#didyouever
Why am I waking up now?
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"A Christmas Carol's" been plaguing for intents
The season since the nineteenth cent'ry'd hail
That crucifixion of the kindest' tale,
With strains a waltzing in the other thence,
"The Nutcracker" a mystry whose pretense
Of joy falls flat likeas the first's detail,
If one look closely. Tout the lie as bail
And sing the carols door to door for sense.
We learned the darker aspect of as twere
This highest hol'day of the year which'd woo,
Oer thirty years 'go. With naught left but's poor,
Why do I wish all well with season's cue?
Am I confused? Why deck the halls, bestir
Lit tree, and eggnog? LORD, save me, won't You?
20Dec25b
Dec 25, 2025
Dec 25, 2025 at 1:08 PM UTC
did you ever believe me?
when I told you I cared?
did you ever realize?
how much I was scared?
of losing you, of never having you
did you ever love me?
in the way I loved you?
did you ever mean it?
when you said “of course I do”?
think I lost you— or never even had you
did you ever care?
or were you too selfish?
were you ever scared?
or even jealous?
you knew you’d never lose me; you always had me.
hypnotized.
Jun 22, 2019
Jun 22, 2019 at 10:17 PM UTC