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There is absolutely nothing about these words that will, or should, make me famous. They are just words – an outpouring that means everything to me, and not a thing to anyone else. You see, I’m not the only person that has felt as though their insides are barrelling down into a bottomless void. I’m not the only one that feels a tightness around their chest whilst they flail inwardly – cursing at their longing in the face of indifference. I’m not alone in staring beyond seeing at an inanimate object – echoes of significance attached that only make sense to two people, and one of them doesn’t care anymore. It’s easy to say that I opened my heart – the hard reality is that the invited slammed the door. It’s easy to say why me, what did I do, what didn’t I do, I did everything… but it’s not what I did. It’s not what I didn’t do. It’s not who I am. It’s who I never have been. I don’t fit. I don’t fill the mould. I never met the criteria, I invented my own. I was there at the right time – and I was still there, when it was the wrong time. Still waiting, still fighting, still working, still figuring it out. Apparently it gets easier. Apparently I will move on. Apparently there are fish, in a sea, and I hear that one of them will be right for me. I see the logic, I am lucid enough. But I also see him saying “no”, when I ask if it’s me that he loves.
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Jul 23, 2014
Jul 23, 2014 at 6:16 AM UTC
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Someday these words will make me famous
There is absolutely nothing about these words that will, or should, make me famous. They are just words – an outpouring that means everything to me, and not a thing to anyone else. You see, I’m not the only person that has felt as though their insides are barrelling down into a bottomless void. I’m not the only one that feels a tightness around their chest whilst they flail inwardly – cursing at their longing in the face of indifference. I’m not alone in staring beyond seeing at an inanimate object – echoes of significance attached that only make sense to two people, and one of them doesn’t care anymore. It’s easy to say that I opened my heart – the hard reality is that the invited slammed the door. It’s easy to say why me, what did I do, what didn’t I do, I did everything… but it’s not what I did. It’s not what I didn’t do. It’s not who I am. It’s who I never have been. I don’t fit. I don’t fill the mould. I never met the criteria, I invented my own. I was there at the right time – and I was still there, when it was the wrong time. Still waiting, still fighting, still working, still figuring it out. Apparently it gets easier. Apparently I will move on. Apparently there are fish, in a sea, and I hear that one of them will be right for me. I see the logic, I am lucid enough. But I also see him saying “no”, when I ask if it’s me that he loves.
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