#emotionaldetachment
A heart that is so scarred,
It no longer feels.
A mind that is so overwhelmed,
It no longer thinks.
Is this what I have become?
A mindless,
Expressionless,
Emotionless,
Girl?
Life feels dull
Not even black and white
just
mute.
No pain or hurt,
I have suppressed it so much
None of it exists to me
anymore.
I could careless
about anyone else
right now.
I would rather just float
through the scenes
of the rest of my life than
make an effort
to change what will
inevitably happen.
I want to throw a lot of it away.
Throw it into the wind
And not even watch
as the things i had once
worked hard for
disappear.
I don't give a ****
about anything
anymore.
Feb 19, 2013
Feb 19, 2013 at 6:49 PM UTC
I kissed two girls, but couldn’t tell their flavouring,
like mixing two liquors; burns the same…
but I still call it my favourite thing
Calling me passive— I’m a passive drinker;
I sip, don’t settle… yet let it settle in you.
A skin healer— with no need to touch, to touch
you; I let you listen, feel the moment crawl under
your skin— tongue tracing the tips of your ear,
spelling soft sins in syllables.
Light a flame beneath your breath— watch it arch
into fire; we trade spits of passion, water for thirst…
yet still leave each other parched.
You call me hardwood— I don’t rush to leave;
I just stand there… firm in silence, roots deep
in habits I won’t break.
So spread yourself— like leaves in their fall;
no resistance in the letting… just the sound of giving
it all. But if I don’t stay the extra hour—don’t mourn
the moment after I leave... I was never built for
permanence, just presence.
Still— won’t you spark something in my trunk?
pour a little more fuel in my tank… I run better
on desire than I ever did on love.
"Soulmates," we said it like scripture; but
cellmates sounds closer— locked in a cage
we called, "connection," serving a sentence
that felt like a just one.
I keep giving love commas— pauses, chances…
but it keeps handing me a full stop.
I chase it— they tell me, “fool, stop.”
Still… I park in your spaces when you ask for
space— stay just long enough to be remembered…
then I DELETE you before you can do the same
to me.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 2:22 PM UTC
I have returned all that I borrowed—
the dreams,the heat, the light.
I face a narrow,stark tomorrow,
and welcome the coming night.
I drew a line around my name,
a border with no gate.
Inside,the rules are not the same:
there is no love,no hate.
I wonder—
if you reached out your hand to me,
would it find anything?
Or pass through where I used to be,
a ghost on winter's wing?
Sep 19, 2025
Sep 19, 2025 at 11:07 AM UTC
Любовница или наёмница,
На подсосе — верная женщина.
Суровых будней сподвижница —
Она рядом, тихо играется.
В игрушки свои наивные,
Что Воин Света подкинул ей —
Конфета на палке, липкая...
Иди на хуй, милая девочка.
👉 Bloch-Bauer & Adele · 2020 · Signature Privée
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 7:32 PM UTC
there's hope in goodbyes
as they say, a chapter ends —
a new one begins.
but i've come today with a different tale —
take it as a story,
a broken poem,
or an unsent mail.
got a couple good phrases,
jumbled up —
only i know the feeling.
can't seem to sense entirely
their origin,
and so i'll try to pen them down,
hopefully bring them a meaning.
no, i ain't broken-hearted,
and no, i ain't going through the same period —
but this comes from the perspective of all those.
let me specify —
a character from the movie i recently watched,
a person on the roadside i walked upon,
a stray cat who waited —
since forever, it seemed —
for her babies to talk,
and millions of those
who waited for something
that wasn't there at all.
a closure.
an answer.
a little bit of understanding.
but here i am,
left to question it all —
especially your disappearance.
those unanswered texts,
the quiet ache,
the agony of play pretend.
ghosting, the new age calls it —
was that even an ending?
there's a bittersweet melancholy,
hoping for something that's barely there,
yearning with the i'm doomed realizations,
and the gentleness with which grief
seems to give me a hug —
it is rare.
i'd wished it could be like
waiting for letters in a war —
knowing they would meet the soldiers
even in their fall,
knowing there was someone writing,
waiting upon them.
i've never been waited for,
held,
promised —
been just a lost cause.
the world resonates with such:
echoes of conversations,
words left unspoken,
unseen messages
pretending to be left unread.
people fading from each other's lives
like mist in the mornings,
fungi growing on breads.
i've talked to silence,
left by my own.
quite a few said goodbye,
most left me forlorn.
i stayed —
same places,
old memories,
holding onto things
that didn't plan on returning.
the destinations became ghosts of the past —
yet i kept writing to the same addresses.
a few didn't even leave —
just faded
into sweet little nothings.
hope, hope,
oh this dear solitude —
hope remained despite the static.
i'm stitching this up
with the remnants of what i once was.
this ain't no monologue,
written in the melancholy of not chosen —
left for yet another job.
an irony,
a metaphor,
no reasons — just because.
i intended to keep it
as a piece
that reminded me of being haunted —
with the memories,
and the facts,
and the presence of a human
that held me to the edge.
and yet,
i find no anger,
no resentment,
no ill will —
no praying of curses to befall and end them.
there's only love,
perhaps longing —
belief that if it existed,
it had the right to be termed
as ended.
only if there was a full stop —
just like at the end of phrases,
sentences,
and even chapters —
a single dot.
it could have helped me move on.
but no —
i'm left,
standing in the middle
after being promised to be met halfway.
never intended to be here —
i'd said so in the first place.
one-sided letter,
bonding,
or heartache.
there's acceptance in solitude.
i'll wear the letters of goodbye,
despite knowing
you never said it.
please don't return
only to tell me —
despite no closure —
it was the silence
that aged.
May 24, 2025
May 24, 2025 at 4:43 PM UTC
I thought we were so similar but now I see the difference
You want peace and friendship
While I want nothing
You constantly make attempts
To rebuild a scrap of friendship from the fragile bond I set a flame
To re kindle a candle but hide it from inferno
To delete the awkwardness and hit undo to before
But I don't care
And that's what scares me
I thought I almost loved you
But like that I'm ready to go
I want to move on
To hop in a car and drive away from the dust that's choking me
Despite our bond the fire is done and I don't need to clean the ashes because the bond was severed and the scraps of love burned too.
I thought we could be sisters
The others called you that
To me you were still a friend
But perhaps you were more than that
But with your double edged sword you stabbed our strings
And cut out our hearts
The others will still talk to you
Worry and cry
Still save you from danger
Because you are thise sister
But to me you are gone
An empty shell
And any love I felt dissipated into the air
To see you killed and walk away
Would no longer phase me
All I think of you is hate
No r eminence of emotion
I thought you were a friend
We were never sisters
But you were always there for me
Someone to talk to about the light things
I couldnt discuss the pain but at least your voice could lift my hidden sorrow
But then I was ripped away
Pulled from you and my sisters
But somehow I forgot
To miss you too much
I lived my life
Forgot to call
Simply acted as though
You didn't exist at all
What ever love I felt for you
I learned to live without
And simply forgot
About the emotion I used to feel
When our times were more real.
Feb 28, 2015
Feb 28, 2015 at 1:49 AM UTC