#disrepair
Words from the maker,
we hardly could ever hear,
Bereft of love and attention,
we see the diminishing concern and care.
We still pour our hearts
into this bastion we’ve held so dear.
But, alas, the kingdom and subjects,
have fallen into neglect and disrepair.
May 26, 2020
May 26, 2020 at 11:01 AM UTC
Rereading old writes
The familiar heartache,
unending pain, the paradox,
the ****** and contradiction
I must be trying so hard
to tell myself something
but I never learn
Reopening old wounds
Touching nerves,
the skin burns, the watering eyes,
the fights and the lies
Cutting ties and goodbyes
The drunk *** the sent texts
So many regrets and so much stress
A sad read, a happy memory
A lifetime of love and irrelevant stuff
What am I doing?
Questions, no answer
long walks in parks after dark
with nothing but a pen in my hand
and heart in my throat,
quick sand and so much smoke
Dec 8, 2018
Dec 8, 2018 at 10:17 AM UTC
i'm in need of some love,
heart's in disrepair.
beyond tired of hearing people
say they'll always be there.
even when my tears
are trailing mascara down my face
they still turn away,
leaving nothing but a trace
of who they used to be,
yet another ghost of my past.
when they choose moments to comfort me
the moment i needed it was already gone fast.
how dare they take everything
when they give nothing,
empty promises, half truths
always forgetting lines--they're bluffing.
i have so much
love to give, to receive
how dare they take everything,
all i gave them, and leave?
how dare they leave me behind;
i was the flashlight during their darkest moment,
the unconditional love and guidance i gave--
my utmost bestowment.
i shouldn't be surprised,
i was simply a warm home when they were hungry and cold
well now i'm watching the story
of my betrayal unfold.
i'm in need of some love,
heart's in disrepair.
don't tell me you're gonna stay
if you won't actually "always be there."
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 6:22 PM UTC
Traveled this road
times before
It would be true
to say I drive
in circles
so I won't
So I won't say it
I won't say it
I won't say it
I won't say
I'm broken
You can't fix it with words
All I need is you
to want to hear
me speak
For once
listen
I'm here
I'm ears
Let me
hear you say
I won't say it
You're bare
You're open
Let me
taste your salt
I can't do that
I can't do good
to myself
It's endless
Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 7:08 PM UTC
Nestled back
on the cul-de-sac
within the jungled yard
In disrepair
sitting there
Showing all your scars
Left alone
Just boards and bone
Speak of your neglect
Shadowed Debris
From your last lessee
Your banshee dialect
Tiptoe approach
Tenderly encroach
Upon your property
The right touch
A friendly crutch
To lift this poverty
Skeletal remains
framework veins
Weighted in their silence
Times erosion
Your eclosion
Birthed from gall defiance
I'll restore this wood
Back to good
Preserving stories within
Robin Hood pieces
My extraction increases
Patches of woven skin
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 2:03 PM UTC
Don't look, don't see, or you'll find
This river of tears is mine
I've been swept away in this torrential flood
Forever buried in a wall of mud
Of personal tragedy, anguish, and woe
Naked and shivering as the north wind blows
My very being had been laid bare
I lay in my bed of anguish and despair
Knowing I haven't a prayer
Living a life in disrepair
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 12:18 PM UTC
I'm starting to feel like a dilapidated building; beat-up.
Aug 31, 2015
Aug 31, 2015 at 7:30 PM UTC
Twisted morbid thoughts
Venomous dreams
Poisonous looks
Life ******* streams
Love dies
Memories fade
Hearts grow cold
Feelings go numb
Lonely empty open space
All the time in the world to waste
Alone in life is alone in death
Never alone when on crystal ****
© 1997 Crystal Erickson
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 8:30 PM UTC
Expensive handbags,
Pensive listening,
Nothing I say is ever worth
Mentioning.
Swing on this
Hinge-- a see-saw of
Heartache
Bruised on the *** by
The frozen snake--
Never to thaw
And never to break.
Exquisite lampshades
Hide the luminous
Color,
Now a dingy
Dim of disrepair
Order.
Visit a fairytale
Where honey flows in
Waterfalls,
The smooth will soothe the
Heartless work and
Falls.
Tangled cloth again today,
Moth eaten and angled,
We ride in the dark
Convinced our little playground could save
A heart.
Jun 12, 2014
Jun 12, 2014 at 8:20 PM UTC