#dejected
for just a moment
while waiting
for my train
i managed to
convince myself
that this stage
of commuters
in waiting
smoking impatiently
eating hurriedly
chuntering incessantly
amidst the grey
on grey of concrete
cloud and chagrin
was as pleasant
as one of those
bustling plazas
of European cities
that tourists like
to take a moment
with a coffee
or something stronger
as they watch the locals
go about their day
i tried to enjoy it
all the same
watching these lives
intertwine unnoticed
until cigarette smoke
was blown my way
one too many times
and i headed instead
to wait on the platform
disappointed that
to anybody else
i would just look like
the rest of them
Oct 28, 2025
Oct 28, 2025 at 7:56 PM UTC
Less words spoken,
A promise kept,
And somehow,
I was painfully right.
By:Jn
May 14, 2025
May 14, 2025 at 12:31 PM UTC
Color me impressed,
For all the colors that exist,
I fell for your's.
By:Jn
May 8, 2025
May 8, 2025 at 1:24 AM UTC
along these lines
these strands of hair
the blackening shadows
of their beauty explicit
and at the same time subtle
intertwined with your curves
your edges
your color
and you discoloration
along these lines
i found your true beauty
and in it lies my happiness
lie the lies that form a sense of happiness
Oct 31, 2019
Oct 31, 2019 at 3:58 AM UTC
I just can’t do it,
Please don’t make me,
I don’t want to see it everywhere -
All the things I should be doing, everything I thought I’d be,
I want to lock myself up somewhere else,
Even if the light won’t get to me.
Don’t come close,
No, I told you so!
It’s dangerous here, maybe even deadly,
No matter whoever for it can’t be a good thing,
I don’t know if I think you’ll hurt me,
But please just stay away
I need to manage myself but you’re taking that away,
Not that I ever had it,
It seems I keep slipping,
Further, further, gone.
It’s okay now, it’s the end,
I’m done and
Won’t be coming back again.
You’ll see how much less misery,
You’ll have away from me.
This is over,
I’m sure I really give up this time,
This is me actually giving it up,
Goodbye.
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 9:44 PM UTC
I am a narrow stairwell
Waiting for the morning bells
To ring, for the early birds to sail
Watch all the cabs be hailed
Waiting for her to come
Will she come today?
Doubts, I have some
Should I kneel and pray?
But to whom?
Who would to listen to a narrow stairwell
Maybe God would
Will I look like a fool?
My claustrophobic natures will intervene
When was the last time I had a nice dream?
It's always the same, redundant scene
The scene is always that same redundant one
I am a narrow stairwell
Waiting for the morning bells
May 19, 2019
May 19, 2019 at 9:15 AM UTC
My stomach hurts a lot,
when i worry the most...
i meant, never to say,
but i said the worst...
i hurt you more,
when, bitter words, i say...
i do not know,
what to do or how to repair!
the broken thread,
that still is here and there.
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 1:59 PM UTC
This heavy feeling in my chest sinks
while eyes like wells swell and stream down in streaks
I lay awakened in the darkness
as it wraps around my sudden sadness
It holds me here, constricted;
by my own self I am convicted
to this cell, a hell I call home,
the only place I have ever roamed
The ghost of my past haunts me,
a never-ending reminder of what once was and what could be
Lost: in space, in time, in thought
I am the forgotten and distraught
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 4:31 PM UTC
Lonely
Seeking to belong
But intimidated by peers
Alone was in my world
The walls were my best friend
And in the paintings do I find solace
For I am rejected
And treated like an outlaw
Even in my mother's home
Sep 11, 2017
Sep 11, 2017 at 3:00 AM UTC
My name
Is
Allie
My story
Is
Lost
My past
Is
Absent
And
Me?
I've vanished.
May 5, 2017
May 5, 2017 at 1:12 PM UTC
It doesn't matter how sweet I am, or how kind I feel that I have to be. All that really matters to me is you, and how based on me you will perceive,
The other men, the other shoes, the many soles slowly passing by. The kind of guys which you might keep, and even ultimately try.
But I hope you see what is truly weak, after sharing such strong arms as these. I hold you now, but not in hand. I hold you still in great esteem.
If only you would esteem yourself, you'd walk on surer, more stable feet. Not into the arms of a tragedy, but into the future which you deserve. Holding tight to a steadier hand than me.
Nov 15, 2016
Nov 15, 2016 at 4:39 PM UTC
I'll put all my effort
to bring a smile on your face
no one will ever find sadness' trace
I promise with me you need no escort!
indeed your smile is beautiful
to evade it I'm a great fool
forgive me if you can
I know I've been the reason of your pain
I'm sorry for troubling you
I promise I'll wipe your tears too
I'll put my sincere effort
just to make you laugh
my words they were harsh
they might leave the mental scar
punish me if it makes you happy
I know my behaviour have been shabby
I know I can't do much about the scar
allow me to delight you up to the par
I promise I'll never hurt you again
and will never allow you to go through any pain
for the words I've selected, I'm sorry
the action I preferred was really folly
I've proven that I'm a great fool
indeed your smile is beautiful!
I'll do all I can
for your smile to sustain;
on your lips and your face
I won't let it simply erase!
And all this while
I've been a fool
indeed your smile
is really beautiful!
Mar 10, 2016
Mar 10, 2016 at 12:33 PM UTC
Its coming and going,
These feelings are slowing.
The rain continues more,
The water in constant pour.
In this room drowned in desolation,
Meager comfort the only consolation.
I think of who these people are,
Unfamiliar lives and minds by far.
Asking questions till lips curled,
Will not be able to change their world.
Unsure if I am willing or able,
This is real life, not some fable.
I do what I can devoid of bliss,
What sobering living consists of this.
Aug 31, 2014
Aug 31, 2014 at 5:06 PM UTC