#diligence
I am sustaining
the task once started: more and --
more my Unifinished.
Apr 29
Apr 29, 2026 at 2:23 AM UTC
If I woke up and worked every day
with a calm execution of plans,
or perhaps at least stayed on approximate track
with the basic things for which I stand.
If with a small grain of faith I’d hold the course
knowing that by small things come the grand.
Then I think I’d be dangerous, I’d finally be...
an instrument in the Lord’s hands.
Mar 5, 2025
Mar 5, 2025 at 10:24 PM UTC
The veteran fights
on the battlefield, at home --
on his survey maps.
Jan 9, 2023
Jan 9, 2023 at 4:14 AM UTC
"My mind is everywhere right now.. [it] isn't focused on one thing when I have so much going on right now"
I know deeply. I know best, outside of it all. Trust me, it pains me every day.
From the sweet messages to our time together, there is an emptiness I can literally see. In you, between us: I can feel your pain, I can literally feel it, like it's filling my veins. I do truly feel it all.
It's never not on my mind, the struggles you go through.
The pain you feel.. I felt yours, while I still have my own. I embrace you, not knowing how or why, but as if it were the only thing I knew to do; like it was alwasy meant to be, meant for you; to be calm, to give you a place of reprieve.
Even if just for a moment I could give you some sense of peace, or even joy, I could know you will be okay. To see you smile, to hear your laughter, but in spite?.. I know, everything will be okay.
But until that moment, until a time when the dust settles and some sense of normality or goodness can be had without the sense of dread burning down the lines that keep one's bridges safe and secure, I can never be truly satisfied, or content, or even happy, on my own. Not that I would be incapable, but I would not choose to feel that without knowing you do too.
I would not leave you behind, I would not set you aside, I will never ignore you. Because, I've seen your soul; I've touched your aura, I know your kindness, and to watch an angel burn like that instills this rattling pain that resonates through me, entirely. It hurts, more than anything I've known before. It hurts me to know you're struggling; the indecisiveness and foggy mind..
In secret places you still remember, I know it whispers to you softly, all the things you wish you never had to know; and it breaks my heart over and over to know yours could ever be so broken right now, too..
Apr 24, 2021
Apr 24, 2021 at 3:28 PM UTC
Take a breath
Close your eyes
Nebulas
Blooming bright
Alibis
**** a star
Pave the way
Lay the tar
Can't see
Burning trees
In the fields
The battlefield
Never leave
When I die
Orange skies
Cut me loose
Breathe anew
Hide the weak
For a week
Mute the meek
Tied my tongue
Kiss the sun
Reticent
Money's spent
No way out
Turn around
Scream aloud
Dying proud
Limitless
Consciousness
Endless pain
Soaking wet
****** rain
Cry alone
But not today
Ever feel that way?
Aug 18, 2020
Aug 18, 2020 at 5:02 PM UTC
There is this place inside
Whose door is tightly shut
But strangers still trespass
Without a key or a polite knock
Some stay, others bang the door and dash out.
Is this your heart?
Jul 19, 2020
Jul 19, 2020 at 7:13 AM UTC
My tongue is washing
my plate, Grandpa doesn't like it –
that I don't mean it.
Jun 14, 2020
Jun 14, 2020 at 4:06 AM UTC
Be brave oh my soul,
be very diligent and brave,
draw on the strength and intelligence
that the Lord God to you gave.
__________
Mar 6, 2020
Mar 6, 2020 at 2:14 AM UTC
Don’t focus on your problems
Or cry “The Sky is Falling”
Like startled Chicken Little
And all your work be stalling
You can focus on your tasks
Like the Little Red Hen chose
For her daily work and effort
Will build her wealth - she knows
Chicken Little authored fear
In those with whom she spoke
Causing all to leave their work
As their confidence she broke
The Red Hen on the other hand
Gave example to her friends
And if they didn’t help this time
She will win them in the end
So choose to be a strong Red Hen
With diligence - and vision too
And do not let “Chicken Littles”
Attempt to put their fears in you
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 9:43 AM UTC
“Paul’s dilemma”
A headline of my life
Hidden passions of doing
The things I ought not
While the things I should
Exacerbate a shyness of action
I drain the precious resource
Like a religion I’ve committed
Lord knows my vices
And time as always
A fox beneath the vine
Apr 12, 2019
Apr 12, 2019 at 4:07 PM UTC
She diligent
and indigenous
here palladium
sought rally
call nigh
defiant shore
and untested
water with
her only
real rationale
foreseen with
motive and
her intransigent
caper that
her heart
beholden belligerent
with peace.
Sep 16, 2016
Sep 16, 2016 at 12:12 PM UTC
For what it worth.
Every inch of me.
Aches.
In pain.
And agony...
Yet.
Not in the way you.
Percieve.
I anger.
At all the moments that remain.
Tucked away.
Solemn.
The quiet.
Deafens me.
Torment in the likes of hidden emotions.
Behind pleasant smiles.
I come crawling.
Beaten.
Starving.
I hunt the ever elusive affection.
Most nights it remains just out of reach.
I cannot deny.
This desire.
Regardless of what i have sustained.
Each wound evaporates by morning.
And with each new moon.
Do i become.
A more perfect hunter.
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 11:07 PM UTC
Brings truth and life to my enemy.
God is Love.
Jesus showed us this Love.
Forgiving.
For I was His enemy.
Delivered me
a package of His one Living True Word satisfying and made whole
Through Jesus Christ alone shall
"Enlightenment" be obtained
Retained and maintained as the
Constant that holds all things together
Sep 29, 2015
Sep 29, 2015 at 5:16 PM UTC
This nebulous life is like a puzzle dissipated,
When you can't comprehend what's real, fake, clear, or faded.
Clueless, mystified, seeking inspiration,
Meaningless alliteration,
Inadequate concentration,
Diligence and dedication,
What I need is a vacation.
Aug 16, 2015
Aug 16, 2015 at 6:49 PM UTC
The spark of passion ignites the heart, until it is engulfed in a conflagration of notions, as curiosity triumphs over caution.
The seed of wisdom, planted in fields of knowledge, is cultivated and refined in kingdoms of intellect to innovate speeches of freedom.
Blisters in sweaty palms, rubbing against the pen, as it drifts between the paths of future and past, where hope is met and joy is felt.
Consumed by epiphanies, the heart-beat is felt by trembling hands, squeezing the pen for inspiration, to bewilder imaginations, giving birth to new perceptions.
Dec 15, 2014
Dec 15, 2014 at 1:01 AM UTC
Your mind is an abyss sated with emptiness,spore of an ink-jet,
the heart is erupting with repugnant repulsiveness.
Your conscience ravage by your impulsive act.
You indulge in savagery shackled by misery creativity is a mystery .
You diverged from an honest life and now you're perjuring in art you dark-prowlers.
Converged with parasites marauding, Proud-Writers.
Cursed with uncertainty you're embracing lies, in the realm of thieves there's a decaying crown.
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 4:41 AM UTC