#exlovers
I want to take a moment to apologize
For trying to make you bear the weight of my personal trauma.
At the time,
It seemed easier to blame you than to admit the cold hard truth of the situation.
This was something that would forever change me,
Yet I tried to change you as well
And that was not fair to you.
The weight was mine to bear alone.
I forgive you for not knowing how to deal with the situation or how to comfort me.
Only time could do that.
I apologize for demonizing you for not being able to handle it,
The trauma was too great for anyone to ever comprehend.
I apologize for saying awful, demeaning words because I was hurting emotionally,
What I said I can never take back.
But most of all,
I forgive you for leaving
I wish you nothing but the best this world has to offer.
~sdr
Apr 12, 2022
Apr 12, 2022 at 12:50 PM UTC
If I die it was always -----. I'd chose her til the day I die. I wish she were a boy. So we could do it right.
Feb 9, 2022
Feb 9, 2022 at 3:22 AM UTC
When I love, I love big
You ask for pebbles and I give you mountains
Ask for a match and I will give you a wildfire
When you saw me you asked for my company
I gave you my heart
You A
Asked for a night and I offered you a lifetime
I gave you an ocean when you asked for a puddle and that big problem in that
Is I never asked if you could swim
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 1:51 PM UTC
you appeared like the wind passing by,
and stayed for a little while,
but will probably never return.
just like that
my smile fell like the waves,
except it never rose again
f.t
Sep 19, 2020
Sep 19, 2020 at 6:16 AM UTC
I remember the rain
the feels
how I love it.
I remember that many rainy
afternoons with you
how I love it.
I remember you
how I’ve loved you.
Jun 29, 2020
Jun 29, 2020 at 7:16 AM UTC
I remember naps with you
God, your arm
my arm
your leg
my leg.
Can we go back there?
Even if just for one day?
You see
my heart was bursting then
and I can still feel it now,
in the same way that I can still smell the salt
on your skin.
Apr 26, 2020
Apr 26, 2020 at 10:27 PM UTC
If I have ever held your hand, know that I still hold it in my heart
If I have ever dried a tear from your cheek, I still feel it on my skin.
If you’ve ever burned me- I still remember the warmth before the pain.
Change the locks, I still hold the old keys to every place I once called home.
I can never bring myself to understand why we make strangers from ex-lovers
We mourn for the death of who we wanted those people to be,
And lie to ourselves when asked if we broke our own hearts.
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 5:27 PM UTC
A month from now i will barely remember his name. i won't think about how he tastes or how his body moves above mine. A month from now i would have replaced him with a man whose face rivals his and whose tongue knows how I like my **** teased. A month from now his existence will mean nothing but a month before that his existence means something.
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 4:40 AM UTC
He is the sun if it ever took human form.
Radiant and warm
You treated his love as if it were a heat storm.
As if his love were burning you from the inside.
You mistook his intensity, and you let it suffocate you.
You tried to put out the fire.
As smoke seeped from your painted smile, you subdued him.
You tried to put out the sun.
But I...
I found him
His flame dimmed.
Under the artificial assumption, his light was too much.
He came to me trying to cover that intensity.
But I thought...
Why fit the sun in a lantern?
When it could light the world.
My love like fertile earth.
Smothered with rich soil.
Saplings reached for that warmth of him.
I wanted all of him.
A lantern wouldn't do.
We planted our seeds in moments.
And well nourished they grew.
Many moons came to pass, but now I have before me a garden of overgrowth.
Watered by our tears. Nourished by passion. Warmed by our love, and given life through our memories.
He is larger than life.
He is bold and bright and the light in my sky.
& I will tend to this garden and bathe in his sun.
He is my home, my light, and my reason.
You tried to put out the fire,
but now he is the sun.
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 9:05 PM UTC
The stars are where I renew my faith, when the clouds let me see them.
Love in the stars, the constellations connecting in eerie ways, telling stories that I've long since forgotten I've heard.
Love in the way you once kissed me, but we were clouded over; our story one that people will forget was ever spoken.
But the stars stay, even under the clouds, and my love will stay, but someday my story will be spun with someone else's name.
And we will become a forgotten constellation, a once was, never to be again.
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 2:49 AM UTC
*it is bitterly wonderful
subliminally divine
how you now spend so little time
in my thoughts confined*
Mar 12, 2015
Mar 12, 2015 at 2:55 AM UTC