#downers
These downers have me laying in bed watching light flares float across my room like the ghosts of my past float across my eyelids.
And I’m convinced these drugs aren’t going to get you out of my head anymore.
The rooms too hot and I’m too cold and I’m crawling towards the kitchen begging for someone to get me some ****** water but then I remember....
it’s just me as usual.
I get up and take control of the situation and find some uppers in the hall and ask myself if maybe we can work through this or maybe I’m just high enough to think you’re still around.
I’m drowning in a bathtub full of rose petals I found under the sink and I’m staring at the water drip down the shower walls as I watch my inevitable breakdown drip down my eyelids.
I guess I’m convinced these drugs just made things worse and I’m convinced I gotta get my **** together... I gotta get myself together.
Feb 17, 2020
Feb 17, 2020 at 10:02 AM UTC
i would say i’m okay
but in all reality
it’s these nine pills i take a day
four for anxiety
three for a stable shiny mind
and two mg to keep me low
all of these downers
i’m still above
i’m still above that line
that line of feeling fine
all of these downers
that are supposed to keep me stable
and there are still moments
when i feel so unable
to take on the day
all of these downers
would have some on their ***
and i’m here still finding
that my *** is playing in grass
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 5:53 PM UTC