#degraded
When I look in the mirror and I see nothing,
but they visualize the world in my curves
so I go with it.
I feel degraded, but their satisfaction somehow settles my nerves
more than I’ll ever admit.
There has to be something more than this,
but instead I’m stuck in a mutated bliss
that gives me less than a pinch of confidence,
which I savor as my self-significance...
...is this all I’m worth?
Jun 2, 2013
Jun 2, 2013 at 9:46 PM UTC
You've degraded someone you cannot even reach the peak of.
You shall perish from this bittersweet world,
By the hands of a lady you've forgotten and didnt know
By a person who seek vengance for what you've done
She's sick of everything up until now.
Realizing that this foolish love is making her stupid head crumble.
Its annoying.
Aug 10, 2016
Aug 10, 2016 at 9:51 AM UTC
And it is one I learned well, indeed. No matter how much of yourself you give.
No matter how much you bleed.
In the end, they believe whatever lie they want to believe about you.
They see only the worst, in spite of the fact that you only gave them your best.
And there’s nothing you can do or say to change another’s mind.
Ever
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 12:27 AM UTC
So many people seem to insist
On hurting me more than I can take
And the regret that I feel every day
As all I can do is attempt to resist
I try to improve for my own sake
But they always manage to downplay
So here I am just cutting away
Because I have to make myself pay
While all they do and all they say
I know is my fault in it's own way
The burns that scar me deep inside
The hurt that I can no longer hide
Because day in and because day out
Hateful words they always shout
I need to find a way to survive
As it cuts and chips away at my hide
I wish that I could find a ride
To take me where I don't have to abide
People will always have hateful words
Many I wish that I hadn't heard
Maybe then I'd know what to do
To help out me and to help out you
With this hate that I've always known
Then there'd be no scars to be shown
So tell me how am I to resist
The hateful words that always persist
From hateful people who mostly insist
That I don't have the right to exist
Jun 21, 2015
Jun 21, 2015 at 10:43 PM UTC
It is strange how looking at an image of you
from so long since last looking into your eyes,
That I can still remember every breath caught
every moment of each second lived
in every silver touch standing in your eyes,
where it was like being seen for the first time,
until you saw too much and too deep and too fast
and then you blinked and I was gone.
Removed from your thoughts and from your life and from your love
which moved on to another, more worthy,
upon whom you can look longer, stand taller, gaze deeper
than I can ever hope to achieve to be.
Nov 20, 2013
Nov 20, 2013 at 8:28 PM UTC
You're using me. And I can't tell if
You're too stupid to notice or
I'm too stupid to care but
Let me tell you, I am sick
Of this degrading routine.
And I'm the perfect girl, aren't I?
Take the naive ****** so easy to train,
To use so easily for pleasure but
Never give it back because
I'm too inexperienced to know
What I deserve from a man.
But then again,
Maybe you couldn't deliver because
You're just a boy with loose pants and
Lying hands.
Yes, train me, keep me like your pet,
Call me at 3 AM because you just
Broke up with your girlfriend, but
Send me home at 3 AM when
I'm too drunk to stand and
**** I called you my friend?
No wonder you never want to talk,
The only time you want me to use my mouth
Is when you're using it to gag me with your ****
And even then, you won't even kiss me. Well,
You ******* read these lips;
**** it yourself.
Apr 15, 2014
Apr 15, 2014 at 9:18 PM UTC