#emptyinside
I feel like crap.
It isn't the coming and going kind.
It's the stick to you day and night
Occupy your dreams kind.
There's no escape.
I don't want to talk about.
I do but I don't.
It's the leave me alone kind.
It's the ask me what's wrong kind.
It's the care about but don't care about me kind.
It's the I just want to be normal kind.
I want to be good enough kind.
It's the nothingness.
It's the emptiness.
The I want to go home but I can't.
I've lost every part of me.
Give it away and get it back broken
Snapped in half, mutilated.
Now at that point where there is only a little left to give.
And I have decided not to give it away anymore.
I'm keeping it to myself.
Not my friends,
Not my family,
No one.
I can't give it away anymore.
I'm stuck.
I'm stuck.
I'm stuck.
Aug 20, 2014
Aug 20, 2014 at 11:13 PM UTC
A heart that is so scarred,
It no longer feels.
A mind that is so overwhelmed,
It no longer thinks.
Is this what I have become?
A mindless,
Expressionless,
Emotionless,
Girl?
Life feels dull
Not even black and white
just
mute.
No pain or hurt,
I have suppressed it so much
None of it exists to me
anymore.
I could careless
about anyone else
right now.
I would rather just float
through the scenes
of the rest of my life than
make an effort
to change what will
inevitably happen.
I want to throw a lot of it away.
Throw it into the wind
And not even watch
as the things i had once
worked hard for
disappear.
I don't give a ****
about anything
anymore.
Feb 19, 2013
Feb 19, 2013 at 6:49 PM UTC
A message popped up on her screen-
"Wanna start over..?" (but it was never real).
She's been having this dream for 3 months 21 days 3 hours and 17 minutes and every second since they parted ways and it never came ,
he said he'll move on ,probably moved on by now but she never will.
She'll wait until death do them apart as they owed to each other.
She now realizes that it's the phase where reality hits right across your face and your heart is too stubborn to accept what your mind already knows and the pain slowly eats away the hope that he'll comeback to her one day, but not completely.
There's always this part of her that'll never allow her to move on, always remembering the sweet guy she fell in love with, completely forgetting about how he left, choosing his family over her.
He'll never choose her and she'll never move on.
Some stories are meant to be incomplete yet eternal.
Apr 11, 2025
Apr 11, 2025 at 12:11 PM UTC
The rusted mailbox
creaks as it’s pried open,
dented door dislodging.
Two yellow balloons
tethered to its post
and bobbing in the wind,
stark color against a slate sky.
The bomp bomp of the balloons barely
heard over the wind’s whistles.
Empty inside.
It’s Sunday
after all. Too easy for you to forget
the day when days
amalgamate into one
long moment. Stuck in an
everlasting condition,
waiting for the day
when your mind
at last
is quiet.
A quiet
that comes when your hands
are busy. Too
distracted by tasks to
dwell on thoughts.
Sep 20, 2023
Sep 20, 2023 at 9:12 PM UTC
just another name
another faceless "crazy" behind a keyboard
one that isn't even crazy.
not like the others.
no.
she's just sad.
lazy.
incapable of living.
better off dead.
even the small cries for help get lost in the void.
with only echos of "just end it" coming back to her.
she cuts into her flesh
taking pieces of herself away
and the others don't even care.
they let her keep carving ridges into her arms
why?
because she's not really crazy.
not depressed.
not suicidal.
she won't **** herself.
she's not important enough to help.
she doesn't need help.
she's not crazy.
just empty inside.
using pain to push back the darkness inside of her.
push it down.
keep it away.
cut deeper,
and deeper,
and deeper,
she reaches out again.
maybe she is sick.
no.
she's alone again.
ignored again.
she cuts again.
and again.
again.
again.
again.
again.
keep going.
"just end it"
there's no point reaching out.
not when there's no one there.
Aug 14, 2016
Aug 14, 2016 at 4:18 AM UTC
I'm empty inside
No one can See
Through the flesh mask
They wan't me to be
Oct 13, 2015
Oct 13, 2015 at 11:41 AM UTC
I am just a useless body
With a useless mind
In a useless world
Offending it's kind
I'm a defect, used by this world
It's useless for me
I should be gone
So something better can be
Oct 13, 2015
Oct 13, 2015 at 11:40 AM UTC