#excruciation
i let myself to trust you
i even hand you a gun
that once you pull the trigger
you know
it will never get back
to you
you aimed it
to the one who gave you
you pulled it
without any guilt
you let the bullet
hit my heart
it is now stop beating
for you
it was taken away
by you
now you got no place
in my heart
no more
no more
not anymore
i lie in tears
on my excruciation
bemoan
alone
without you
by my side
Oct 8, 2016
Oct 8, 2016 at 12:39 AM UTC
a wild child full of grace
stuck in this dream of a haze
that we all agreed to call life
though most times i'd rather die
regret hatred and deception
all in the pain of excruciation
maybe someday i'll be great
despite great being the only thing
i've chosen to hate
it isn't self pity nor is it envy
it's just the thought of maybe
what i'm supposed to be is right in front of me
that i can't seem to see
for i am scared that i will love you more than i can bear
Jul 9, 2015
Jul 9, 2015 at 5:40 AM UTC