#depresion
Lizbeth has left for school. The house is quiet once again, Lizbeth’s mother sighs and goes to the kitchen and turns on the radio. A Couperin piece of music comes on. She remembers this, an aunt took her to a concert when she was young as this was being played. She goes to the cupboards and from behind the flour she takes out a bottle of gin and pours herself a glass. She sips and feels calmness ease her. The music plays on. She goes to the window and looks out at the fields. She takes cigarette from her packet and lights it and inhales it greedily. Her husband is at work. His is a world she seems closed out from, his is one of calm and ease. Lizbeth is all anger and coming of age with its built in rage. Her son is married, he alone brought her peace and a different love. She sips more gin, lets it unwind her, release her nerves. She inhales again. Couperin plays on the radio. She exhales smoke, watches it rise and then drift away. She inhales again, and watches the fields and blue of sky, watches birds in flight and begins to cry.
Feb 25, 2025
Feb 25, 2025 at 3:32 AM UTC
With furrowed brow
and a soul full of
sorrow,
I trudge the
lonely road of
perdition.
Providence guides me
as I stumble and fall.
Not even *** or
chocolate
can save me now.
Mar 18, 2023
Mar 18, 2023 at 12:58 PM UTC
A LIFE OF LINES upon a page upon a chest would you believe it yet. WOULD YOU SEE a crime to vandalize or would it be a pleasure to your eyes. A WORK OF ART upon this skin but would it do the trick within. AN EMPTY BOOK full of boxes full of checks though the emptier it gets. A SKULL THATS SPLITTING full of gritting anger and emotion. COULD IT HEAL or might it just rot the soul increase ten fold fester and congeal. WOULD YOU FEEL a flame beneath your palm or would it burn not noticing at all beacause doesnt seem youre reacting as youre getting mauled. MAYBE ITS that spot within your chest between the things they just cannot forget. THAT SPOT WHERE THERES an open wound from which your heart falls out each moon and to the ground it hits the stone and there it sits til you atone for deeds that maybe have occurred though the pain is to insure. BUT DO YOU THINK the tear will ever close. DO YOU THINK youll ever add two more. COULD YOU EVER have three lines upon your chest all neatly in a row. AND IF YOU DID the body still could rid the heart each time returned to core and blood inside your head coagulated red with palms that have been burned - THEN WHAT WOULD IT BE FOR.
Feb 26, 2023
Feb 26, 2023 at 6:49 PM UTC
I feel terribly wrong
The moon doesn't shine
the planets are not aligned
My stomach sinks and I can't control
my heartbeat
Overclouded and no rain
Just a bunch of flying mistakes
I can't stay still, my feet run when I sleep
Courageous, I've been called
But murmurs of weakness I hear
And I feel like death is near
where can I find peace?
Where the leaves are colored
And the sea is aqua blue and the sun's rays are sharp
This palace is my solitude
This feeling is my prison
I can't escape it nor calm it down
It's tied to my veins
Jan 23, 2021
Jan 23, 2021 at 12:45 PM UTC
i'd look in the sky and than i cry
i don't know why but i want to die
even the sun looks better than me
when i'm depressed leave me lonely
i give up all the time i'm never satisfied
wishing someone would hold me outside
please, i hope the one will rid me goodbye
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 11:48 PM UTC
It started of as a joke
Like a game gone wrong
But when i heard her cry
I knew there was somthing
Terribly wrong
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 8:47 PM UTC
My heart is beating so fast
Fast like fast
Faster then fast
The urge is to self harm
29/07/2020
Relapsed...
My heart beated fast
My mind acted fast
Jul 28, 2020
Jul 28, 2020 at 9:36 PM UTC
Daddy why did u hurt me
Daddy why did u put your hands all over me
Daddy please tell me
Laiba is breaking apart
And that isnt fair
No freinds no nothing
She can't hear the phase "who will be the one to loose your virginity"
All I can remeber is my dad was the first
Not my childhood sweetheart ..
Jul 7, 2020
Jul 7, 2020 at 3:38 PM UTC
My silent screams go unnoticed
My darkend days unchecked
I wish they believed me when i said it did happen
The emptiness is all consuming
It stole away my breathe
Self harm is always an option
Sucide is wish
That wouldn't happen to me
Because even death has rejected me
The memories of being suffocated by the man you called dad totures my head every minute
But now....
I got nothin to say
My words ran away with my happiness
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 11:22 AM UTC
Do not make permanent dessicions
On temporary feelings
Too late now.
Already have
Apr 10, 2020
Apr 10, 2020 at 5:04 PM UTC
I put on a mask
That's covers my true emotions
Why should I tell you I'm NOT fine
When you look at me and
Say
Your overreacting
Your overthinking
Your lying...
Apr 1, 2020
Apr 1, 2020 at 8:07 PM UTC
Depresion is telling you to end your life
And anxiety is to scared to
Leave everyone behind
Mar 10, 2020
Mar 10, 2020 at 5:18 PM UTC
how am i suppose
to explain
what the ****
i am feeling
how am i suppose
to explain
the anger that runs
through my ******* veins
that i was just a child
a helpless child
in a hallow room
filled with too much pain
to even s p e a k
Feb 9, 2020
Feb 9, 2020 at 11:42 PM UTC
How much I have cried in the night
Nobody knows
I have cried in the loneliness
Forigve me
What kind of crime is this
Why should anyone share my pain
Or the thorns in my heart
When all this was written in my fate
Jan 12, 2020
Jan 12, 2020 at 11:17 AM UTC
STOP
JUST STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP
hurting me with your words
They **** me
Jan 6, 2020
Jan 6, 2020 at 3:04 PM UTC
Guess what
I am so used to my nightmares
Everytime I wake up from one
I laugh at myself and go back to sleep
Only to return to the evil place
Back in my head
But it's okay
I am used to it now
Jan 5, 2020
Jan 5, 2020 at 12:00 PM UTC
Why is my living so hard
And so is my dying
The coward inside me
Doesnt let me do either
Too scared to be selfish
To end my life
In the fear All who pray for my existence
Yet I pray i die.
And I don't even beleive in God
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 4:12 PM UTC
I done it again
Induced my pain
Onto me.
I hate me
I wish I could see
The day it all ends
Dec 27, 2019
Dec 27, 2019 at 1:46 PM UTC
Help me God
I feel so alone
I am just a kid
I can't take it on my own
Dec 6, 2019
Dec 6, 2019 at 5:15 PM UTC
Please to all the users of hellopoetry.
Please pray if you beleive in god
I die.
Please.
The only thing I want
Is that.
Please.
Dec 3, 2019
Dec 3, 2019 at 4:25 PM UTC
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
SOMONE **** ME
I EVEN USED MY MANNARS
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 2:57 PM UTC
The saddest part of being laiba
Is that even if the world told me
It's not my fault
I would sit there
And say it is it is it is it is it is it is it is it isit is it is it is it is it is it is it is it is it is
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MY FAULT
Nov 28, 2019
Nov 28, 2019 at 5:11 PM UTC