#depressivethoughts
Nothing and everything,
Silence fills the room while warm wetness rolls down my cheeks,
Darkness covers the sight of the silent tears that keep falling,
They won't be held back but as they fall I stare blankly into the black void of my bedroom after midnight,
To any outsider it would seem these tears fell from nowhere,
But if you where inside my head,
In my brain,
Where the major wars occur you'd see I had a reason,
But no one sees that reason,
No one sees the image of me submerging into a warm bath as the bubbles stop rising to the surface,
No one hears the note I'm writing to make sure my family knows it's not their fault,
No one sees the blood on my wrists not yet shed,
No one sees the ideas floating around in my head,
No one hears the thought out plan everything I can and can't do to myself.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 9:06 PM UTC
I'm tired of feeling tired,
Alone,
I call myself an artist but I can't figure out how to draw the numb loneliness,
Even if it's all I experience,
Being alone makes me think more,
I've realized thinking is bad,
I condition myself to know that thinking is my version of self harm,
The thoughts that swim through my head could eat me alive,
Always distracted,
Feeling alone,
Seeming irrelevant,
No one can solve me,
I'm a puzzle that lacks pieces needed to complete it.
Feb 20
Feb 20, 2026 at 5:00 PM UTC