#everafter
got married
at twenty-nine.
never planned it,
never wanted to —
until it felt right.
but if i could,
i’d rewind the tape,
strip it all back,
do it differently.
no family
because you’re supposed to,
no friends
because they had us at theirs.
no fortune spent
on a venue,
music and meals,
waiters and bouquet.
we got caught up
in the planning,
caught up in the daze —
the RSVPs,
the website,
the save-the-dates.
if i could do it again,
it would be just you and me,
paperwork signed
in a quiet room,
me wearing my raccoon tee.
don’t get me wrong —
i love the photos.
i loved the dress.
i loved the faces
of everyone there.
but the ceremony,
the nerves,
the performance —
that’s not us.
if i could do it again,
it would be bare,
honest,
without disguise —
just ourselves
when no one’s around.
Aug 15, 2025
Aug 15, 2025 at 2:02 PM UTC
“Limits, like fears, are often just an illusion"
- Mr. Michael Jeffrey Jordan
in His H O F Speech ender
And the icon Himself followed His own Quotes in saying
... Never Say Never !
And SO do i
- solEmn oaSis
© today 2025
my First Last day in here
facing the outgoing
February after Leap Year
Feb 27, 2025
Feb 27, 2025 at 11:04 PM UTC
But it is your story
It’ll be as you write
Love in itself is a fairytale
if you play your cards right.
Apr 18, 2024
Apr 18, 2024 at 1:51 PM UTC
I traveled through a littered sea
of fiery waves
and singed debris
of floating fish
and bloated whales
sinking ships
orange plastic pails
I washed upon a familiar beach
where many gasped but couldn't reach
I slept for hours and days it seems
my life went by in familiar dreams
at last I had awoken
and saw a man in ancient wear
he told me in a thought unspoken
'the day is new
I will see you there'
he vanished from my hazy sight
the shoreline now was clean
save for one unfortunate soul
who's clothes seemed oddly pristine
my thoughts were scattered
yet his voice was clear
'find this soul a resting place
and bury him with your fear'
who is this man I wondered
face down in sand and sea
I gently rolled him over
and discovered it was me
Feb 4, 2023
Feb 4, 2023 at 4:07 PM UTC
An after thought.
I know, I had another option. Though, you did not see her weep.
She was sad.
The mother of all living,
she was sad, and I, wounded in my side,
I lacked the knowing. So, I chose to know, so
I might comfort her, with a touch, ah, I know a place,
I can touch. Tweak, do you feel that? Do you know...
sniff. 's enough, words as nodes, knots, gnosticated subtility, be guiling,
I was be guiled, by golly, and I know you know exactly what I mean... from the fruit,
here, taste
the forbidden fruit, I tasted, chewed and swallowed and shared,
with you, because I love you...
I know, now, I was beguiled; but then beguilement, per se,
was as much a mystery as death. You knew. You tasted life in non-nascent state. You know,
some things stay mysterious.
Now, I know guile, for goodness sake, death remains a mystery.
But if you believe, I know a way, all your worries melt away. It takes a while.
Muse, amuse, mire, admire, go forth and conquer the unknown with knowns. Don't lie.
Gwa, go on.
Mean sedulously all you say you know.
Footnotes:
adventure (n.)
c. 1200, aventure, auenture "that which happens by chance, fortune, luck," from Old French aventure (11c.) "chance, accident, occurrence, event, happening," from Latin adventura (res) "(a thing) about to happen," from fem. of adventurus, future participle of advenire "to come to, reach, arrive at," from ad "to" (see ad-) + venire "to come," from a suffixed form of PIE root *gwa- "to go, come."
sedulous (adj.)1530s, from Latin sedulus "attentive, painstaking, diligent, busy, zealous," probably from sedulo (adv.) "sincerely, diligently," from sedolo "without deception or guile," from se- "without, apart" (see secret (n.)) + dolo, ablative of dolus "deception, guile," cognate with Greek dolos "ruse, snare." Related: Sedulously; sedulousness
secret (n.)
late 14c., from Latin secretus "set apart, withdrawn; hidden, concealed, private," past participle of secernere "to set apart, part, divide; exclude," from se- "without, apart," properly "on one's own" (see se-) + cernere "separate" (from PIE root *krei- "to sieve," thus "discriminate, distinguish").
As an adjective from late 14c., from French secret, adjective use of noun. Open secret is from 1828. Secret agent first recorded 1715; secret service is from 1737; secret weapon is from 1936.
hallow (v.)
Old English halgian "to make holy, sanctify; to honor as holy, consecrate, ordain," related to halig "holy," from Proto-Germanic *hailagon (source also of Old Saxon helagon, Middle Dutch heligen, Old Norse helga), from PIE root *kailo- "whole, uninjured, of good omen" (see health). Used in Christian translations to render Latin sanctificare. Related: Hallowed; hallowing.
health (n.)
Old English hælþ "wholeness, a being whole, sound or well," from Proto-Germanic *hailitho, from PIE *kailo- "whole, uninjured, of good omen" (source also of Old English hal "hale, whole;" Old Norse heill "healthy;" Old English halig, Old Norse helge "holy, sacred;" Old English hælan "to heal"). With Proto-Germanic abstract noun suffix *-itho (see -th (2)).
guile (n.)
mid-12c., from Old French guile "deceit, wile, fraud, ruse, trickery," probably from Frankish *wigila "trick, ruse" or a related Germanic source, from Proto-Germanic *wih-l- (source also of Old Frisian wigila "sorcery, witchcraft," Old English wig "idol," Gothic weihs "holy," German weihen "consecrate"), from PIE root *weik- (2) "consecrated, holy."
beguile (v.)"delude by artifice," early 13c., from be- + guile (v.). Meaning "entertain with passtimes" is by 1580s (compare the sense evolution of amuse). Related: Beguiled; beguiling.
amuse (v.)
late 15c., "to divert the attention, beguile, delude," from Old French amuser "fool, tease, hoax, entrap; make fun of," literally "cause to muse" (as a distraction), from a "at, to" (from Latin ad, but here probably a causal prefix) + muser "ponder, stare fixedly" (see muse (v.)).
Original English senses obsolete; meaning "divert from serious business, tickle the fancy of" is recorded from 1630s, but through 18c. the primary meaning was "deceive, cheat" by first occupying the attention. "The word was not in reg. use bef. 1600, and was not used by Shakespere" [OED]. Bemuse retains more of the original meaning. Greek amousos meant "without Muses," hence "uneducated."
Muse (n.)
late 14c., "one of the nine Muses of classical mythology," daughters of Zeus and Mnemosyne, protectors of the arts; from Old French Muse and directly from Latin Musa, from Greek Mousa, "the Muse," also "music, song," ultimately from PIE root *men- (1) "to think." Meaning "inspiring goddess of a particular poet" (with a lower-case m-) is from late 14c.
The traditional names and specialties of the nine Muses are: Calliope (epic poetry), Clio (history), Erato (love poetry, lyric art), Euterpe (music, especially flute), Melpomene (tragedy), Polymnia (hymns), Terpsichore (dance), Thalia (comedy), Urania (astronomy).
muse (v.)
"to reflect, ponder, meditate; to be absorbed in thought," mid-14c., from Old French muser (12c.) "to ponder, dream, wonder; loiter, waste time," which is of uncertain origin; the explanation in Diez and Skeat is literally "to stand with one's nose in the air" (or, possibly, "to sniff about" like a dog who has lost the scent), from muse "muzzle," from Gallo-Roman *musa "snout," itself a word of unknown origin. The modern word probably has been influenced in sense by muse (n.). Related: Mused; musing.
Mar 13, 2020
Mar 13, 2020 at 1:05 PM UTC
Why are you always on my mind?
It’s been years since that summer.
Why do I live life as though I’m blind,
And look for you, my wayward brother?
I look north, to where I know you are
And hold myself ‘cause you wouldn’t do it.
I turn away; this anguish is too hard,
And shed a tear, whis’pring “I’ll get through it”.
I take a walk in the garden of our youth
And curse the days I stumbled ‘pon it,
If “I love you” was the truth,
It wouldn’t have shattered my soul to want it.
In the lonely, dark and frigid nights
You haunt my dreams like a ghost of laughter.
I wake sobbing and flick on the lights
To look around at my Emptily Ever After.
Dec 9, 2019
Dec 9, 2019 at 4:57 PM UTC
Ragged breathing, tangled legs
Beating hearts, a crazy mess,
wrinkled sheets, so you'd know,
Two souls basking in the afterglow !!
Jul 15, 2019
Jul 15, 2019 at 12:32 AM UTC
i dont know how
i dont know why
there are these feelings
i cant deny
my day is made better
with just your hi;
as smile touch my lips
and shines in my eye
my heart skips a beat
and i feel shy
when you say my name
i feel i can fly ...
i love you so much
dont ask me why
cant live without you
so never say me goodbye !!
Nov 30, 2016
Nov 30, 2016 at 11:40 AM UTC
I never thought I'd believe in fate
until I met you
I never thought I'd believe in 'happily everafter'
until I held you
I never thought I'd believe in true love
until I kissed you
I never thought I'd believe in 'the one'
until the day you asked me to marry you
I never really thought I'd believe in anything
until you
Apr 1, 2016
Apr 1, 2016 at 9:06 PM UTC
Take my hand
And fade away with me
Into the realms of dreams
Where we will find life
And will learn how to live
Happily ever after
With no questions asked
But first
You have to answer one question
"Will you?"
Will you take my hand
And fade away with me ??
Feb 28, 2016
Feb 28, 2016 at 10:16 AM UTC
I hope that one day
fate will bring someone
in my life
with whom
i'll live my
"Happy Everafter"
Who will love me
when my face
will be wrinkled
and i'll be no longer
beautiful
who will have
to loudly ask
for his glasses
as i may not be
wearing my hearing aids
Who will just smile
and tell me
where my stick is
as i may suffer
from a slight dementia
and
who'll just hold
my hand and
reassure me
that it was just a cat
running on the roof
of OUR house
and there is
nothing to worry about !!
Dec 30, 2015
Dec 30, 2015 at 12:30 PM UTC
Love is a fickle thing,
It’s all around, in the small details
Sometimes it’s just a bit harder to find for some people
But it is there, hiding in the bushes or underneath your pride and fear
I found out, you got to let it find you,
You cannot go look for it; it doesn’t quite work that way
It finds you when you need it too
When you’re ready to be yourself and comfortable in your own skin
It will find you then
When you least expect it, it will creep up on you
And life as you know it will be over
Hopelessly romantically over
Love actually does exist
Oct 17, 2015
Oct 17, 2015 at 3:32 AM UTC
Do not look at me like that.
With those eyes that see only what is shone to you.
And you accept all of it.
No questions asked.
No logic, no reason to seek.
No.
I am not just an object you can look at.
Do not look at me like that.
With the judgment of their thoughts
That you so shamelessly replicate
in your feeble, feeble mind.
No originality.
You bore me in your dullness.
No.
I am not who you think I am.
Do not look at me like that.
With ears filled with their whispers.
I can hear them too, you know.
You're not very discreet.
No.
I am not defined by the stories they say.
I am not an open book,
Or a single shade,
Or a monotone.
I feel nothing for their interests.
I am not alive in their ballads of woe.
*I am alive in myself.
I am the abstract, I am the obtuse.*
My colors, range to infinity.
My stories have happy sad tormenting everafters.
I do not care for their hollow affection or their false ratification.
I am unattached and I breathe fire--
*in.
out.*
I'm ablaze in my little place of ease.
Even alone, I have found my love...
She was there along.
Residing in me,
It was always--
me.
I am myself. That is enough.
Jul 29, 2014
Jul 29, 2014 at 12:28 PM UTC