#engraved
When all is said, the site no longer matters; it makes little difference whether i'm burned in the heating sun, caught in a heavy rain, or sailed across a navy ocean. They are to weave in one crease somewhere inside me. Nevertheless, from another dimension, the site means something hard, engraved, irreplaceable. These days in home I found myself disheartened, nonplussed, and suffocated. Out in the city I navigated through the giddy horde, antisocial. There’s no subversive changes but nuance shifts that eventually leave the sentiments in deluge. I felt like a caged elf. I questioned my staunch nature.
“I miss the day when the glass is always half full”, when I was exuberant always, at least in front of you, my heaviest confidant. It’s feeling colder inside than outside; I know, relieved that I didn’t initially, all is irrevocable. Those detritus of enchantment repaints the vibe of mine. I owed it all, to the ones that imprinted me. What’s wrong with my mawkish side? Why is eccentricity to be censured? Who else sway one stronger than the self does? One can't ask the sea to never swell in rage. In that you've forsaken your role as my defender, i build my enclosure higher, thicker, colder than the backyard fence, so there's no errands, no means of lapse, of censure. You know everything yet about life——the one I devoted to live. Terrified to admit, I hesitated when asked whom I am referring to.
Half explicit thrill, half insidious vehement. Full fugitive conviction. My second journey towards America. What happened last summer in Texas flew by on some occasion. That’s the center of incidence, not mentioning millions clips of the periphery, the subjective. which stifled my intimidated solider in an unexpected battlefield. “Tell me where the time goes, it’s like I’ve had my eyes closed.” Some memories are encapsulated. The world seems to remember more I wish to.
As those ego pitfall, the outside order of time becomes my last propel. I never settle, sometimes tarry. I rearranged the handy necessities in the backpack, inspecting within, behind, beyond. The ruffles hinged imply a constant shuffle between packing and unpacking. “Beneath the flying cloud the home assumed forgotten.” Adrift, astray, bewildered, apathetic, unsettled. I'm related to these related words. The plane of the rite of passage takes off, me the only passenger.
Sep 28, 2025
Sep 28, 2025 at 2:14 PM UTC
I know your name
And you sure know mine--
Two hearts together
Forged by the pain of time.
I know many names
But yours is engraved
In my mind
Where all other faces
Fade and you are mine.
She stays the same
Like every morning.
Her name cannot
Change like every night.
And at the slightest
Change at our fingertips
We share the pain
And the loneliness lifts...
She knows my name.
I said, "I do" but you know
I had no heart of gold.
You said, "I do" and you did,
But I left you in the cold.
But now together you & me
And our three other hearts
Sail sweet pains ocean
But let us never drift apart.
Sometimes I don't know
Where I belong--
You know how lonely
I feel.
But life like the seas
Ebb & flow;
The answer's found
Where I kneel.
Where I kneel.
I know your name
And you sure know mine--
Two hearts together
Forged by the pain of time.
I know many names
But yours is engraved
In my mind
Where all other faces
Fade and you are mine.
Jul 30, 2025
Jul 30, 2025 at 10:01 AM UTC
Insanity engraved in
Exhibition is going on
Madness instill
Paradox of false learning continue!
Nature encores its own functions
So called exhibitionism never inspire
to learn, unlearn and relearn!
So, madness continue
to engraved its own coffer for exhibition!
Jun 24, 2020
Jun 24, 2020 at 10:34 AM UTC
No means no
It does not mean convince me
No
I do not want to get in the passenger seat
As a child
Throughout my teens
Harassment is engraved deep into my memories
Nap time
A touch over my jeans
The teacher did not mind
We were just kids, right?
No became a new word
with a new meaning
Flashbacks to heavy breathing
Your sweat dripping onto me
Singing my skin
At the age of six
When most kids are playing games and learning cool tricks
You harassed me with
Words i could not repeat
No means no!
Stupid boy get this through your head
Give it a rest
Silly girl, you're playing games
And this is chess
Make a move, what’s new
I’m always next
I think now, you must have been obsessed
No means no but
in your head it meant ***
No, please don’t leave us alone
I knew where this would go
Flashback to the sound of doors being locked
Give up
Your pants are already off
No does not mean convince me
But it didn’t prevent you from stealing my virginity
Engraved into my brain
A cookie wrapper
Just to be safe
I screamed no but
Silently
It was ****
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 7:37 PM UTC
How can I feel alone with you right by my side?
I am at war with these feelings I hide,
You try so hard, always lend a helping hand,
But when it comes to my soul I fear you don't understand,
I wish you had a mind that worked like mine,
Anxious and uncertain all of the time,
And emotions that constantly go up and down,
With ideas incessantly spinning like a merry-go-round,
Or maybe I just want you to get why
I am easily upset and often cry,
When you tell me I'm crazy that word cuts through my skin,
You of all people should be aware of the chaos within,
But instead I feel in my body there must be something wrong,
Around you I feel like my inner thoughts do not belong,
I know there is no reason for my steadily shifting mood,
But knowing that still does not better my attitude,
I can tell you love and care for me so very much,
But lately I wonder if that is enough,
I find myself trying to be someone different for you,
So we can be happy and not break in two,
But I'm starting to realize and accept
I'll always be like this; insecure, ******** a total wreck,
Its not fair to you when you give all you have,
To give up on evolving and only put in half,
You deserve more than what I can offer,
Someone who will aid you to thrive and prosper,
It's clear to see I am holding you back,
A distraction somehow guiding you off-track,
Taking up too much of your time and energy,
Yet when I tell you to go, you say you only want me,
Why is that when I am bitter and cold?
You could find a far warmer hand to hold,
I want you to love me for not despite
My endless flaws that cause us to fight,
I wish I loved you enough to let you go,
It would hurt me but it would be what's best I know,
I am too selfish to say goodbye and depart,
So I continue to break both our hearts,
In hope that your love will make me whole,
Fill up and repair this gaping hole,
I lie not only to you but to myself,
Inside I sense we are too damaged to be helped,
So we live every day with a smile on our faces,
We follow our routine, go the usual places,
But something is off, engraved in each bone,
You're right here so why do I still feel alone?
Sep 6, 2018
Sep 6, 2018 at 10:07 PM UTC
those necklaces with our names engraved
I would only look upon them in grief
because we got them when we were engaged
although the engagement was awfully brief
we both believed we were going to get married
we both new what we were going to do in our lives together
your suicidal feelings were buried
and they consumed you, your mind was lost forever
you say you still love me and that your mind is just lost in the void
I can't really understand why you didnt tell me sooner
losing everything made you paranoid
like everything we had dreamt of in the future
so inside your jacket I hid both the necklaces for you to find
what you pulled out made you cry, our silver necklaces remain on your mind
Jun 23, 2018
Jun 23, 2018 at 6:37 AM UTC
Although you threw me out of your life,
You discarded me from your thoughts,
You squeezed me out of your soul,
But I, still rule your heart,
I am engraved in it.
From all your beats of the heart,
One beat is mine,
From all your breaths one breath is mine,
If that one breath will stop death will be mine.
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 6:08 PM UTC
Sometimes words dont flow
They scratch your soul
With a blunt knife,
Splintering edges
And jagged rough cuts
Not elegant enough
To be called engraved.
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 9:08 PM UTC
I look down at the blade
And see the scars that I engraved
A mark that'll forever stay and
Torture me every day...
Nov 23, 2016
Nov 23, 2016 at 3:21 AM UTC
Self mutilation
Tattooed invitation
Thoughts confused
A razors used
Skin engraved
Scars won't fade
Mind unwind
Blood divine
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 2:48 AM UTC
*It's hard to say
when the dead despair,
But I feel it now
I feel it everywhere,
in my bones,
in my soul;
The bleakness
of being forgotten,
The sorrow
of being lived without.
But I'd engraved
the wish I share
with every ****** soul
into my stone;
To the lot
that continue to walk
the land of earth:*
Forget Me Not
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 12:26 AM UTC