#dwelling
1. TRANSIENCE
I,
sentinelled
In the drizzle
Of a time
Wet----------
Like a drake
Without a nest
Trembling ----------------
Like a lily
At streamside you beckoned
And gave me shelter
In your dome
But
When a deluge
Chased the drizzle
And the sky hounds
Sanctioned the chase
You chased me out
Into the cold.
2. DWELLING
I, too,
have known
the rustle of cold on skin
and the silence
that drips
from doors unopened.
But once,
a roof leaned low
not to send me off—
but to listen.
It did not promise
forever,
only the now:
a mat,
a bowl of warmth,
a gaze that did not flinch.
And so I stayed.
Storms grumbled.
Tiles cracked.
The walls sometimes wept.
Still—
I swept the hearth.
I planted figs.
I became
dweller,
not guest.
3. THRESHOLD
I stand
between door and dusk,
with a heart still dripping
from old rains.
Your mat is clean.
Your fire glows.
But I smell
the memory of smoke
from houses I once called home.
I do not ask
to be a god
or guest—
only to bring
my whole weight in,
shadow and all.
If I step in,
will you flinch
when thunder speaks my name?
If you step back,
know this:
I have learned
to build fire
from splinters.
And I will not
knock twice.
© Lanre Adebayo
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 3:52 PM UTC
Inchoate feelings, what are they?
It could be greed, it could be hate
It grows so slowly, protected,
Like a dragon protecting it’s hoard
All things have a root, a home,
They all begin somewhere,
Where they all thrive and expand
What are these emotions?
What are these feelings nurtured with?
Is it dwelling? Stubborn clingingness?
Does the dragon grow that way?
These inchoate feelings, emotions alike,
How do they heal? Do you let go?
Let the balloon pop, drain the pool,
Tell me, how do you cope?
Do you hold it in? Let it out?
The inchoate emotions aren’t something that should grow.
Nov 6, 2025
Nov 6, 2025 at 3:43 PM UTC
People claim to be,
Something of dreams.
They fail to notice me,
Filling my memory's reams.
I was there, standing still,
Your presence remained, unaware;
Moving your lips, with no will,
Harsh words came out, didn't care.
You left the site,
Slamming the door.
In "café delight"
Ending our lore.
I stood there, across the door,
Watching you leave once more.
My flowers lay upon the ground,
Yet you left without a sound.
You claimed to be searching,
Seeking for a lovely shard
You failed to notice me, lurking,
With Lamprocapnos in my yard.
And I remained,
Standing like a stand,
When we no longer sustained
Also when started to expand.
Feb 22, 2025
Feb 22, 2025 at 12:30 AM UTC
Another smokes
Another one rolled
Another cries
Another one consoled
Another stands where
Another one was lain
Another’s bliss becomes
Another one’s pain
But if pain is just a part of it
Why is it all that remains?
Could it be Another
Is all it takes
To make One whole again?
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 6:11 AM UTC
Gordon maddens coils under the high ceilings
solitary in his three rooms
with his cello and window sill herb box
with his art ideas employment as a film extra
and drink fought at bay daily
see also : battling off the ghoul of his perished father
his other and waging with his ****** bead
his aging kingdom sensitively approaching seventy
Sep 7, 2024
Sep 7, 2024 at 1:54 PM UTC
The old threshold is
not worn out, my visitors --
step right over it.
Feb 23, 2023
Feb 23, 2023 at 2:35 AM UTC
The wind lashes rain
on the windowpane, so nice --
that I am inside.
Jan 18, 2023
Jan 18, 2023 at 3:53 AM UTC
I keep my past close with old photos
And yawn at the present
Waking up to the time i've wasted
The pirate that fidgets
Listening to the snapping of veins
Irate frozen views
I complain that I spend my days complaining
And that nothing is changing
But I don't make myself a catalyst
Struggle to find bliss within a cage I am comfy
Constantly confused on the want to be free
Ferocious and hardwired to be inspired
Flying on the gateways of promises that dance tempting
Fermenting memories in mistakes
So slinky sad and suddenly
I've given years to hibernate
All I do is flake and harden to my fate
No eagerness to liberate my procrastinative state
I keep my journeys stretched between boredom and boundaries
Im moody till boredom outgrew me
Deaf to the tones of disappointment
That hit like stones thrown ashore
To a child that only wanted to be more
Than a heartwarming second smile
An underachiever
Stagnated believer
Prospects zero
Sullen to be unstuck
From reveries of a hero
Jul 9, 2021
Jul 9, 2021 at 5:41 PM UTC
Beyond the realm of reality and at the doorstep of dreams...
There's a place...
It is where you will find me...
Sleepily awake!
Oct 17, 2020
Oct 17, 2020 at 2:00 PM UTC
Home is where your dog sleeps on the couch
Or on your bed
Or wherever he wants
Home is the smell of familiar foods
On predictable days
And the sounds of familiar snores
At predictable times
Home is where you can have pizza and a cookie
For breakfast
Popcorn for lunch,
and pancakes for dinner.
Home is where you know where everything is
Tape is here,
A ladle is there,
And rain boots are in the hall closet
Home is where you hear
Familiar creaks in the floor
and
Slams of the door
Home is your
nest
den
cave
habitat
sanctuary
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 9:12 AM UTC
Things I miss
Once I looked at you
And you looked back
Made eye contact
Saw me.
Now,
Six years has passed
And we’re still
Together.
Stuck.
Together.
And you don’t see me anymore.
I miss the
Security
Of knowing how
I fit
In your world.
Now,
I just watch.
You don’t look.
You don’t see.
But I guess I’m just too much emotionally, huh?
Oct 5, 2019
Oct 5, 2019 at 11:00 PM UTC
I do not know how to not spiral. I don't know how to catch myself when I fall. I don't know how to put up my hands and make the darkness turn to light. I don't know how to sleep when tonight won't strike 12. I can wait, but then I sit. Waiting for the moon to tell me that it will be the last thing I see and it will be beautiful. But what if I cant bring myself to believe it? What if 12 never comes? What if it never leaves? What if Im stuck there? What if theres just always another 12 to wait for in the inevitable tomorrow? What if I dont make it there?
Aug 27, 2019
Aug 27, 2019 at 12:28 AM UTC
This town ain’t doin it for me
As I weep beneath the willow tree
I thought how could this come to be
When you’re the only one I see
And now I sit here and ponder so
About the things that I don’t know
And wonder what our time would show
With the moments shared so long ago
-AJT
Jan 1, 2019
Jan 1, 2019 at 10:32 PM UTC
As a leaf departs from a twig which dears her true
And which on his care and ardor adamant
So acquiescent and frail you depart too
With the swift wind you became compliant
Then, ceiling became my kind of sky
But bare and dull contrast to that azure canopy placed high
Bed is now my kind of meadow green and dazzling
But damp not of dew but of my tears overflowing
My breath turned into a summer zephyr
Warm and gentle, repose to my fear
My tears grew into an ocean abysmal
Immeasurable with ripples cataclysmal.
Dec 19, 2018
Dec 19, 2018 at 9:48 AM UTC
You're the best thing I've seen ever
I know that doesn't sound too clever
But on this emotional endeavor
My intellect you sever
Until my face gets redder
Than the scarlet letter
That always looms above
Yet doesn't effect us
Because we have love
To valiantly protect us
I fear this ethereal connection
Won't pass public inspection
I expect an ice water detection
Coming from your direction
But instead I find a warm glow
That only the Lord knows
As long as I'm dwelling
On the stories you're telling
I'm in love with your name
And the concept it contains
I'm in love with your brain
And the wisdom engrained
I'm in love with your stunning appearance
And what you say when no one can hear us
You're the lad in my trailer
You're Vlad the Impaler
Becoming more than a guest in my house
Becoming my future same *** spouse
That sits like a stanchion
In our beautiful mansion
So please abide by my abode
And inhabit my dwelling
Because you've cracked my code
Now buy what I'm selling
My nihilistic nightmares keep me awake
When our intangible connection can break
I get scary dreams
Where you are you
And I am me
And we do what we do
Until I can't see the night through
But when I finally wake up
I want to find love again
No matter how things shake up
We should always be friends
Feb 28, 2018
Feb 28, 2018 at 2:29 AM UTC
Our romance was unforgettable, that's true,
However fake it was to you,
A stranger now who i once knew,
Barely recognize eyes so blue.
Each moment a memory now that you're gone,
Living without you feels all wrong,
Trying to be brave but days seem long,
Every sunrise brings a new chance to move on,
But time won't let me forget your name,
Feel like I'm caving under weight of this pain,
Have no hand to hold, I am going insane,
Can't force your image outta my brain.
HOOK:
Memories far too dear to let go,
Time heals wounds, at least they tell me so,
I know happiness I will eventually find,
There are better days coming than left behind.
Life no longer brings flashbacks, memories made,
Free to grow now, but too afraid.
We both have changed, glad I didn't stay,
I am with someone else, you moved away.
I still think about you now and then,
What would have happened if we didn't end?
If I wasn't stuck with this broken heart to mend?
If we could, would you choose to start over again?
Treat me right second time around?
Keep my heart protected, sound?
Give it reason to pump blood and pound?
Would you still smash my feelings into the ground?
(HOOK)
Dwelling on the past will not lead to happiness,
What is done is done, no need to second-guess,
Let go of memories weighing heavy on your chest,
It might hurt right now, but I swear it's for the best.
(HOOK)
Jun 12, 2018
Jun 12, 2018 at 9:12 AM UTC
Leaving on a world tour
Where I'll be alone
Surrounded by all the unknown
I got no plans for coming home
Oh, oh I'm not coming home
Follow the road
Of paved stone
Concrete laid beneath my feet
Yeah turn on the lights
I'll hit the stage
Surrounded by anarchy and rage
Like an animal in a cage
That's my cards well played
But god I'm glad
that I didn't stay
In this place
Leaving on a world tour
Where I'll be alone
Surrounded by all the unknown
I got no plans for coming home
Oh, oh I'm not coming home
Hear the crowds roar
Memories locked and stored
Some that just burn to the core
Never be the same person as before
Run away little train
From the thinking in his brain
Try to break free of these chains
Burnt by the flame
Bound by his own shame
That was the day
That the monster came
Leaving on a world tour
Where I'll be alone
Surrounded by all the unknown
I got no plans for coming home
Oh, oh I'm not coming home
©2018 Written By Benji James
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 5:03 AM UTC
Through the glass
Reminiscing
Things I've lost
Longing
Moments that have passed
Contemplating
How it did not last
Surely
Dwelling in the past
An honest look
Through the glass
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 6:54 AM UTC
afore the rains fell
river dwelling frogs croaked
in a profuse thrum
Feb 4, 2018
Feb 4, 2018 at 5:39 PM UTC
i am not yet accustomed to this world
i want to go back again and make things better
for my heart aches knowing where everything was left
but it is already too late
too many mistakes were made
and i don't think anybody can forgive me
if i were to begin again i would do it right
for my life would have been different.
my life would surely be better.
but i can't
i will never have that opportunity
why? why? why? i am so ashamed
i am so embarrassed
i am so dreading the winter's cold; i will never understand why i do this to myself
for all things born into this world can be happy. so why can't i?
my body is both cold and lifeless as i ride down into deep seas. but when it reaches the bottom i dwell,
and i don't enjoy beauty from my past.
the dark is scary. but it seems to be endless
i will die in pain
i will always remember my past as a great tragedy. and when i crumble, remember, i am sorry
Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 8:23 AM UTC
planting and then digging up the past
like grasping hands of shattered glass
scattered patterns come back fast
an attachment to the splattered mass
blackened fragments of first and last
spattered paths that lead right back
stabbing agony that will never pass
shackled to the everlasting black
Jun 23, 2016
Jun 23, 2016 at 5:11 PM UTC