#everythingsweet
I used to know the details of your smile,
much more than your frown
I used to know when you'd be in town
I used to know your laugh that lit up my day
I used to know your first, middle, and last name
You ran from my heart while there was still an ember
Now you **** like a cyanide slumber.
You act so sweet, but you’re so distant
Why can’t you just be consistent?
Your words are Halloween candy
sweet at first,
but bite too deep and you’ll see
the razor hidden inside,
a trap like the trust I placed in you
I miss your irritating smile that always makes me mimic you.
I miss the way I used to feel when I looked in your eyes.
I miss the way you'd hold me
though I was too scared to let you
The way you'd make me light up
like a child with a candy in hand.
We are different, yet the same
so why aren’t you to blame?
To blame for the nights your name was spoken with disdain
To blame for the actions we cannot undo,
To blame for the reality I cannot exchange
And I’ve missed you so badly
More than silly Christmas carols
More than late night car rides
More than a love that feels like landslides
We still have awkward chats.
In some days, I won’t be a liar when I respond with a smile
In some months, I won’t be scared you’ll vanish from my life
In some years, I won’t dread conversations about our kids
But I miss you now,
and I’ll miss you after all those years
I’ll miss the easy, honeysweet conversations from the start
Our borderline-romantic connection
The questions people asked,
wondering if you were mine
Now you’re too far from my reach,
so I search for you in every peach,
in every sweet smell.
I imagine us together
instead of saying farewell
Feb 8
Feb 8, 2026 at 10:58 PM UTC