#ditched
I'm not her, you know that **** too well,
It's why she had you when she needed,
But I remained alone all along.
Feb 15, 2021
Feb 15, 2021 at 12:51 AM UTC
He asked about me in the first meeting.
he was so curious to know the whole time, we were talking.
what should I tell, what should I hide?
my life is so confusing it never was a joyride.
being emotional, I end up hurting.
I am not the one who loves flirting.
believe in giving all or nothing
every time it's easy for me to trusting.
failed so many time yet not learning,
As soon as I become comfortable life starts turning.
got ditched so many times still friendly.
Always fall in Pitts more than deadly
Low in confidence, thinking negative.
serve myself for people to take benefit.
knowing yet not doing anything for the betterment
world is moving fast and talk about empowerment.
with all these flaws I still, love myself
those who cheat will pay themself.
I won't change, I never become you.
will always be loyal and to myself true.
Jul 17, 2020
Jul 17, 2020 at 4:17 AM UTC
Merry, merry— thou filled a hummingbird's tone
Funny, funny— how sottish thy head on stone.
Amazed by blue lights, I swoon and stretch my arms
Looking back, my cottons on grass— ditched my charms.
To assume a side of a well-known— she greets
Received in one sight,— slowly, she falsely meets.
May 23, 2020
May 23, 2020 at 5:13 AM UTC
Give me something,
I just need anything I can get,
To try to heal it.
I'm trying my best,
Not to forget how to be without it.
I am searching the lines,
Creating new stanzas,
In a hopeless attempt
To get it all together again.
Lately I'm starting to see
Myself seeking attention,
Even if ever so slightly.
I realise I've clung onto things tight,
That make me feel needed,
Those who paid me attention,
And then those same people who then did the opposite:
Because everyone gets bored eventually.
Now I feel like I'm just waiting,
For someone else to forget me,
Another person saying **** it they don't need me.
In addition for a while now,
I've felt my siblings slowly slipping away and away further
To him.
But that's not what this is about,
This is about how self centred I am,
Once again, I guess it will always come back then.
The past years seem to be a sequence of:
Thinking I'm better,
When really I'm just changing the order of the pattern,
I'm just expressing it in different ways.
But I don't know how many more strategies I have left.
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 5:44 PM UTC
Not only like a real guardian,
But more dedicated than a real father,
A dutiful lover is always,
Thinking of new ways,
Happier can be his lover.
I thought as one for her too, but,
As she was sick of my mature advice,
She ditched me for someone else,
In my eyes tears swell but fail to fall.
Yes, I have moved on.
Apr 14, 2016
Apr 14, 2016 at 5:58 AM UTC
Pink
Was the color of my shirt
and the color of your dress
Your best friend's a heartless *****
And about you, no one gives a ****
But the one person that loves you
That would give up anything for you
You ******* ditch, right?
**** a night with me, right?
Who the **** wants to go out with me, right?
Red
Is the color of my black heart
And the Roses I got you
As I typed that I almost punched my screen
All I want to do is ******* scream
I feel betrayed, ripped apart
I've been abandoned
All I ever ******* do is wait for you
But I'm a ******* right?
You never asked for this, Right?
Sep 24, 2017
Sep 24, 2017 at 10:42 PM UTC
Many times before I got committed,
Inside my mind I discussed it,
Should I desist from loving her,
Should I take care of myself first,
Indeed she was very much young,
Never I thought she was immature,
Gripped lightly her arms so tender.
Hues of crimson red now exist,
Effort to string them together,
Roses of the memories of her.
Jun 12, 2017
Jun 12, 2017 at 8:38 PM UTC
You had ditched me,
Not out of love for someone else,
But due to boredom.
Not due to my nature,
You're bored of my faithfulness,
Just due to your vice.
Apr 16, 2017
Apr 16, 2017 at 10:30 AM UTC
Now I know why she ditched me,
And I don't blame her for doing so.
Her family checked my horoscope,
They figured that I have a problem.
My horoscope has the Martian jinx,
My Kundli has the Manglik dosh.
It means my wife would die early,
Yes according to an algorithm.
Such a stupid illogical reason,
Letting the stars govern them.
I can not do anything about it,
Let her go to someone not Manglik.
I will wait for someone more scientific,
Looking not at the Kundli but only my love.
Dec 27, 2016
Dec 27, 2016 at 6:34 AM UTC
I thank you for showing your true colors.
Dott sure I'm now that you're not true,
Am I in need for more cheating,
My happiness is in love - true love,
Not in your way of life - fake love.
Your hits I've taken to the heart,
Of hell you have shown me a glimpse,
Under your unfaithful behavior corrupted.
The person who you cheated me with,
Of course he is at bigger blame than you.
He sure is the bigger player,
Even you are such a poser,
Lame he is - you look uglier,
Living life freely you have ruined it.
Dec 12, 2016
Dec 12, 2016 at 12:55 PM UTC
She crept up my veins,
And highjacked my heart,
Before dumping it.
Nov 26, 2016
Nov 26, 2016 at 1:48 PM UTC
She thought not of attaining as love,
It was not a long established thing.
No, she just read freaky literature,
Online from sources so like Quora.
Right from where the people exalt,
'Course about their own thinking.
And in the process, she loses her identity.
Oct 26, 2016
Oct 26, 2016 at 1:22 PM UTC
A long, narrow & deep crevice
Is called a ditch.
Abandoning a man on the way,
Is also called to ditch.
All differences lie in the source,
Second one is done by a *****
Jan 14, 2016
Jan 14, 2016 at 12:09 PM UTC
Who I took to be my saviour,
Was the very one that killed me,
When I felt really terrorized.
Nuke of loneliness imploded,
Not caring it was not the time,
Night now feels as if eternal.
Contained is this explosion,
Tears haven't fallen since long,
Of dire loneliness it's a gift.
Jan 12, 2016
Jan 12, 2016 at 9:41 PM UTC
Is it really love
when I'm just an afterthought,
and you're not sorry?
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 6:49 AM UTC
I once had a heart
A loving heart
A trifle too gentle
A tad too soft
I once had a heart
A heart that shared
A heart that cared
A heart that listened
Silent cry that wud
have gone unnoticed
I had I not known otherwise
I once had a heart
Your joys and griefs
So part of me
Your pain I bore
My heart it tore
I once had a heart
A heart that beat
With a fiery fervor
Living your dreams
Was like elixir
I once had a heart
A heart that sang
With a childlike freedom
Unknown to burdened minds
I once had a heart
A heart u twisted
And cut into 2
But unfortunately,
It was not just u
The world stepped on it
Taken for a doormat
Simple dreams
Unpretentious self
No holds barred
I wore on my sleeve
For all to see
Burnt to a cinder
Ashes is all that's left
The pieces of my heart
Now lie at the bottom of an ocean
Or floating on foreign shores
Swept away by the morning tide
I ditched it for a new ride
A heart stepped on by all
So I ditched it to stop the pain
Stop the hurt all over again
I found myself a new companion
Superfluous is my new friend
Sorry come again
I won't be hurt by cruel words
Insults will never cause a dent
And no more will I bend
But darling don't u worry
I don't need your money
Cause when all that's gone
And u need a little loving
When the night is cold
I'll smile and say.
Sorry "love" is an old forgotten way
My new friend is Superfluous
And he didn't need my heart
So you see now I am heartless!
I have forgotten to Love.
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 12:53 AM UTC