3:18 PM UTC
my mind is trying to find a reason
why this may be happening
but it keeps searching
and it keeps coming up empty
there is no explanation
or logical reason
there is no solution
to this problem
you said so many beautiful words
and they’re saying
none of them meant anything to you
but how could i believe them
when i know your eternal soul?
why would you say those things
and not mean them?
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 1:33 PM UTC
How do I explain to you the feeling of
inadequacy when someone loves or compliments?
How do I explain to you the fear of being a disappointment
or not having climbed up to someone's level of expectation?
How do I explain when without warning I am plagued
with self doubt, layered with chaotic-heavy-blues
and harboring insecurities?
How do I explain when I don't want
these thoughts to matter?
when I just want them to be deprived
of care that they die within,
and never surface to my skin.
But somehow like the crashing waves
they envelope me in the depths and like
the black hole **** me from within.
Jul 25, 2019
Jul 25, 2019 at 2:57 AM UTC
How do you explain
Is there an explanation
Explain it to me...
Brian Hill - 2019 # 166
Jul 6, 2019
Jul 6, 2019 at 10:56 AM UTC
~am I just a dumb make-out girl?~
Am I the one who hears about your feelings or am I the one who you pull against the closet to kiss?
Am I the one who knows when somethings wrong and gets a explanation or am I the one who is dancing with you on romantic music and gives you hugs?
Can I be both?
Will you let me both
Jun 17, 2019
Jun 17, 2019 at 11:47 AM UTC
i think about if he thinks about us
May 20, 2019
May 20, 2019 at 12:00 AM UTC