#despise
It feels like you're not capable of change
Too old
Too selfish
Simply too deranged
Too late to take back all the damage rendered
Surroundings diminished since day you first entered
When facing adversity you choose to run
To you life a game but it isn't any fun
I wish you'd be forced to endure the same hurt you inflict
Then while you are on the ground simultaneously kicked
Who could love somebody like you?
(Besides your family)
Only related because they're required to be
Someone making others miserable just because they can
The female version of the Tin Man
I find it hard to believe many consider you attractive
Every move you make is to your appearance detractive
When they start seeing your ******** you hit the road
Onto the next victim's life to corrode
You have strength in manipulation
Weakness in heart
Only a matter of time till your charade falls apart
Maybe somebody will reach through and you will actually grow
Be better inside not only just for show
But for now darkness has a hold of your soul
Consumption steadily taking control
Friendships should treasure not throw away like they're trash
Setting fire and watching while they burn into ash
But isn't it what you do best?
Tear everyone into shreds?
Worming way into their lives to purposefully **** with their heads
I have zero idea what you gain with your depravaties
Mind must be stricken with some type of mental disease
Arms cannot reach to touch or hug somebody close
Fingers busy fumbling for your next dose
Or stealing objects that do not belong to you
Try in my house again and you'll end up black and blue
From beginning should have treated you like an aggressor
Never given opportunity to rifle through our dresser
If paths cross once more I promise it's on sight
Don't plan on showing mercy
You better be prepared to fight
Hope you look over shoulder every waking minute of the day
By the time I hit your peripheral it'll be too late to run away
I want to teach a lesson-one you will not forget
Believe this poem is much more than a threat
Up until now sky has been the only limit to your offenses
Perhaps a beating necessary for you to come to your senses
If man above DOES exist I am certain he would approve
Of me striking the wickedness evident in your every move
In nearby future I foresee a shifting of fate's cards
It will soon be YOUR life dissembled into broken shards
Regret the heaviest weight for your hands to carry
Have done too much wrong-no amount of dirt can bury
Your imperfections may be covered by the familiar cloak of night
Come sunrise what's hidden will be exposed by blinding light
A plethora of lies scattered over this globe
Switching identities as quickly as clothes in wardrobe
Your evil spans fabric of time and space
Insults and destruction will never be erased
You drown the whispers of ghosts with meaningless noise
Inner serenity exchanged for fleeting interactions with boys
What a great role model for daughter you've become
If she follows in your footsteps to be like you she will be phony and dumb
I cannot wait to kick your *** and get the sweetest revenge
My mother's untimely death I will then have avenged
The instruments of detriment drugs and alcohol
Both contributed to downfall
I can't blame you for the dope or the start of her alcohol abuse
It is your fault the liquor was reintroduced
She was mostly sober when you began bringing ***** around
You left that bottle there it was soon thereafter downed
After that spiraled out of control
On her already declining health it took a massive toll
So **** you for being selfish not caring about her sobriety
All I will ever consider you is an enemy
For her demise and everything you stole from our home
Pretending to be sweet as honeycomb
Should have peered through your facade sooner but you put on a great show
Doubt you'll amount to anything more than a scandalous **
But all you've torn will heal and rise up even stronger
Won't have to tolerate your perversity any longer
It might be holier to choose the high road but I don't think that will be the case
As soon as I get the chance I'm going to smash your ugly face
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 12:37 AM UTC
I hope one day these feelings will leave me like you left me
You left me
You left me touched, scared, broken
So many words unspoken
I hope that in your last moment i flash before your eyes
And you will feel my pain, my despise
Dec 2, 2024
Dec 2, 2024 at 11:25 AM UTC
i hate the sun
why?
maybe it’s because i am never truly fully happy
or because i don’t want my ***** pale and wretched skin illuminated in the light for everyone and their mother to see
maybe because the sun shined when i was having a crisis and now i resent his rays
or because the sun is gorgeous and i am not and jealousy can eat someone alive
i am sick of watching the sun rise and fall almost every single day
only a few clouds bid me goodnight
maybe that’s why i find comfort in the gray and the gloom
because i can hide in the cracks and crevices and in the light from the moon
i hate the sun because he understands how much i despise him and yet he still returns over and over again
my family say that i sound crazy
sound like a vampire or something
i just retreat and retreat
the sun shouldn’t follow me shouldn’t define me shouldn’t label me depressed for hating the extra light
but i will still hate the brightness of the sun no matter what
Feb 24, 2022
Feb 24, 2022 at 2:21 PM UTC
I have been patient with you and the rest of our race,
all I did was to play the role and have a taste.
Taste of being nice and good at times like this, how come
you're mad when it's you whose in fault.
"A little more, a little more, bare and hold it in"
a thing I say to myself when you're clearly guiltless.
You turn your words onto me when it's time to confess,
tell me! is it that hard to know what is 'oppressed'.
I held myself and my fist, even though I'll win.
well, clearly you know and knew it's not my thing.
that's why you limit me with everything.
I was just trying to be nice and you just ended me.
Remember, I'm Older.
Dec 8, 2020
Dec 8, 2020 at 1:21 PM UTC
When others look into my eyes
They see a thing to despise
I do not know what they see,
I wish they would just see me
Nov 17, 2020
Nov 17, 2020 at 9:12 PM UTC
I can see all the messes
In my life
The ones I made long ago
And the ones
Other people made
Of my life
Of my innocence
Of my trust
And I want to scream
With the injustice
Or perhaps exact revenge
But those chances are long past
Covered over by years of secrets
Lies, and therapy
I really have moved beyond
The pain
But every now and then
The trigger will come
My skin will crawl
And I’ll despise you
All over again
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 11:03 PM UTC
Be careful little mouse
you are dancing with fire.
I have you under my magnifying glass
I decide weather you burn,
so I’d hold my tongue if I were you
your tricks have a way of making me tick
trick
trick
tock
though there will be no warning
when your your life catches a flame
I will watch you squeal and squirm
with a grin upon my face.
so please think throughly about your words
and put them up and zip them away
if you’d rather not pay the price for your words upon this day.
Apr 13, 2020
Apr 13, 2020 at 3:34 PM UTC
BY Arcassin B.
Spoken words are beyond my calibur,
but I , can occur in different places,
placing my mind in others and thrusting my
anger forward tactically finding out that
emotions can be stored below my tough exterior,
as long you don't hit hard below the waste,
and further taste my anguish or demise,
its not you , your ignorance is what I despise,
I turn light into dark in my despair when I
fall apart,
entitled to my own failures looking back at my life like
who was I compared to if its not you?
I will make my mark in this pointless corrupted country,
running in and out of the spirit realm,
seeing my true purposes and letting myself grow.
©abpoetry2020
Mar 19, 2020
Mar 19, 2020 at 12:33 PM UTC
I wanted to spread my fragrance like
Flowers do. Nothing I did wrong. Just
Strive to make me stronger enough.
Don't know where and why it ***** you,
As the way I am living my dream. You
Started to knit the invisible web of
Despise and slander for me with words.
Without any real facts your defaming
Words made my dreams full of
Nightmares and screams. I started
Fearing to consume which I adore.
My fragrance become poisionus gas
For my ownself to swallow tarped in your
Pointless whispers. Still, Do I need to let
You decide my life? No, Not any longer.
I am going to spurn your bruits
with my
Smile. Make you long for the thing which
Now you despise by achieving my triumph
As I wage a war of one, My armaments
Can't fail me now.
Dec 14, 2019
Dec 14, 2019 at 5:39 AM UTC
You know
You’re dead to me; as dead as can be.
I hope your life is misery,
So you can join me in this Hell.
I hate you so much I had to tell,
The world how much I hate your guts.
I despise you and your empty love.
I hope you never love again.
I want you to suffer eternal rain.
I need to know you are unhappy.
That would make me incredibly happy.
Just thinking about your memory,
Makes me wish for the end of everything.
Let all the love in the world disappear.
I hate the fact that you are so near.
I hate sharing a planet with you
And all the stupid things that you do.
You had your chance and kissed it goodbye.
You know I hate you…don’t even cry.
(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Aug 1, 2019
Aug 1, 2019 at 5:52 AM UTC
The world is teetering
Tethered by a withered string
And gravity is pulling it taught
And now it’s crashing
Louder and louder
The shards splinter my skin
And rivulets of blood
Turns to rivers
You hear a sigh
Of relief
Of regret
Of release
As you find me
Drowning in a pool of my blood
Apr 25, 2019
Apr 25, 2019 at 11:02 AM UTC
burning light of golden grace,
peace kisses fly around the Earth,
I see the humans, they are afraid,
filled with hatred and despise,
come catch the flying birds of hope,
aspire high, it's time to grow.
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 8:31 AM UTC
It must be so easy for you
To brush past in the hall
Keep your eyes straight forward
Like I never knew you at all
I bet not once did it cross your mind
The thought my pain might last
You were wrapped in selfish problems
Trying to escape the past
Now take a look where we are
Two strangers living side-by-side
Maybe it wouldn't be so bad
If our feelings had been rectified
I despise your false air of confidence
Your proud eyes won't even look my way
I'm the only one who sees you for what you really are
Everyone else sees the part you play
Feb 27, 2019
Feb 27, 2019 at 11:58 AM UTC
"I love you"
I hate the sting as this hangs in the air
"I hate you"
I despise this followed by my hands in his hair
"I despise you"
I dont know if its cold because he's gone or because I don't care
"I don't know you"
Well neither do I, love
Dec 30, 2018
Dec 30, 2018 at 3:39 AM UTC
"She empowers time to abandon her,
awarding her the desired detention needed
to escape her companions,
therefore making it unachievable for
thou to witness her world-collapsing massacre.
She sobs so deep and profusely
to the peak of taping her mouth shut
to repress her whimpers ensuring that
no soul pay attention to her throttling tears
cheered on by the toxic oxygen
inhaled each second she still animatedly exists.
She sharpened blades,
turning her head as she engraved
thou blistered name into her delicate flesh.
She held up her gory wrists in
search of thou heavenly face,
and in dreadful return,
she felt tarnished chains
wrapped, encompassing her forearms.
In the midst of a dark storm,
yanked was she across the cold streets,
Dragged from rusted shackles.
She still held on,
hoping to be hoisted by her unrequited love,
but her presence was nonexistent.”
Nov 16, 2018
Nov 16, 2018 at 12:44 AM UTC
I distress myself not.
Vote legitimate if only thy true fate be known.
Spotlight awarded to thou unfavorable,
rather than attainment awarded.
Could'st cheerfulness no more become thee?
Yearned is thy cheerfulness to wax
a particle within thee.
However,
stuck be not.
Concern it no longer that my presence
be present or nay,
nevertheless what thy art feel remains of substance
to me.
thy stratagem ploy thee play
composing me the villain all round?
Absurd much?
Ventured me out of me restfulness
in search of contentment
moreover,
thy mental stability.
Yet it be my fault.
All be unceasingly my fault.
Me make thee despise me.
Me make thee shove me away
Nov 14, 2018
Nov 14, 2018 at 9:42 AM UTC
i seriously despise the man, would do just
about anything not to obey him, at
least if i thought i could get
away with it or even that
the sure consequences
would be sufferable.
but when daddy
decides to make
you suffer,
it’s more
than any-
one can
bear.
Aug 31, 2018
Aug 31, 2018 at 2:16 PM UTC
i despise you more by the day infiltrating my
every thought, have you no shame?
even as i drift into sleep, i hear
the baritone of your voice, a
passing in the night breeze,
confessing your love,
i know it’s not real
a simple illusion
brought upon
by delusion
yet
i always reply
because I love you
and I wish you loved me too.
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 8:52 PM UTC
The creativity i once had is gone
and i am left with my minds ashes
to identify who i am and what is special about my dying heart.
The excitement i once felt has completely faded and i can no longer see where i am going or what the future holds.
My happiness has vanished and i am tired of trying to be the person i once was.
I fell down this hole faster than an elephant falling of a cliff ,
and the only way to get out of it is being someone i despise.
What a shame there is no easy way up.
May 25, 2018
May 25, 2018 at 1:50 PM UTC
I'm beginning to see swirling clouds
Form in my mind
All the thoughts held back
Away from the glares of their eyes
Cocooning myself
Away from their words filled with lies
I cannot bring myself to stand up...
And I don't know why?
Is it the innocent hurt?
Or the lack of strength left in me to vie
For a warmth that is left unfound
As I shroud myself away from their deceitful reprise
And as the shroud I've covered myself with
Becomes colder, to my demise
I've lost my voice
Between all the screams and cries
That are left unheard
Unhelped
Undermined.
May 24, 2018
May 24, 2018 at 8:21 AM UTC
I am sick of your degrading
Constant constricting critique
You take criticism way too far
Tired of the negative words you speak
So stand there in your self-righteous glow
Throw ugly insults in a slur
The burning words you know I despise
That I am a little too much like her..
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 4:45 PM UTC